Not all angels fall from skies above,
Some arrive quietly, disguised as love.
No wings in sight, no halo shown,
Just a steady warmth I’ve never known.
She doesn’t save me with grand display,
She saves me in the smallest ways.
In gentle smiles, in hands held tight,
In calming storms I used to fight.
Her laughter heals what words can’t reach,
A silent vow in all she teaches.
She sees the cracks I tried to hide,
Yet stands unwavering by my side.
If heaven listens when we pray,
Then heaven sent her my way.
Not to leave, not to ascend,
But to walk with me until the end.
Feb 1
Feb 1, 2026 at 7:00 PM UTC
There you are, right here the entire time
How foolish of me to not realize your mine
My hope, my dreams, my life divided
Always right here in my heart, resided
Stealing the hurt, stealing the pain,
Too blind of me to realize the gain…
Jul 12, 2011
Jul 12, 2011 at 9:08 PM UTC
"True love lies within the fringes of insanity and bliss"
Yeah, I wrote that, while I was thinking of your kiss
So sweet, so succulent, forever mine
For all of eternity, all in good time
It’s said, absence makes the heart grow fonder
Before I see you, I whine and ponder
Torn am I, the mystery of your face
We're the perfect combination of leather and lace
Like a blank canvas, white with no paint
At first glance, knees buckle, and I faint
Speechless, I can produce no sound
Just in awe, in you I finally found
But in all reality, this is just a dream
Fantasy land, or so it would seem
Wishful thinking, the evidence doesn’t exist
But eye’s closed, your voice persists
Haunting and taunting every deep thought
All the past battles I so carelessly fought
The broken road that will one day lead to you
Has left me jaded, so faded, and cautious too
These feelings in songs I’ve committed to write
In hopes that one day you’ll read my plight
Give me a chance, to start a new life
In hopes that one day, I’ll make you my wife
Become my best friend, my partner in crime
Help me write songs, with a new sense of rhyme
Paint the blank canvas, with vibrant colors of our heart
Through lessons of the forgotten, we'll make a new work of art
Through dreams rekindled from the depths within
The start of a masterpiece, we’ll soon begin
So read, re-read, and then read them again
Understand who I am, my heart, my sin
Mar 23, 2011
Mar 23, 2011 at 12:19 PM UTC
Do you really know what its like to feel your heart pleading?
God forbid you know what it’s like to feel it bleeding
These memories of better times, the gentle touch of your kiss…
Our conversations of love and life, Our friendship, bittersweet, I miss…
So many things still left for you to hear
Sealed away in the base of a single tear
Tear’s filled with a 1,000 dreams
Meaningless to you, gone… they seem
Watching them shatter as they keep hitting the floor
All the hopes and wishes, forever, no more
Yeah, I try not dwell
But sometimes it’s hard not to feel it swell
My mind races, and I feel like I’m in hell
My Stomach aches, No, I don’t feel very well
And yet, while I fight this constant endless battle
You pride this... silent... fake.... "happiness" saddle
No, don’t you look up, not even once
Not even for a second, cause I’m just a dunce
A fool, a clown, pointy hat and frown
Seems like everyone is laughing, the whole **** town
No sense of mercy, will I struggle, tread, and drown
It feels as though I’m already 6 feet under the ground
Was it wrong to love you?
Is it wrong to hate you too?
Was it right to let you go?
Something I’ll never know
So I fight…
I fight…
And I fight once more…
I fight these feelings while you keep slamming the door
I fight this pain that keeps reaching to my core
I fight this... this... hatred... these thoughts, **** YOU! *****
And I try to fill this crater in my heart with him you quietly, and selfishly bore
All I really want from you is to forgive and forget
Peace, in the words “I’m sorry” with out any regret
Peace in “I’m happy for you” and “you have my best wishes”
Peace in knowing you cleaned all those ***** ****** up dishes
Maybe then I’ll be able to shave off these warts and moles
Stop concerning myself with the hatred and start focusing on new goals
Find someone new, who will appreciate everything I have to give
Find someone whom the rest of my life, unlike with you, I can happily live
So consider this my white flag, girl, I give up, you win
Cause if trying wasn't enough, what ever would have been?
