it was always easy
recognizing dependency
forecasted
predicted in pattern
plastered
wallowing
bloated and guilty
perplexed and restless
fighting defenceless
endlessly
urgency will never encourage sobriety
restraint
will not exist
in the routine of
an addict
stimulation is habit and key
for relief
distraction and tactic
manipulation an art of mannerism
identity theatric automatically
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 3:11 PM UTC
i dont really see the sun
i miss the warmth of her rise
i hate the blinds in his room,
horizontally casting lines
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 3:05 PM UTC
You’re coal in the shadow of my blissful state
Waiting to cease the thoughts with the affordable hate
It doesn’t cost much, therefore we all **** a bit
The inhale of judgement to capture the words of ****
Spewed through my lungs with toxic entropy
You’re no better than ****
You’re not worth it, my enemy
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:55 PM UTC
I have been weak
A slave to compliance
A primate chained by
metals of earths
Deceit
I have been love
Suffocated by endurance
Extinguished by crowding I wait for chaos
A disaster
in my surroundings
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:54 PM UTC
will i ever stop wanting it
looking at my reflection
around my eyes like a cartoon
line has been drawn
highlighting them
in black
they’re circular and
i feel pretty
will i ever stop migrating toward it
like it has a scent i long after
a taste of fulfillment
and
could i ever live with it
i could not
this i dream of
but i would perish
from my own infliction
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:48 PM UTC
I am a slave to nicotine
warmth provide
nutrients to
restlessness and
deprived confidence
Reach for my tools
my
batteries of life my
Bitter fuel of punishment
a tank empty to see full
Would be an error of fool
Fugazi
A mistress embedded in movement
sweet sweet feline I
Watch you curl and dance around me
Truly deceptive but
blooming amusement
devine
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:47 PM UTC
And to what am I subjected
Stimulated
auditory hilarity
I only
Listen to confirm what spoken was intended to be reciprocated
Clarity
Confirmation of banter absurdity firm and
To disbelief I plead truth
Reassurance of matters
Detest beyond
Peace and passiveness b
I am restless
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:40 PM UTC
I do not fear your
Implements of death
Comfort ingrained in the leap
Apprehension breeding ease
(Breath sweat beat)
Grinding teeth into
Palms they poor
Held, captured, examined, release
Plotted and rapture
Infidelity desire deceit
Encased by pleasure, leather and
twine
Nature will sheathe
A primal design
Jan 20, 2020
Jan 20, 2020 at 2:39 PM UTC
and i'm sick
you know
bottles bagged
clank break tied thrown
dust and snow rest collect
age brittle and take for cash
cycles of action
consumption
want buy
entitled to own
needing, greedy
feeble minded
driven rash
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 8:32 PM UTC
and so we ****
make love, admiration of skin
i have fallen deeper into your facades
false affections a collective loss
a means of sensory win
victory, sin
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 3:56 PM UTC