Oh Angels!
Hear my prayer
And grant me the strength
To feel so much
This power of empathy
Help me welcome
Accept as a blessing
For the years to come
Take away the curse
Cast on with black
That I feel with such darkness
Is weighting my heart
When I feel all the misery
Fill me with faith
When buried underground
Let light emerge
Lift me to a point
Where there is only love
Irradiate my eyes with sparkle
From the beauty above
Help me connect
With the joy that fills this world
And let me forget
Everything that hurts
Dec 3, 2011
Dec 3, 2011 at 5:56 AM UTC
I know I’m not supposed to be waiting.
I don’t need you. I don’t.
I miss.
I miss the feeling
Of softly leaning on your shoulder
I miss your smell
Within my sheets
I miss the warmth
Of you all around me
And your fingers
Running my skin
I miss your eyes
Leaning on me
Reading the sparkle
That makes me pretty
I miss our nights
I miss our mornings
I miss our lives
I miss our dreams
Sharing smiling eyes
Bursting into laughter
Lose all disguise
True together
I think about you
Through everyone of my heartbreaks
I miss you the most
At my highest happiness
Dec 3, 2011
Dec 3, 2011 at 5:55 AM UTC
Once upon a time I was drawn
To a light of a kind unknown
Revealed only in the dim of the night
True witness of a miracle
Leaving me breathless as beauty
Was softly calling upon me
A secret so preciously brought
A jewel pure and vulnerable
In a box that unfolds with trust
As love is weaved and truth whispered
When two souls lighting up in gold
Alter the color of the world
It was the brutal light of day
The rhythm that takes us away
That steals our eyes into the fog
And wraps a cage around our hearts
That makes us flee as one hopes to escape
The violence of the world
The more I reached the more you ran
And just one morning you were gone
Eaten away by a ferocious fear
And I could never again have you near
Cause it was wider than your hopes
And stronger than your dreams
I’ve looked in your heart for a breach
My hands got lost trying to reach
But at night I squeeze my eyelids
Like a child wishing for a dream
To unfold this treasure again
So I would never love the same
I wish I’d go back to that room
When we were all precious and bloom
And I would sleep there forever
Melt in fusion into one another
And I would take your hand in mine
Until the end of time
Dec 3, 2011
Dec 3, 2011 at 5:54 AM UTC
It was December
My favourite month
When the days are short
And the nights sparkle with lights
When our noses are cold
But our hearts are warm
And we are wrapped up
Under blankets and scarfs
It was softly that I felt it
Didn’t really chose it
It was hour after hour
Night after night
Within a week or two
We would lock in my room
Where we’d talk and dream
Eyes towards the stars
It was sat on my bed
The conversation we shared
That you’d turn out to be
The best friend I ever had
However you have changed
Even if this part of you is dead
I’ll always remember the man
You were that Christmas
You were pure and raw
As beautiful as the snow
As bright as
A sunrise
Whoever you are today
Whatever you do or say
How often you disrespect
Or defile those nights
I’ll always remember you
With my heart light, but a little blue
As you turned out to be
The best weeks I ever had
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:23 PM UTC
There’s what you dream of
And there’s what you receive
And I know dreaming
Can be deceiving
Or hurtful
There’s what you want
And there’s what you get
And it’s true
That it takes an effort
To honestly welcome
Anything that crosses your way
For simply what it is
And some can get lost
In impossible expectations
Searching for something
That will never come
But there is a difference
Between concealing dreams
With reality
And running away from them
When they come knocking on your door
Because you’re so scared
That they might slip away
Through your fingers
Right when
You finally
Make the choice
To grab them
I will never
Choose to be
Disillusioned
I will never choose
To settle down
To a lower option
Because it’s easier to lose faith
Than keep on believing
So next time you see me
Look right into my eyes
And know that I will speak those words:
“I will never accept
Nor support
Your actions
Under resignation”
Dreams may seem an enemy
To reality
But there’s one worst
And that’s fear my dear
You keep coming back to me
Because a part of you still desperately wants
To look into my eyes
And feel that your dreams
Are still possible to realize
You will wake up one day
And when all the fire
That I love so much
Has finally burned out
You will feel empty
Like you have never felt before
There’s what you dream of
But more important darling
They’re what you decide
To make your dreams become
Closer to reality
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:23 PM UTC
Your presence has
A familiar taste
Next to you is like
I'm closer to myself
Just the sight of you
And all my defences are down
I’m lighter and true
Naked to my bones
And it feels so good
To finally be home
To feel understood
And truly loved
I’m finally at peace
Life can race outside
I’m in comfort and bliss
Resting in your arms
I feel so much strength
Emerging from inside of me
Like some kind of spell
As magic as can be
It’s the tone of your voice
Whispering to my ear
That without an effort
Just silence my fear
It’s the conversations
On the beauty around
That appease my questions
And brighten my world
It’s a feeling of happiness
That I thought couldn’t be reached
It’s like we were blessed
It’s like heaven exists
It’s like together
Life is so easy
Like it makes us better
And breaks us free
We meet in our dreams
For a better place
You’re bringing me wings
With your sole embrace
And your face is like
The sweetest picture to me
Your eyes being the doors
To our sanctuary
A smile on your lips
Is all it takes
A taste of your kiss
Fills me with grace
And I hardly believe
We were put here together
That the world I breathe in
Would carry you ever
Knowing you’re alive
Makes this place worth living in
Sharing your time
Was worth waiting
It’s like you're familiar
Making life so easy
You could make me better
You could make me happy
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:22 PM UTC
Are you on your way home
Or am I desperately waiting
Blindingly hoping
For an angel who is already gone?
