When the light is so hard to see
And the sky is just as dark as me
Will you still be there until the end?
When the things around are so full of change
and the feeling of helplessness settle in?
Will you want me just the same?
Will you break the chains you feel and fly?
Even if that was just your own reality?
Go so very far away from me?
No don't go it will feel like nothing.
You went and it left me feeling nothing.
Gave my everything,
but you gave me nothing
or
maybe it was something
reduced to the infinite zero that it is.
Therefore, what is nothing?
0 = ….
The truth behind a persons eyes
is so very hard to see.
Especially yours now that I am me.
I opened up my vulnerability
only to let you corner me back
in to the dark shadows of the past.
The lights are changing, so irreplaceable
The words from your lips change into notes from the sky
I hear them all so loud and clearly,
But I wanted you to hear mine
My broken life so deep and full
Broke us apart right in two
We wanted each other so very much
Why did we ever let this break us apart
Cause I gave you tomorrow, what I couldn’t give you today
The sting of your words
I only feel betrayed
I loved you so, why couldn’t you see the words dying in front of me
My life, purpose,
YOU were my purpose, unseen to be tilting
My world is spinning, but you're not here
You are with someone with blonde hair
I didn’t want to break you
But i wasn’t sure how to let you go without you loving me
Now you hate me, the lights are out,
The loneliness is full once again a year later,
You didn’t want to be there for me and I already knew why
It was because of me breaking you down inside
Why did you turn on those lights,
You kept me there with false hope
I want to feel, I want to fly
Just you and I
Up the mountains into the big blue sky
The endless possibilities, the truth behind the trees
I held you in my arms, knowing I was safe with you here
I loved you forever no matter the pain
Total isolation, a memory foreseen
But the world got in the way, I guess
and then I couldn't see or maybe I had never seen
The dust got in between the sparks of our memories
I never wanted to hurt you, but it happened just the same
I only did this to make sure your heart could move away
Yet you hurt me too
You left me alone, just longing for you
You preyed on my innocence
Your eyes at the flare of your own intentions
Or was that all a lie too?
The memories all still there,
I fell in love with the memories rather than you
What is love, if it led me to you?
Your dark crusade of the conquest you wanted to make of me
Yet some part of me knew at the time this too.
Now you’re gone and all the same moving on
I’m here stuck in this eternity
Time slipping away, all so fast, but now you’re not here
And the memories weren’t made to last
You don’t care, but I still do
All I wanted to say is I love you
Now I've moved on, let go of those memories, and yet you continue to hold still?
I don't care anymore, let go I am free away from your toxicity.
And yet, my panic still rises when I see your face
So have I moved on or is it the lack of light
That moves me so with your presence withering me down
But all the same you know the real reason too.
But now it’s gone, you’re moving on,
And I am left with the question of love and eternity.
My confidence renewed
To the rarity of me
To the light I radiate on others
and others on me
To the people who stayed for me
when others walked away.
To those who made me laugh
in the depths of my tears.
To those who allowed those tears
to flow down my river of spirals.
To those who without question or judgement
allowed me infinity to be okay with me.
To those who fight the internal wars
To the many who look in the mirror,
and cannot find the fight inside
You are alive breath, revive
I will continue to grow
I will continue to be me
No one
Not a little boys' charm
Nor the insecurities of another woman
Can change that.
Eternally.
Apr 16, 2022
Apr 16, 2022 at 4:13 PM UTC
What is it like to feel beautiful,
And yet feel as if you have
pushed away
The thing you care about the most.
You are my weakness and yet my greatest strength.
I don’t understand these spaces full of feelings,
and yet I feel something great past the
D E P T H S O F M Y
H E
A
R T
… and into my S
O
U
L It is you that puts that there,
And yet the underlying FEAR, of how fast you could take it all away, is there.
The more I think... the longer I fear that love can only be at play here…
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 11:13 PM UTC
L o s t
B r o k e n
C o n f u s e d
B e t r a y e d
H e l p you left me in the dark
No more
I can't look you in the eyes,
but I can't forget your eyes
Where were you when I needed you the most
When I needed you here
and now that your gone all I see
is
Lost hands hanging around
Broken hearts circling back
I am so confused why did you do this to me
I am broken
Now I am gone
Help me someone anyone so I may survive
These feelings inside
You broke me apart, you put a divide
You left me for gone
You took my trust and heart and ripped it into
a thousand of chipped up pieces.
I am changed
I can't see
Did you take my eyes away from me
Are you here
Are you still there?
Because I am lost without you to guide me through my life
I need you now but I'm broken inside
I N S ID e
Lost
Broken
Confused
Betrayed
Help
i Can't seem to see your face
t h e
w o r d s
a re h ard er to see from here
The words that aregioing
aaaare
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
a
p
a
r
t
Sep 29, 2019
Sep 29, 2019 at 1:39 AM UTC
Tread lightly on those you forget
Shhhhhhh
be quiet
or she will hear your foot steps
You sneak around trying to avoid the past
Was it something only meant to be forgotten
Do you know?
If you do, why did you leave her there?
Do you know how she feels as she waits?
Was there ever a time when you truly cared
or was that to be forgotten
When " i
love
you "
was said
Did you forget that
and decided to leave her in
T H E D U S T O F T H E P A S T
instead.
Was it ever REAL or was it fake?
Did you mean what you said or did you leave her for dead?
Did those touches and looks and kisses mean nothing too you?
Or did they mean something like they still do too her too?
Sep 28, 2019
Sep 28, 2019 at 11:18 PM UTC
I feel
Trapped
In my eyes
A reflection
That mocks me
That mocks my existence
My mind wraps around it
Like a bow trapping what's inside
Yet, what is inside... is kept trapped tight in a small space
But,
Is it out of
Fear or Betrayal
those feelings that hide in the
corner of the shadow of the dark
The footsteps... once so brave and strong are now defined as
meek
and
weak
and just like that she carries the weight of the world in chains forever...
Aug 10, 2019
Aug 10, 2019 at 12:13 PM UTC