They can have a wonderful life without me I guess it must be sad
That's too bad I've gone and went like summers rain
It's such a pain
I sat in the tub thinking of all the bad times because there where no good
But there I stood
Plugging in the chord to my demise
And dropped it in the bleach white tub it didn't rise
I thought to myself would I even be missed
Would they even cry when I've passed
That thought didn't last
I jumped in the tub crying and felt my body surge
As it submerged
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 8:40 PM UTC
I walked home from the gun store with only one red shell
I guess it must have been that musty smell
Because People looked at me in disgust
I was a nuisance to some
Everyone left me even my family and kids
I looked for a tool to end it all and starting placing bids
There was only one shell and I didn't want to miss
Taking the gun and loading my shot
I placed the barrel in my mouth and my hands became hot
They where so sweaty and I was thinking it over
This was the last choice I would make
And I pulled the the trigger
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 3:48 AM UTC
As I was sitting at the desk my thoughts where ensnared
I thought to my self I wouldn't hang even if dared
That really skipped over my mind
I get laughed at because I'm blind
Just because i can't see the people I'm with
Doesn't mean I don't know who you are
I can hear you for miles about to snicker
That's what drove me closer to the chair
It's just not fair
As my mind fills with sadness and despair
I tie the rope around my head so tight it rips out my hair and it goes everywhere
Thoughts of all the times together keeps me on the edge of the chair
Contemplating if I should jump but i just stare at the floor
Then with every thought considered i push the chair away with my toes
And my body drops like a bag filled with sand
It doesn't land
It's hung from a rope
This all started because I mope
Right before I jumped I wished there was still hope
I was so sad about what they had
If I stuck around I could've been a dad
But now I'm just hanging from a tight rope
Wishing for things i can never have
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
I got many words but some leave scars and some smiles better believe I leave my
mom driving miles
To the next hospital so she can save my
friend from dying
She ran in saying help look at him
Look at his wrists there slashed to bits.
Can you save him with a stitch
Words can hurt even though you playing
When my words bring smiles they are not
forgetting what I was saying
So I'll keep on staying right here
Till u see the little white birds
Flying in the night
That will be the end of you right?
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 12:42 PM UTC
as I stare at the edge of the cliff
I looked down and my body became stiff
I swear it's bliss
I think twice about jumping
But I make the choice to go
You should've watched my head blow
It smashed into the ground
And turned my neck around
As I was falling I regretted the decision
There was nothing the doctors could do even with an incision
The very next day i was laying in my coffin
Regretting the choice
Couldn't even hear the noise of my family and friends crying
But some of them where lieing
They thought they tried to save me
But they couldn't just let it be
all I can think about is the that one choice that put me here in a wood box six feet under.
I messed up in life and even in death I'm sad
I'm not glad just mad
it was a wrong choice not the right one for me.
I'm loosing my mind thinking of what my life could be
why couldn't I wait and just see
to this day if I was still alive it would've just been you and me
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 12:27 PM UTC