Awkwardly circling the room
Waiting for my song
I pull up a few chairs for my demons
They nod to me, I nod to them
"Let's hash this out ," I say
and so it begins
The music sends me into a trance
The demons and I begin our dance
Like a complex game of chess
We both bring our best
More than a mere monster mash
Stars will tell of this battle for eons
The universe forever scarred by our clash
Scholars will forever question my reasons
Suddenly a chord brings me to my knees
Waking memories I've yet to overcome
The one pain that I can not reprieve
Through this chain reaction I am done
Years of progress reversed
Known dead ends revisited
Familiar cursed ground traversed
I've relinquished resistance
Demons thirsting to rake me over the coals
I've forgotten why I fight consistently
All plans now reduced to one new goal
**** The Pain: By Any Means Necessary*
Awkwardly circling the room
Waiting for my cue
I used to be someone new
now I've regressed to someone I always knew
I pull up several chairs for my demons
They nod to me, I nod to them
"Let's hash this out ," I say
and so it begins
again
and again
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 12:44 AM UTC
We're hunting for a killer
They say he lives near me
He's a heartless murderer
One of Hell's own beasts
They say he's got a bad habit
Say he's one hell of an addict
Claims he can't even remember
All the ones he's dismembered
This hunt is personal
Especially for me
Since this demonic creature
Attacks those closest to me
They say he's got a bad habit
Say he's one hell of an addict
We've got him cornered in a shack
It's time to put down this beast
I turn to tell them to attack
To avenge all those slain
Only then do I see
their guns all aimed
at me
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 5:24 PM UTC
I admit that I need'er but I'm a bottom feeder
kneelin 'ere fearing her feelings are fleeting
In my memory her parting words keep repeating
Love is tragedy that left me lifeless and bleeding
I'd go back in time and visit the younger me
Get him back in line to stop her from leavin' me
It's not a possible option so I'm turnin' and tossin'
In my bed every night with alcoholic concoctions
Done with hang overs and complicated decisions
I guess you could call it spontaneous remission
Goin' slower now and sober but the hurt aint ever over
I'm in love with her forever but I can't even show her
I'm hopin' for another pretty girl to be my lover
But every girl I find is in love with another
So I try to keep hope alive and believe that I
will feel love again, at least before I die
Dec 8, 2013
Dec 8, 2013 at 4:00 PM UTC
On a raft in the middle of the ocean
walking alone and dehydrated in the desert
lost and hungry in the wilderness
friends in the skies in the images of clouds
inspiring memories but nothing on which I can feast
tears too salty to quench my thirst
try to speak but i just weep
try to put energy into my feet
I loved you all but this is so hard
I want so **** bad to survive
Can't anyone see I'm barely alive?
Questioning why I should even try?
Tears dried in the heat of the sun
Years ago I stopped having fun
God **** I'm just so
I'm just so done
Drifting on a raft
in the middle of an ocean
of my own bitter tears
they can't hydrate me
can anyone revive me?
Can I survive being me?
I thought I knew reality
If this is life then it's death to me
Cause there aint even one breath left in me
Can I redeem what's left of me?
Starving for an epiphany
I just hope you all remember me
as this planet dismembers me
as I succumb to being me
praying for a new me
Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 2:56 AM UTC
Allegory hell
Mischief born
Bodies torn
Laughing hell
All is well
So so ******* well
Comfort worn
Death forlorn
Fools sojourn
All is well
so so ******* well
Apr 14, 2012
Apr 14, 2012 at 1:35 AM UTC
Seated proudly on my throne
A self made king all shall know
Enslaved any who'd dare deny
Sentenced them all to die
In the mirror but somewhat scarce
Looks like me but he's been cursed
What the hell is happening?
What is this, my becoming?
Seated comfortably on throne
Righteousness all my own
And any fool who shall deny
Is a fool I'll sentence to die
In the mirror myself, yet demon
Tell me at once this double meaning?!
What has happened to my image?
To hell with this pilgrimage!
Held by chains all my own
I'm restrained forcibly to this throne
What is this travesty?
I was your ****** majesty!
This catastrophe
A messed up calamity
I'd had an epiphany
Only after the end of me
Mar 21, 2012
Mar 21, 2012 at 12:29 AM UTC
Standing on the precipice of collapse
Try and be calm, relax
Brain just skipped a synapse
Junction up ahead is a relapse
Ego drove away in a Cadillac
Can't discern fantasy from fact
A mean punch, reality packs
Praying for a freeing heart attack
Locked and shut up inside
Demons, angels, and all the swine
Smile, nod, everything is just fine
body
outlined
in white chalk line
Comfort stacked in mansions hollowed
No escape in fictitious gods hallowed
Dove
too deep
in waters
too shallow
Tried to object but the judge allowed
Upon the onset of collapse
the brain decides to skip a synapse
Be calm, relax
It's just another relapse
Feb 25, 2012
Feb 25, 2012 at 1:03 AM UTC
Severely ravaged but not nearly enough, plenty of time left to refill the cup
The tip of the arrow still embedded in chest
Give it time the body will digest
Reflections ripple memories with softly sung melodies
The breeze through the trees will remedy the dark disease
Broken halo held up with scotch tape and glue
Black out drunk on scotch but still remember you
In the wake of disaster children still at play
People paint their souls with every word they say
Jan 12, 2012
Jan 12, 2012 at 3:09 PM UTC
Dismal rays of light illuminate my view
Within the darkest nights I'm haunted by you
I've found myself a resolution
Loaded drink my trusted solution
Tears so warm and dripping of lost love
They're as hot and red as my own blood
I can't, I just can't get enough
Of your diseased terminal love
But it's in your arms when I am freezing
Inside those cold dead arms I am freezing
I never thought I'd stop believing
But you taught me how
Somehow
Disgrace becomes my place
Love is replaced by hate
You reminded me why I built the gate
With one more sip I reiterate
I hope, from your image, to escape
Dec 21, 2011
Dec 21, 2011 at 5:22 AM UTC
Deep in the meadow there's a place I go
where no one can see me and shadows don't grow
Cloaked in the sunlight, secured by the Earth
Letting go of all I've seen and done since birth
Blue sky divide and free what's mine
Not yet dead but just barely alive
Illusions of time and space diminish
Injured pieces of my soul replenish
Oct 28, 2011
Oct 28, 2011 at 12:40 AM UTC