your voice
of "i love you"
rings in my head
if you really meant it
like you said you did
then why'd you leave
so suddenly?
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:43 PM UTC
it just hit me now
that he is really gone.
i can't seem to comprehend the fact
that he is no longer here
to keep me going
to push me to wake up every morning
to be happy
and to smile
and live.
i am now realizing
that he's gone.
he said goodbye
a week ago.
yet i am still trying to figure out why.
as i replay his words in my head
i die inside each time.
his voice
in my head
every hour of the day.
it hurts,
a lot
to know he's gone.
he was my everything
my world
but now i dont know what to do
now that my world has left me.
i am nothing
without him.
so i sit here
and write about him
pathetically
crying to myself,
because
i truly do
miss him,
dearly.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
many of you may not see
the darkness that is inside of me.
it creeps and crawls and breaks me down
just at night when there is no sound.
this monster that is inside of me
is truly a hard one to see.
as it weeps and cries inside my mind
it takes over me and i slowly un-twine.
this monster is deep and far beneath
it almost kills me as i try to sleep.
as time goes on i try to smile
but darkness is black and it takes a while
to be happy and to not be afraid,
but in my mind i see the shade
of this darkness that fufills my head
i lay silently inside my bed.
no words
no sounds
no smiles
nor frowns.
just the darkness that is nothing;
yet something.
inside of me
that wont let go
i try to leave
but it always says no.
Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 3:19 PM UTC