Mar 18, 2011
Mar 18, 2011 at 1:12 PM UTC
The smell of your perfume still lingers on my chest
Taunting and tormenting my every deep breath
Bittersweet, it saturates my marrow
The love lost in the endless waves of pain and sorrow,
Everything I thought true love should and could have been,
Has been swept away, in what seems like a 100 mile an hour wind
Into the relentless currents, and depths of blue sea
Would nothing have stopped it dear? Not even one knee?
"To suppress this pain i'm feeling
I Try to tell myself, Believing isn’t seeing
It's just a part of one’s self being,
They say true love is never fleeing
But baby, for you, my heart is pleading"
Staring out into the vast emptiness laid out before me
Searching for a reflection, or glimpse of what use to be
Your picture with him, crushing my soul, my fee
Woman, If only the pain in my heart you could see
I promise you, I’m the first one to tell you “I Love You”
You’re the only one whom I grew wings, jumped, and flew
Though I know I’m not fortunate enough to be your last
I know with him you don’t have our memories or past.
"To suppress this pain i'm feeling
I Try to tell myself, Believing isn’t seeing
It's just a part of one’s self being,
They say true love is never fleeing
But baby, for you, my heart is bleeding"
More than just a dream, or the fanciest of feeling
It was my true self, your love was revealing
A man I either forgot or never knew existed
A man you would have known, if only you would’ve persisted
But just when I needed you the most
You faded away, your touch… a ghost
Leaving me standing here, cold, alone
Wondering,
Can you still smell the bitter-sweetness of my cologne?
"To suppress this pain i'm feeling
I Try to tell myself, Believing isn’t seeing
It's just a part of one’s self being,
They say true love is never fleeing
But baby, for you, my heart is healing"
Feb 23, 2011
Feb 23, 2011 at 9:57 AM UTC
Making love with you….
Primitive, passionate, incredible
Hot, sweaty, messy, vulnerable
Flesh against flesh,
Souls begin to mesh...
Our heart’s in sync
Just me and you tonight,
Trust me
Relax, no need to see
Close your eye's,
And come away with me
Just breathe...
Slip away into the night
Our existence, out of sight
Let the world disappear,
In a glimpse of heaven,
Our souls re-appear
Time stands still,
Against the evil worlds will
You, my love potion
Feel it in our motion
Make tonight last forever,
Your lips, the grace of a feather
Feeling our rhythm,
Feeling our grind
I am yours and you are mine
Just breathe….
Putting Karma Sutra to shame,
By letting instinct play the game,
Keep ur eye's closed
Now can u see?
Every inch of you, caresses me…
Ur texture, Like satin on my bare skin
Tonight, make forever begin
Hurt me, feel the passion...
Gently kissing the side of your neck
I nibble, caress and peck
My back, your nails, a must
Throwing out doubts and questions of lust
Moan, moan, moan,
It's not our bodies,
But our hearts we each own
Just Breathe...
Heart can’t take it,
Breathing becomes a fit
Overflowing with love,
Wrapped tight around me, a glove
guiltless, overwhelming, pleasure
Feelings so intense, no words can measure
Create new life, we become one
Forever, has only just begun
Holding each other,
Exhausted,
I whisper "I love you"
Both of our hearts pounding
I love you too...
Forever, Just Breathe….
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 9:03 AM UTC
I think I’ve murdered you twice
Blamed you for all the wrong throughout my life
I’ve screamed at you
Heck, I’ve chucked a few things too
I’ve even spoke harshly behind ur back
Yet no matter what, ur presence never lacks
You’ve helped me through a lot bad
lifted me up when I’ve felt all but sad
You make me humble when times are good
And give me grace when I feel misunderstood.
For no one knows me as well as you
And now it’s time to pay my due
My destiny is now laid out before me
Your peace, your love, your kingdom, my goal
Help me to become who you want me to be
Heal my heart, and comfort my soul
So Heavenly father, please have mercy on my sins
Fill me with your spirit and make my heart whole
One life dies, with you, I'm ready, another begins...
