I know who I love
I don't care that you don't approve
I know who I want to be
I don't care what you think
I know who I am
I don't care about you
I know I'm stable
I don't care if you try to change me
Good luck
Jun 19, 2020
Jun 19, 2020 at 12:28 PM UTC
Broken glass
Broken me
Open bottle
Open me
Watching monsters
Watching me
Looking glass
Looking me
Solid mask
Solid me
Wishing star
Wishing me
Calling out
Calling me
Waiting patiently
Waiting me
Closing eyes
Closing me
Dreaming big
Dreaming me
Inside pain
Inside me
Sleeping dark
Sleeping me
Holding you
Holding me
Loving me
Loving you
Jun 19, 2020
Jun 19, 2020 at 12:21 PM UTC
Muddled dreams of chaos and oblivion
Wake up, feel the breeze from the window
Open the bottle, swallow your feelings
Drown the colour in grey
Put on a smile, put on your mask
Go to the table and eat
The motions of the day go by
I’m still typing onto a blank slate
With a blank stare
Empty heart
I can feel my mask breaking
Keep up the act
Smile and push on
Swallow your feelings
Put the plates into their places
In the sanctuary the mask falls
The smile is gone
Time for another trivial day of life
Haphazardly put on the mask
I'm just tired
I'm fine
Don't worry please
Clean and walk
The melody drifts into my ears
At last, a true smile
Through the door, the chains are off
The boundless energy is out and gone
Open the bottle
Swallow your feelings
The darkness is an empty void
I fear this loneliness
Me and the dark aren't so different
Suppressed
Rest eludes me
Does even my sleep hate me
Smile and cry
Consumed by exhaustion
Collapse into nothingness
Swallow the pills, they keep you normal
Swallow your feelings
Until you can't eat any more
Until you break again
Until this hell is over
So put on a mask
Swallow the pills
Smile and laugh
Until we repeat it all again tomorrow
Jun 19, 2020
Jun 19, 2020 at 11:47 AM UTC
Love is fake
Romance is a lie
I will be alone
Until the day I die
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
It follows me through the shadows
Out of the corner of my eye
An unseen monster
I can't escape it
Well **** it was just my cat nvm
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 3:14 PM UTC
When I close my eyes
Sometimes I dream
When Mom wasn't alone
When she was happy
Where I wasn't alone
When I was happy
When she said yes instead of no
Where I wouldn't be alone anymore
But that's just a dream
The heartache isn't
It hurts so much
Why didn't she choose me?
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 4:39 PM UTC
The mask is off
Pity
That's what you gave me
You treat me like glass
I'm not broken
The mask is on
Normal
That's what you are
You talk to me without sadness
I'm not broken
I don't need your pity
It's what pushed me over the edge
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 3:25 PM UTC
The mask is chipped
The painted smile fades
The eyes are covered
The tears are hidden
The mouth is shut
The cries are muffled
My smiles are fake
My mask is tight
And it won't come off
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 3:14 PM UTC
I try to sleep
I don't deserve it
I try to eat
I don't deserve it
I try to speak
I don't deserve it
I can see their pain
They don't deserve this
I did this to them
They don't deserve this
I watch the blade
I deserve this
I feel the pain
I deserve this
Pain is all I need
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 3:04 PM UTC
If you saw my eyes
You would know what I am
I'm broken
I'm scarred
I'm scared
I'm losing myself
I'm all alone
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 2:58 PM UTC