depressed-loser - Hello Poetry

i spent a week in the behavioral center psych ward mental hospital they said three to five days they said they wanted to monitor i spent a week simplistic routine group and rec therapy all so they could see why i was feeling the things i felt asking questions getting personal i spent a week new medication new friends new experiences new diagnosis all from the psych ward i notice it everywhere now why i do the things i do bipolar a simple word that explains EVERYTHING it all makes sense the decisions i make that i wouldn’t normally make it all makes sense the racing thoughts twenty four seven three sixty five it all makes sense the excessive shopping with money i don’t have it all makes sense my mouth and my brain racing but not on the same track it all makes sense i spent a week in the psych ward -k.l.

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Apr 15, 2015

Apr 15, 2015 at 9:22 PM UTC

the psych ward

i spent a week in the behavioral center psych ward mental hospital they said three to five days they said they wanted to monitor i spent a week simplistic routine group and rec therapy all so they could see why i was feeling the things i felt asking questions getting personal i spent a week new medication new friends new experiences new diagnosis all from the psych ward i notice it everywhere now why i do the things i do bipolar a simple word that explains EVERYTHING it all makes sense the decisions i make that i wouldn’t normally make it all makes sense the racing thoughts twenty four seven three sixty five it all makes sense the excessive shopping with money i don’t have it all makes sense my mouth and my brain racing but not on the same track it all makes sense i spent a week in the psych ward -k.l.

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it's all just a big game of russian roulette and i'm running out of empty barrels -k.l.

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Mar 30, 2015

Mar 30, 2015 at 1:53 AM UTC

russian roulette

it's all just a big game of russian roulette and i'm running out of empty barrels -k.l.

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do you ever have the desire to just cut and open your skin and watch yourself bleed? not for any reason not because you want to release not because you need to cope not because you are sad but just because you want to. it's in those moments, when it's no longer a coping mechanism when it's no longer a release when there's no longer a reason it's simply addiction -k.l.

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Mar 16, 2015

Mar 16, 2015 at 1:17 AM UTC

addiction

do you ever have the desire to just cut and open your skin and watch yourself bleed? not for any reason not because you want to release not because you need to cope not because you are sad but just because you want to. it's in those moments, when it's no longer a coping mechanism when it's no longer a release when there's no longer a reason it's simply addiction -k.l.

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and she cried completely alone again ugly red letters carved into her skin -k.l.

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Oct 5, 2014

Oct 5, 2014 at 10:04 PM UTC

release

and she cried completely alone again ugly red letters carved into her skin -k.l.

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she was slightly suicidal partly crazy but mostly alone -k.l.

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Sep 20, 2014

Sep 20, 2014 at 9:58 PM UTC

suicide

she was slightly suicidal partly crazy but mostly alone -k.l.

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i must be allergic to kindness because i don't receive any i must be a pathetic loser because my blades are my only friends i must be lonely and alone because i am always ignored i must be dead because i feel nothing but numb i must be skinny because i don't eat, right? wrong -k.l.

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Aug 31, 2014

Aug 31, 2014 at 3:25 AM UTC

i must

i must be allergic to kindness because i don't receive any i must be a pathetic loser because my blades are my only friends i must be lonely and alone because i am always ignored i must be dead because i feel nothing but numb i must be skinny because i don't eat, right? wrong -k.l.

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sometimes time heals things that aren't necessarily broken -k.l.

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Jul 2, 2014

Jul 2, 2014 at 2:59 AM UTC

time

sometimes time heals things that aren't necessarily broken -k.l.

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tears rolled down her face and her chin rested on the porcelain toilet bowl and the white paper towel slowly stained red with her blood -k.l.

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Jul 1, 2014

Jul 1, 2014 at 1:46 AM UTC

breakdown

tears rolled down her face and her chin rested on the porcelain toilet bowl and the white paper towel slowly stained red with her blood -k.l.

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no matter what anyone else says or does the world will always make you feel small and insignificant and worthless -k.l.

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May 21, 2014

May 21, 2014 at 11:34 PM UTC

unimportant

no matter what anyone else says or does the world will always make you feel small and insignificant and worthless -k.l.

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her skin is smooth, the scars are gone but little do you know she acts like everything's okay yet she feels like she's alone did you check her stomach? and did you see her hips? there's pain inside her eyes and a fake smile on her lips -k.l.

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May 6, 2014

May 6, 2014 at 11:37 AM UTC

she pretends

her skin is smooth, the scars are gone but little do you know she acts like everything's okay yet she feels like she's alone did you check her stomach? and did you see her hips? there's pain inside her eyes and a fake smile on her lips -k.l.

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