Illusions tame my perception.
Deceptions envelop my mind.
Reality racing away faster than time. Beliefs a hermit insanely confined. Seclusion is solace.
Immersion is peace. My emotions a dynamic contradicting thief.
Dancing at their will. Jumping when they speak. Total control.
Lashing out. For example what the hell am I talking about? Over zealously tepid. Feelings galore!
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 1:49 AM UTC
Experience. Life.
Walking the streets of gold juggling strife.
Mending. Meek.
Adverting your ways or discovering you’re weak.
Facing your demons or submitting defeat.
Wisdom. A gift bestowed from the future. Wishing you obtained it in the past
With wisdom comes great sorrow. Knowing all of the pain. That those before you used this force in vain.
With wisdom comes responsibility. Protecting those we raise. Hoping they’ll do the same when your wisdom goes away with age.
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 12:53 AM UTC
A tragic comedy. My love of my hatred that’s decaying me. Striding for an optimist path. Dwelling the chambers realizing the mask. A replica of who I was in the past. Loving, caring feeling complete. The facade fading. Mentality despaired emotionally obsolete. Carrying this charade, lying to those who seek. Giving them the goodness which is rotten underneath. Relationships. Nothing but transactions to me. Which I fail to complete.
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 7:13 PM UTC
Breaking down, drowning in my sorrow.
Life is borrowed, I'm at the bottom of the bottle.
I don't understand this pain inside of me.
It's driving me. Crazy, crazy
Devils intruding, darkening that which was brightly lit.
My life abiding spiraling into a dark abyss.
Seeking solace, the delusions are clouding in.
Full of sin, it's far too late for me to repent.
I don't understand this pain inside of me.
It's driving me. Crazy
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 12:25 AM UTC
Copper brown eyes more luxurious than gold.
Sauntering its labyrinth in awe of what I behold.
A journey I embark in which I seek no end.
My shinchi cat. Whose beauty. No one can contend.
Multi-facet truly one of a kind. May say she's cheek. May say she's divine. Has my heart in a clasp, a grip that's so hale.
Stunning by sight and her mind is as well.
Oh Shinchi cat my dear our distance is great.
Miles between us seems like footsteps to make.
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 12:57 AM UTC
Yellow raindrops falling from the sun because even when it shines. Gloomy my days have become.
Once was a time my world was bright. Misery shrouds these eyes, blinding, living in darkness with no moonlight.
Wretched, tainted and completely full of mold. Understanding what defines to feel low.
Trapped in an abyss. Grasping for air. Spiraling slowly deeper and deeper. What will it take for me to feel happy again?
What will it take for this suffering to end? I'm told it all gets better with time well my clock has struck zero.
Realizing this feeling will never stop. My beliefs are numb. A shell of what I once was.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 7:37 PM UTC
My Life's in despair. I'm soulless. Feelings unconstrained this pain i cant control it.
Think about it all night and day. Wandering this burning field that is my mind.
Reminiscing all the time back when I felt my life was complete. A masterpiece, a bond of waterproof paint.
Now I drown in deception reaching a depth i couldn't conceive.
The love I felt was all a dream an illusion of beauty crushed by a beast. Alone.
No more moments of passion. Visions of us laying together, laughing. My heart stops beating.
My lungs seizing to contract. Defeated though I tried so hard. A one sided battle the other never really fighting back.
The lies a blade piercing my skin. I realize this is the end. A war I was never good enough to win.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 1:49 PM UTC
There's a light shining in the distance
What is it that i see?
A damsel in a window, a presence that's so glorifying to me.
Her wit is supreme. Her charm has me bound.
To describe her beauty there's no word I have yet found.
Shes outspoken and direct, yet nimble to please.
Its tremendous that such an immaculate woman breathes.
I am adorned when we converse, despaired when she leaves.
Its only a matter of time until next that we speak.
A time that I wait which feels like nothing to me, not caring if its a day, not even a week.
All that I know it brings me a smile from cheek to cheek
Sep 9, 2014
Sep 9, 2014 at 2:03 AM UTC
My love for you is vast, so wide.
If it was visible the entire universe would rest inside.
Whimsical and bright, your words bring no dismay.
You're warm and comforting like cocoa on a cold winter day.
I sip from the cup. Oh how I relish in the feel.
A sensation so ample, so intense its unreal.
Sep 9, 2014
Sep 9, 2014 at 1:57 AM UTC
She was my sun. Solar flares bursting each one brightening my day. Her beauty radiating like rays putting a smile upon my face. I trusted her, as she gave me the lighter side of life. So much care, joy, comfort and cant forget the *** So close before the betrayal had time to set. My hearts sudden affliction, my minds definite conviction. Made me realize the dark place that i actually live in. Not a shade of light piercing through her veil. All the moments of happiness began to fade. This feeling i had it felt so real only to find out my heart was just a game
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 6:02 PM UTC