Feb 13, 2011
Feb 13, 2011 at 2:58 PM UTC
Sitting here alone, memories of our past keep coming to my mind
Good times, fun times, all of which, to my heart were so kind
Memories, so hard to replace, let alone come to find
Just knowing you existed always had my heart in a bind
Do you remember when I would call you late at night?
Your mom would pick up, I would be worried… but in the end was alright?
And even if it wasn’t we’d talk anyway, sometimes out of smite.
“Hang on for just one second let me turn out my light”
Even in the innocence of youth, for some reason it just felt so right
Sometimes we would talk for hours, most, till nights end
Sometimes just to hear each others voices, or our shoulders we would lend
It was almost like we’ve always known each other, a long lost childhood friend
Often hard to say goodnight, hearing your voice was something I didn't want to end
All the while my heart secretly wishing, the rest of my life with you I could spend.
For your beauty is comparable to the deepest, darkest, of blood red roses,
Your faith parallel to that of the holiest of kings and Moses’
Your spirit, could have been Mozart’s best symphony, yet to compose
But even with the hours spent writing this, my true feelings for you, no words or poems disclose
Just know, the most influential of love poets in history, their spirit, this poem encloses
More times than I can remember, intermittently, we would talk in your driveway
From what was going on in our lives, to the crazy things we did that day
Mostly the broken hearts obtained from others, the depth of your eyes, always my runaway.
And through the advice you’d give on faith and hope, as well as the inspirational things you’d say
You found the key to unlock my heart, a door, the ultimate unknown secret passageway
But when it truly mattered most, I was afraid to tell you exactly how I felt
Unparalleled and unworthy of you, no other choice, and to my knees I knelt
As much as it hurt, I knew, being "friends" was just something I was dealt
Seeing you love and happy with others, all of which to my soul was a belt
However, your smile alone (even if it wasn’t from me) always had a way of making my heart melt
So before you turn your back, and head out towards the sunset
Leaving me only memories locked forever in the un-detailed, cold, darkness of your silhouette
Know that out of everything that ever came between us, there is only one thing I regret...
Not telling you all of this sooner, maybe then, Me… you wouldn’t forget.
Feb 12, 2011
Feb 12, 2011 at 10:39 AM UTC
Holy ****
She spoke to me
It's because of this I can finally breathe
A past full of pain but so much love
It was hard to let go, but finally gave hate a shove
What are we to do now?
This is the reason I'm in wow....
She use to hate me, barely even look at thee
But now it seems the pain is gone
So much, in my head, is going on
What am i to do?
This is the reason I'm asking you....
Should i tell her how i feel?
Or should i just work on keeping it real?
Wait for her to call again?
It was this, why it all began...
I don't wanna ruin it
I can't deal with this ****
what to do now?
This is the reason I'm asking how....
Feb 12, 2011
Feb 12, 2011 at 6:57 AM UTC
Will this horrible pain ever go away?
Was I right to let her go?
Or should I have fought harder to get her to stay?
Why is love so bold
So beautiful, so strong
Yet when it feels like my heart is finally sold
It ends up feeling so empty and wrong
Given to a person who doesn't seem to care.
But when it counts, I'm left here always wondering where...
Where to go from here,
While I cry and shed my endless tears
Tears of hope, tears of sadness...
Tears of gladness and tears of madness
Am I loosing my mind?
Maybe I'm going crazy?
Why is it I'm so loving and kind?
Why is the love I receive always so hazy?
I know that she loved me,
It truly felt as though she set my soul free
But now that she's gone, and left my side
These feelings and emotions I no longer can hide.
This bitterness I never knew she had
Her true colors, so hurtful, so sad
In some ways I guess I'm kinda glad?
So today, I finally blow the horn
No longer her smile, my soul she will adorn
I guess that's why they say; "every rose has it's thorn"
Feb 12, 2011
Feb 12, 2011 at 6:49 AM UTC