Is this what I want
Or just what I need
I wanted her
She didn't want me
She changed her mind
overnight
I'm broken now
I want to die
I miss that girl
I took to the lake
Brand new person
Same old mistakes
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 12:37 PM UTC
I am apprehensive to hold you for fear you will slip through my hands like the sand from the hourglass that keeps pouring out into my lungs and i long for the possibility to finally stop running from all the ghosts in my closet, but every time i come around they come out like the monkey on my back that i’ve had since i was eleven. How do you spell deep affection without saying it’s L-O-V-E? I rue the fact i cannot seem to open these infirm bones enough for you to make your forever home. I do not have the power to paint happiness across your skin, when i do i leave tracks of agony and it’s unbearable to watch you stitch yourself up after every love affair we hold against that lovely flesh of yours.
When you kiss me can you taste my past and all the puzzle pieces that have yet to be put together or do you taste a happy ever after?
My hands no longer trustworthy, i have seen people like buildings, abandoned after an adventure that didn't last long enough. Like the wind I am afraid of going unnoticed like a small thunderstorm I called your happinessI do not want to be forgotten like that essay you just procrastinated to do, I do not want to be that failing grade that's suffocating you. If not for the metals I have dangling in front of my face you are the only razorblade I will ever let destroy me, each and ever scar will always remind me that with you my happiness was not faked. I am apprehensive to hold you because I don't know how to be someone you'll love.
Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 11:46 AM UTC
I'll come to find out
How terrible it must be
To love someone so much
So young
And have them ruin you forever
To have to set them free
Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
I thought about driving my car into a tree tonight
these words in my head, when they come out they don't come out right
i wish i had the guts to ask you if you still love me
or if you ever loved me
you don't know what you do to me
i wonder if you did, would you want anything to do with me?
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 1:45 AM UTC
when im the only one on the road
1 AM i'm leaving all alone
all the things that i could say
would never make these feelings go away
i just wanna know how you feel
wonder if the things i think are real
really bothers me when you say
what you said to me a certain way
i deseserve all the love in the world
you dont know that its not true
because i wouldnt know what to do
i keep thinking that i wanna die
I miss the blue color in your eye
reminding me to keep finding time
a million miles away but so close
thinking of you is another dose
i wish i could feel nothing now
ill build a wall and shut you out
love you too much for my own good
i wish you understood
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 1:11 AM UTC
If it seems the words I write don't make sense
If it seems I'm a million miles away, right in front of your face
I'm sorry
There's no words I can write
To let you know how I feel
There's no closer I can be
To make my touch feel real
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 5:08 PM UTC
It's days like these I wish I could write
The words, the way they'd make you feel
Drop to your knees, you'd know it's real.
But here I am prowsing the pages
Just to find a simple rhyme in time
all I can say is that you smell fine.
I
Lose myself in
Lose myself in
Lose myself
In the common admiration of,
I really like it when you call me love
So Don't worry that your dog bites
If you ever even thought I might
Never want to see you again
I'll see you tonight.
Steady your ears
Steady your ears
Steady your
Hand as I glide mine in your Palm
All the things I'd ever done wrong
But would you believe me if I said
You make me happy all the time
No matter the words I funderstand that rhyme
Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 1:37 AM UTC
And I'm sorry,
But I'm not happy.
I know you're trying,
There's something wrong with me.
It's not you,
It's not me, but it's me.
I know you love me,
And I love you, but I'm not happy.
Please, if it looks,
Bleak, every week.
Maybe one day,
It'll be better.
I said I'm sorry.
I know you're trying,
Don't leave me now
I want to be with you.
It's inside me, reckless.
Confess to you
I can't handle this
I'm hanging on,
But for how much longer
Will I slip away, will you remember me.
Changing seasons,
Seemingly without reasons.
Be patient with me
Beacon of light
Lead me through this maze
It's getting hard to see
I thought you'd saved me
But maybe
You were the reason
I needed to be saved
And I'm sorry
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 1:25 AM UTC
Don't tell me that there is, many fish in the see
bringing me down so much, i crumbled in debris
does it get any easier? time will only tell.
want to ask you so much but it'll never turn out well
tell me that I'm right, and you'll take it slow
i just make some songs, and spill my mind out on the sheets
i just want to know the truth, how you feel about me
gotta let me know, gotta let me go, well i don't wanna go
keep on calling me, i don't wanna be, what you're calling
if you knew the truth would it change anything?
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 1:57 AM UTC
I wish I could suspend that moment in time
Like the image of you longingly gazing through the world material, your graceful movements light and ethereal, the way your smile set my life at rest, the presence of you stands no contest, a beautiful mind free to explore, every new day something new in store, a laugh that rings in my ears, like church bells early in the year.
I know it seems
Like I'm taking it well
But loving you
Is like living in hell
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 2:02 AM UTC