The Burden of Creativity
is that somethings I do
somethings I say or think
won't make sense to anybody but me
let's use for example Mr. Kubrick, first name Stanley
who took 178 takes of one scene grandly,
I'm sure everybody was tired and worn into the ground
but The Shining was one of the greatest movies around
so though this may sound self serving to a point
painting pictures with verbs and drawing landscapes with words isn't an easy way to make coin
but that's the curse of Creativity,
a lot of things Don't make sense, even to me
May 2, 2015
May 2, 2015 at 2:09 AM UTC
I'm that one girl, who sits in the back of the class.
Just so I can go unnoticed, make my life last.
I always hide in my room.
Just so I don't get beaten, and bruised.
The kids at school, call me worthless, and stupid.
The teachers, say I don't try, but I do try...
I try my hardest at everything, but they don't seem to notice.
My sibling's all they do is torture me.
As if they feed off of my pain, and fear.
I'm that one girl, who only wears ear buds.
To block out the voices of anger, and hurt.
My arms, are not that clean, or neat.
I'm not pretty, and when I say that I mean it.
Maybe I'm not worth it, maybe I'm just a piece of *******
I am stupid, and I have come to believe it.
Maybe I really don't try hard enough, and I am not trying harder.
My sibling's can feed off me all they want, I don't care anymore.
I've taken my ear buds out, and I'm listening to the screaming of hate.
Yeah my arms are cut, and they will always be cut.
Yes I am not pretty, and that's the truth.
But I am me, and that's okay.
May 2, 2015
May 2, 2015 at 2:05 AM UTC
No. I will not let sadness creep in.
No. You cannot control my thoughts. But do you know what goes on inside? I think not.
Or if you do, then you must be cruel. Because I worshiped you.
I cared about you more then anyone, and how do you repay me?
By filling HER heart with joy, and THEIR hearts with friendship, but not mine, no.
Not me, with my fuzzy jacket and messy hair. My glasses, braces and no make up on.
You laugh and be cool but I know you changed. You used to laugh with me and not against me, but now I know.
The girls with make up plastered on their faces, and the boys with their styled hair and backwards caps are yours. But never can be mine. So I am never to be yours, and you will never touch my heart which is to people whom I love, divine.
Feb 11, 2015
Feb 11, 2015 at 1:20 AM UTC
He's so beautiful
and handsome
and perfect every way.
He shows the lust that bothers others,
but not me- it never will.
His darkness and his evil unveil magically,
and once I look into his eyes,
he'll easily control me.
But sadly there's no magic, no flying to a land.
A land that's filled with happiness and pixie dust and sand.
The sand will glow from moonlight and happiness alike,
But if I step into that land, I won't return, my love.
I must let go of whats holding me. My very own child.
How cruel, how wicked, and terrible if I ever had to lie.
To lie that I would rather stay here with you than him.
A lie that never bothered, but one that cannot stay.
So off you go, hold on to that shadow,
my happiness can only be here.
On this magical island of happiness,
my Neverland with Peter.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 1:38 AM UTC
*What are you thinking?
Why are you screaming?
Empty bottles and ashes on the ground
I can hear the blaring sound
Get your clothes on
What do you expect
When you've always wanted a respect?
It's your motto?
I tell you
YOu're slowly LOsing it kid
Why not get rid of it?
Oh, right, it's your life, my bad!
Might be the best thing you ever had.
But look at your folks!
They've been missing your talks!
Observe the crease and gray hair
Show them something they deserve
The recipe of love and care
Let them sit & watch your best serve!
In that, you'll witness the exquisite curves :)*
-A
8/13/14
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 12:21 AM UTC
Never looking back!
Never thinking twice
Had you on my mind..
Turning me to ice.
Now I'm free to run!
Heading to the sun
Always on the run
Never going back
Or to stop and think
That would make me sick
Always on the run
Its the runner's high.
Never looking back
Don't even say goodbye
Now I'm out of time!
Time to sprint away
Spare my breath for me
Say nothing in return..
Running in between
Going on full blast
Never looking back
Never thinking twice
Always on the run
It's the runners high.
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 11:58 PM UTC
I freak out.
Where did you go?!
You texted me just like a minute ago!!
I cant even breath, how will i survive?
Without you i cant see any **** light!
But there you are again, a reply to my text.
I can relax, and finally take a breath.
I cant handle being alone like that.
I should, but I just freaking cant.
Sometimes I feel Im addicted to you.
When the cravings get rough
Im not in the mood for anything else.
I want you, i need you, it doesn't make sense.
I wish it would stop
For its breaking my heart.
You wont always stay with me
We'll drift some apart.
were opposites, i know this.
Me the responsible, controlling one.
And you having fun just breathing the sun.
It may seem like a game to you,
but its different to me.
many times because of you
I felt my heart bleed.
Remember that time when you didnt come over?
Because of a guy you met on my birthday?
Well it made me cry.
Not cry but shatter. A puddle of tears that to you
just doesnt seem to matter.
Come on! You would say,
its no big of a deal!
I cant explain how that makes me feel.
Like you shredded my soul.
Like your not my friend.
like i dont mean a thing to you,
it was all for pretend.
Are you undercover?
Am i just some help?
Why should I be loyal
when you leave me dead?
You shatter my heart,
make me explode,
I busrt into tears
But no.
You just cant handle it all.
Youll smirk and let the whole thing fall.
I know i cant trust you, i must stop this now,
But I realize that my emotions are keeping me down.
I can never "unfriend" you.
Im bounded too tight.
Without you I wont be able to see your blue light.
I'd leave, but being too loyal to you, i'd never do anything to really harm you.
In the end well always stay friends,
Cause we know were the only ones who can understand each other the best.
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:39 AM UTC
There is something about your smile that makes me want to stay
Something about your eyes that sparkle remind me of morning rain.
Something in that hair of yours that makes it worth the while..
Something in that mind of yours that really makes me smile.
Too bad I crave so much
That you werent ready for
My exploding emotions that spilled over you
When you simply just sent me a heart,
I wanted you, I thought of you
But you didnt want me back.
Why did you send that heart of yours?
It melted me like gold.
I felt so bright, until our fight,
which ended cold as stone.
You also had a brother,
Too bad he was your twin.
I mixed you both,
It made me cry that you both looked the same.
You probably don't even care right now
This was just a summer fling..
But youll never know
that when of you I let go
How deep my sorrow is.
I visited your house once,
And saw the both of you.
But you stabbed me again,
with your morning rain,
and made me unhappy again.
You sat there motionless, cold.
Ignoring my faint hello.
You walked right by me without even a glance,
And both pretended to be in a trance.
Im sure you found love
with another girl
Im sure shes delighted
Oh lucky her.
But this is just life
And it's sure to repeat,
But oh how gruesome
To admit my defeat.
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:13 AM UTC
I was standing on the edge of silence
But as I tried to fall
A sound of someone screaming
Stopped my silent fall
It was the world around me
I couldn't escape the sounds
So I tried the edge of silence
For the millionth time now.
This loud, bright void of voices
Seem to drown out peace
But sadly the edge of silence
Wasnt something I could achieve
My mind went blank
I was lazy and tired
To communicate and listen to the world..
But we live here now
And thats all here now,
So I try to embrace
Try to make space
For this very loud, bright colored
noise.
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 1:58 AM UTC