If you touch me
I won't feel anything
I am numb
It'd be fascinating to light a fire to my skin and smell the burning flesh as it turns black
It'd be ok because i won't feel anything
I'd stick pins into my skin and see how long it would take to be lightheaded as my blood drips
If you touch me
I won't feel anything
The burning sensation, the sparks, the goosebumps i would get at your touch
Would only be an imagined feeling
A feeling i yearn to feel again
If you look at me
I won't feel anything
Am emotionally numb
I won't shy off if we are eye to eye
The nervous feeling
The eye diversion
Is only a thing my unnumb self
If you look at me
I won't feel anything
My blank mind
My lack of words
The gibberish talk
My painted smile
And overplayed laugh
All as i stare into your eyes
All this is what you'd wish to see
Rather than the numb stare i give you
If you listen to my words closely
You'll realise , i don't care
My uninformed mind can't take the shock anymore
My euphoric hormones can't be controlled
My hopeful heart is becoming hopeless
My mind is tired of over analyzing
My mind is tired of this romantic B.S that's everywhere
My heart doesn't give a **** about your lies
My euphoric hormones don't need to be fed by your presence
My face is tired of lighting up when you walk into the room
My body is tired of sending signals to please you
I am tired of feeling
So i might as well embrace the numbness
Feb 29, 2016
Feb 29, 2016 at 10:51 AM UTC
I told you
You panicked
You rejected me
I was broken
I tried
But it didn't work
I patiently waited for you
You didn't acknowledge
Your presence enlightens me
The distance destroy sme
Your ignorance breaks
Distractions can't help
Cause you invade my thoughts
This mean that
Am addicted to you
Feb 13, 2016
Feb 13, 2016 at 12:11 PM UTC
What if, the feelings were mutual
What if they were whispered in the air,
Revealed to each other and went with the flow of it
Would any action be done or would our doubts hold us back
What if we happened
Would the love be overwhelmingly good with a deep roaring passion
That we would have a piece of each other in our minds
Stuck like a strong magnet to metal
Just, what if....
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 11:12 AM UTC
Just an ordinary face like the rest
Grey and blurred out like the mist
Undistinctive from the rest
Majority of the crowd
Common and boring to you
Unique to me
Splendiferous to the eye
Beautiful to the heart
Jan 28, 2016
Jan 28, 2016 at 1:31 PM UTC
Don't let go of me or else i'll float
Let me drown in happiness instead of floating to my sadness
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 2:56 PM UTC
Sanity seems to be drifting further and further
I need to be grounded but nothing seems to fit
All this small incidents ,events that is just everyday life seems to be ripping me apart
into pieces
Pieces that need a strong magnet to pull them back together
All into one piece
A sane piece
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 2:55 PM UTC
Truly what has become of me
Creating an idea that i replicated the luggage that comes along with it
Wondering what could be if we crossed paths and walked together for a season
Thinking of a fantasy so beautiful with only the flaws of our imperfections
The fantasy that has made me afraid of the reality
Afraid of being a disappointment on my first try
Afraid of the reality that could be
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 5:56 AM UTC
3 years
Yet
No progress in killing that thing
That thing that is so beautiful
Yet tormenting
All i did, was encourage it
With the hope for mutuality
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 1:30 PM UTC
How sad it is , that he eyes me while i eye another
The pain from rejection hurts, and that i did to him
Whilst i await mine to finally shut down, this great adoration
The torture it feels,for him to be there so close
While i can't speak a word
Just my heart aching with sadness from the truth that might be
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 12:16 PM UTC
Stupidly sad
Fakely smiling
Strongly pretending, that i'm doing fine.
Loathing the past
Excitingly scared of the future
Patient for now, waiting for the happy moments.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 8:48 AM UTC
