At what point does something become unforgivable?
Is it the moment when all hope is lost?
When you strip the comfort of forever from an innocent mind?
When u fall so hard you shatter the ground those around u are standing on,
When you take the last breath of love from your lovers chest,
When you steal the beating heart from a sacred and beautiful bond,
When you fraternize with the enemy of your beloved for reasons unknown to all involved,
Is it when you reach your hand into the bowl of trust and leave nothing but ***** fingerprints?
Where is there to go when you’ve built walls of slippery vines
surrounding you,
suffocating you.
Who do you ask for help without bringing them down with you?
Misery loves company but no one loves misery.
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 1:33 AM UTC
I know it's too late,
But let me say one thing
Im sad you're moving in with her.
You know I still dream about that sometimes
I wake up confused
Wondering why it wasn't true
trying to figure out why it didn't work
The inevitable and unavoidable truth
is that it was all my fault.
I know I waited too long
but I swear I could love you now
Im ready to be scared of the love, the feeling of your love
Im ready for the most dangerous and yet safest fall
Im better now, I promise
I think.
I know I lost my chance
but if you just gave me one more
I would worship you the right way
every part of you that tried to save me
so long ago.
I want to have all of you
But I shouldn't keep holding on.
I should let go.
But how could I if I don't just at least let you know,
Im sad you're moving in with her.
You were supposed to be mine
and I was supposed to be yours
You were supposed to sing to me and I would write about you
It was supposed to be us
Nov 26, 2018
Nov 26, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC
I was at the doctor yesterday and they weighed me
nothing unordinary obviously
but seeing i was just a few pounds less than i thought i would be
brought some sort of strange flutter to my stomach that sat there
for the next few minutes
distracting from the fact
that i was at the doctor
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 12:20 AM UTC
Maybe in the next life I'll be the musician.
You'll be me and I'll break my own heart over and over again.
Or you'll break mine.
Or I'll break yours.
You can have my words and all my thoughts
Hold them as your own,
I'll be soft and gentle with you
Just as kind as the sweet songs you'll hum
into my mind.
You'll feel lost and push me away just to save yourself rom the fear of
being alone.
You'll hide away for days just waiting
to be found and I will find you.
I'll keep finding you
over and over again.
I'll save you from whatever strange idea has most recently creeped into
your constantly turning mind.
Ill save you only to give you your strength to run and hide again.
We will play a vicious cycle,
continuously returning to our inevitable goodbye.
With each coming of the cyclical beginning of our end,
we vow to pull at each others hearts a little more tightly
than the last time.
Nov 29, 2015
Nov 29, 2015 at 9:45 PM UTC
Im not picking at my scabs anymore.
They were right there always in sight.
Seeing the blood well up into that single drop was always somewhat
satisfying.
Watching my body react
But then I was always left with more time
More time waiting for it to heal
Its time.
Its time I let it heal now.
For good.
The scar will always be there, but no longer there to be reopened
It will never be able to bleed again.
So I don't think Im going to call you anymore.
Im not picking at my scabs anymore.
Nov 29, 2015
Nov 29, 2015 at 6:29 PM UTC
I wanna throw up all the feelings you just shoved down my throat.
All the guilt and confusion.
The loneliness and lost time.
I'm gagging on the pain and all of those hateful thoughts.
They're filling me up and making me sick.
The thought that you're done with me is slowly seeping into my bloodstream and slowing my heart. It's beating so softly trying to push through your crushing grip around my neck.
The cold words dripping from your mouth are turning me pale and all I need is your warm body to wake me from this nightmare you have so perfectly orchestrated right in front of my tear blurred eyes but that soft morning will never come because you have left and you are gone and I am here still watching the limbs of my body begin to finally realize that they are never again to be touched by yours in that familiar and loving way
So I will sleep with every intention of finding you tonight somewhere in my memories and wishing only to find you here in my bed when tomorrow comes.
Oct 11, 2014
Oct 11, 2014 at 5:54 AM UTC
I just wanna listen to you inhale for a moment and exhale the next
I just want a little time to remind you why I'm here with you and just what you did that caught my eye on that funny little day way back last October
I could do with some quick glances your way while you're not looking as to catch you in those moments you let your true feelings show, when you think no one is watching.
I just want a few chances to brush my hand along yours in a crowded room of people we sort of know
If only, if only to give a quick reminder of the familiarity that is still there.
I want your tshirt smell to be my calm down after a stressful drive home from work and I want to share spaghetti with red sauce and cheap wine
Kiss my neck and be my friend and hold me close because I need you so much more than I would ever show because the fact that I just wanna hear you inhale for a moment and exhale the next scares me into a million tiny pieces of worries
But here I am wishing for another day in October to see if I could really be yours in the way I wished to be for so long
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 12:55 PM UTC
Just because you spoke my name in a new way does not mean that it is yours
You held my hand and broke my heart with similar intentions
Yet here you are in my mind and on my lips even though
I'm pretty sure I let go of you months ago
I've held the ribs of new souls and we did things I learned to do with you
But I can't seem to smudge away your finger traced lines encircling my body
I remind myself of the things I said I would never do
And giving into you was recently added
Yet here you are on my mind and in my bed
How you escaped my traps of getting rid of you I'll never know
All I ever wanted was to memorize your heart beat and have that tune beside me for as long as I could still hear
Sometimes I cant remember what it sounds like and those are days I breath new air
But it's nights like right now
Where all I can hear is my own heart
And it sounds an awful lot like yours
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 4:14 AM UTC
The lies you told between our lips
Her skin's touch between our hands
Defining secrets between our gazes
Our clothes between our bare bodies
Unforgettable truths between our minds
Broken promises between our hearts
A hard earned love split in half by easily made mistakes
Mar 3, 2014
Mar 3, 2014 at 2:51 PM UTC
Missing links
In the chains of our lives
Almost a whole
With a few holes
You are my holes
You and your body
Your eyes lips and hair
Your hands ears and back
What if you came back
Would it be what I know
Our slow warm and familiar love
Like not a single day apart had passed
I cannot focus on the past
When I saw you my mouth would water
When I think of you my eyes still water
Distance in mind and body
You were my beloved somebody
I was your beloved somebody
We had inseparable bodies
I need to forget your body
Dec 12, 2013
Dec 12, 2013 at 3:03 AM UTC