For the first time, I am entertaining the idea of seeing you with someone else
And it scares me that I am starting to feel okay with it.
It scares me that I am slowly feeling okay.
I am slowly forgetting who you were to me.
I am slowly forgetting the features of your face, the way you made me laugh, your idiosyncrasies.
I don't want to forget.
I don't want to remember u
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 2:49 AM UTC
After several days of silence, I think it’s safe to say that we've really broken up. I'm grateful for those days of self-reflection. It started with anger, pain, fear, and eventually, acceptance.
Thank you for everything. I have no regrets. Kahit papano I’m glad I took a chance on us because that’s what love is all about, right? What we had was real, and it was special. We both tried our best to make it work. I have loved you fiercely, with all my heart. More than I have ever loved anyone else before. But sometimes, even that is not enough.
Sometimes we put too much weight on “closure,” as if moving on requires permission or a final face-to-face conversation. But I’m learning that some words are better left unspoken, and some stories are meant to gently fade, and not end with a period. Still, even if things got difficult toward the end, I feel we owe each other a kind goodbye.
I’m sorry if I hurt you in any way, or if I ever made you feel like you had to be someone you weren’t. I hope you get to do the things you’ve been putting off because you were with me. I hope life is good to you, wherever you are whether in Hong Kong, back here, or somewhere else entirely.
We shared more than two years of our lives together, and my heart is full of gratitude. You made me incredibly happy in those years. In your own way, you showed me love and I’ll always be thankful I got to experience that. I know how much you love adventure, and I’ll never forget the way you chose to stay, even just for a while.
I’ve chosen to forgive everything, even the ones that never came with an apology. It’s something I needed to do for my own peace. Alam mo naman ako, ayoko ng may kaaway or may sama ng loob. I don’t like holding grudges, not even with people who’ve hurt me. I hope, in time, you can also forgive me for the things I said or did that caused you pain.
Lastly, I want to let you know that I intend to delete our chats. I'm ready to move on from this purgatory of "no-contact zone," to accepting that our story has come to an end. It’s just something I need to help me move on. It hurts cause I still care about you and that doesn't go away just like that. But it's exactly what I need right now. Maybe it’s also time for us to unfollow each other, so we can both move forward fully.
Thank you again for the love, the time and the memories. I’ll always wish you well.
Jun 30, 2025
Jun 30, 2025 at 4:37 AM UTC
I want to live in a country house.
the smell of hay will embrace me
the smell of the grass upon the ground will comfort me
and when it rains i'll go outside
and feel the droplets of water on my face
A golden retiever will be my companion
A hot cup of fresh coffee will mark the start of my day
I will read a book
I will listen to music until dawn
I will think about what could have been
but right before I close my eyes
I'll be happy.
and content.
By myself but not alone.
Happy to go solo.
Jul 6, 2021
Jul 6, 2021 at 5:22 AM UTC
And here we are
the end.
Five years running
and nothing to show
except the slowed
platonic love
and tired
texts
and an absence
of what once was
Except you don't know
do you
know that I'm
leaving us
know that I'm
panicked
into wondering
if I'm behind in
people
experiencing people
I feel I'm at a loss
with you
because we met each other
too soon
and now I'm just pointed bones
and you are the sun
and I'm greedy
for still wanting a piece of you
But I am burnt
The End.
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 6:47 AM UTC
green is the color of evil in your eyes
green was your mind when you touched another's ***
green is the color of my mother's envy
green is the color of my disgust.
they say green is the color of a brand new start
"green means go"
"green means life."
now i don't know what green stands for anymore.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 3:50 AM UTC
my heart is undeserving
of your love for me
my soul it's dark with stories
this world can never hear.
it's not that I don't like you
it's not that I don't care
but I love you so, I can't hurt you.
So I am staying away.
your life's so multicolored
your laugh is so contagious
to me you are so precious
do me a favor, please stay away.
everything I touch I hurt
everyone I love are broken
i don't want you to be one of them
so I will love you from afar.
you do not really have to worry
i've been on this journey alone
i've been okay so i can promise
i will be fine, on my own.
my heart's so undeserving
of your love for me.
you are my everything
so do me favor, please stay away.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 3:37 AM UTC
a smooch on the cheek
a bite on the lip
the warmth of your tongue
your eyes I can't resist.
Your eyes are talking
your hands are moving
my body is warm
my heart is beating
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 3:27 AM UTC
You’re a metaphor
For everything I have ever wanted
But never had
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 3:25 AM UTC
I’m getting tired of saying
I’m fine
I don’t want to talk to people to lie
I’m fine
I don’t want to pretend in meetings
I’m fine
I can’t take time off to lie to myself
I’m fine
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 2:25 AM UTC
Blue is the color of my pain
Blue is the color of life on my veins.
Blue are his eyes that closed before he died
Blue was how I felt when he left me that night
Blue in the dark
Blue even at day
Blue that turns bright sunrise
to clouds of gray
Blue felt cold
Like a wound that never heals
Blue is the reminder that I am still here.
Blue is the color of his favorite shirt
Blue like the water where he drowned while at work.
Blue was the color of my face when I heard.
That he was gone.
That he was hurt.
That he was blue.
Blue is the color...
Jan 31, 2021
Jan 31, 2021 at 7:25 AM UTC