dinosaurs roamed the earth once,
nearly a million years of life for them,
I wonder if humans can last that long,
or are we just a insufficient species just occupying the world until God can make a better,
more advanced species that can save it
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 8:51 PM UTC
before I run out of falling space I just wanted to tell you that it wasn't your fault.
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 8:40 PM UTC
Tuesday.
Cold.
Dark.
I was worried.
That gut wrenching feeling tangled my insides together so tightly.
'let's take a walk'
Oh no.
What did I do.
What did I say.
'here, Ruth....'
That's my name.
What happened babe?
'I'm sorry.'
No. No. No.
Speak.
Your voice.
Use it.
Why.
What.
'I can't do this anymore.'
What.
'I love her'
Who.
'we've been together a few months.'
Liar.
'I don't want to cheat.'
Did you ever love me.
'you changed.'
I cut myself.
'you're not as happy'
Of course not.
'I can't take it.'
Okay.
Then it was over.
Everything.
Gone.
The only reason I'd held on to life.
Eight months.
Disappeared.
My heart was numb for a second.
That gave me the power to walk away.
But in just a second,
It smashed.
Into a billion little peices.
Walking hurt.
Crying hurt.
The bathroom floor was cold.
I was that girl.
Alone.
On the ground.
Broken.
Then I found shelter in something I'd only ever tried rarely.
The sharp jagged metal launched by my very own fingers caressed my wrist just enough so I could distract myself.
He ******* destroyed me.
And my body.
And my soul.
And my mind.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:59 PM UTC
i just watched forever slip into fifteen minutes. and then i watched fifteen minutes turn into nothing at all.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:57 PM UTC
your voice
of "i love you"
rings in my head
if you really meant it
like you said you did
then why'd you leave
so suddenly?
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:43 PM UTC
because we
haven't
touched
in
months
but I can
still feel
your kiss
on
my lips
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:21 PM UTC
It's 3am and I'm fighting back the memories of you.
But you're breaking through all of my defences.
I just need to feel your touch one last time.
I might be greedy but I miss the nights you were mine.
Darling please.
Why did you leave like that.
Whispers in the hallways saying you would love to have me back....
But nothing.
No phone calls.
No messages.
No letters.
It's 3am and the only way you're with me right now is because my memory can't seem to erase any moment of when we were together.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 8:18 PM UTC
it just hit me now
that he is really gone.
i can't seem to comprehend the fact
that he is no longer here
to keep me going
to push me to wake up every morning
to be happy
and to smile
and live.
i am now realizing
that he's gone.
he said goodbye
a week ago.
yet i am still trying to figure out why.
as i replay his words in my head
i die inside each time.
his voice
in my head
every hour of the day.
it hurts,
a lot
to know he's gone.
he was my everything
my world
but now i dont know what to do
now that my world has left me.
i am nothing
without him.
so i sit here
and write about him
pathetically
crying to myself,
because
i truly do
miss him,
dearly.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
I. the apparition
i don't fear death,
i fear never being born;
i fear not my last breath,
but all the breaths in between;
how do i know i'm alive?
II. the left foot
for what purpose is the sun without its light?
for what use are eyes without their sight?
for what good is a left foot without the right?
and for what joy is a string without its kite?
will i ever be complete?
III. father
as branches grow to the shape of their roots,
as vermillion bloodies every spring with a drop:
could i escape original sin?
could i become a better man--
could i become my own man?
IV. aneurysm
would lightning dare blaze up a tree
that has yet to bear fruit?
would the gods dare strike down an artist
with a painting unfinished?
fate is neither cruel nor fair.
Apr 11, 2014
Apr 11, 2014 at 11:48 AM UTC