For a mirror of myself
Who’s already shattered
Was already broken
To pieces long ago?
In despair
I wander between two worlds
Searching behind the clouds
For a sign from you
I’m scanning those empty eyes
For a soul to touch me
One glance to pierce me
When I’ll recognize you
Is this you that I hear
At night whispering melodies
Singing me lullabies
Cuddling close to me?
Invisible but
Blowing on my skin
Giving me the chills
Your ghost embracing me?
Is that you
Watching me sleep
While grasping my hand
With your fingers of smoke?
Are you the one
Haunting my flesh
In my mouth leaving a taste
That I can't get rid of?
I have this blind hope
Maybe you’re back already
That you came to get me
And let us be together, again at last
In this tragic and absurd
Bound called love
I keep turning my back from
Any other heart
I have this memory
Of our bond so pure
Of a link so secure
Of a love I still feel so deeply
To join you wherever you are
If you could give me a sign
I think I could die
To have you again, close to me
Have my eyes gone so dull
From searching the clouds
Wandering the winds so much
That I became a living ghost?
Have I gone so invisible
That you can't recognized me
When you walk right past me
Into the crowd?
Oh sweetheart I've tried and I've tried
To take strangers into my arms
But it felt like I was
Lying to myself
Is there anyone who can fit
In the shape of your embrace
This hole in my chest
Is there anybody else
Is there anyone down here
As beautiful as you
Any worthy of you
That would want to take me
Who will long to love me
For all that I am
With my laugh and my cries
Through my light and darkness
On my lonely nights
Is it you that I miss
Is it only you that would fit
Darling,
This
hole
in
my
chest
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:22 PM UTC
I hear your sobs from the bathroom
And I hope it’s not what I think
Pray I misunderstood
Hope and hope so deep
We open the door
And there you lie
Lost in some fog
Then I realize
From the look in your eyes
And the colors I glimpse
It’s all over the tiles
And it covers the sink
The scene freezes in silence
Images flashing slow
We try to grasp in an instant
How it began to flow
Searching for the tool you used
That would lead to the breach
Searching for the weapon you chose
To finally... sleep
And I wonder...
*“Is this it?”
“Is this the day
Our life will collapse?”
“Is today the day that
All my fears come true?”*
*Will there be no other laugh
In our lives forever stained
Will there be no innocence
Left from what was shed
Is this the date cross-marked
In our memories forever
Is this the day so black
Where our dreams shatter?*
As I hear the sirens fade
I’m left in silence, petrified
In shock staring at my hands
Voiceless and horrified
So unbearable
That it dissociates me
So unshakable
That it suffocates me
Breathing the thick air
Painfully into my lungs
As I wash blood off my hands
And clean the bathtub
There were no tears that night
Just a blinding pain
As sharp as the knife
You pressed to your veins
Oh mother…
What have you
Done?
You have left me
Forever
Terrified
For things
To come
Couldn’t you spare us
I was just a child
In this bathroom who would comfort
The little girl I was?
Couldn’t you handle
The anger and the tears
Preserve your children
From their worst fears?
You’ve shattered our lives
From your own weakness
And filled our eyes
With... endless darkness
Broken our hopes
For any peaceful day
An anguish for tomorrows
That will never melt away
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:21 PM UTC
I walk the pavement you walk every day
And I wonder how you manage
To make it
Time is going slow tonight
But during your days
Time is running fast
When the sun will rise
You will walk among the sheep
Shutting down the voices screaming
When the sun will set
You will leave this place
Opening your mouth to desperately breathe
How do you manage
To remain silent
Within this deafening environment
In what seems to be my parallel universe
World upside down
I am walking on the sky to avoid your footsteps
In your high tower
You are no closer to me
But buried under walls of glass
And it hurts me to see you
Fading in the void this life dug around you
Turning into a shadow of who you really are
I will go to sleep next to you tonight
Because this place has been my home before
But I will walk amongst you tomorrow
And I will look at your faces
And all I will see my love
Are ghosts
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:20 PM UTC
I was born north
Where the snow persists
Where the only daylight comes
From the glow of the moon
Where the white desert spreads
Further than horizon
And the cold lingers
Into your every bones
In my polar world
I’ve lacked your heat
Your delicate fire
To my spine
Comforting warmth
In my darkness I’ve missed
Your sweet embrace
Oh my sunshine!
Warming sun
Like a lover
Wrap me tight
Healing sun
Comforting my soul
My troubled mind
As I rest my frozen bones
On to the stones you’ve burned
Whisper that I’m not alone
Comfort me I’m not broken
You are more to me
Than just an illusion
You are
My liberation
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:19 PM UTC