cjcole - Hello Poetry

Another dull ache In the everyday pain of life Sometimes shattered Sometimes only cracked But, never whole Never complete Trying to gather all the pieces Only for them to slip through Ghostly fingers, can't seem to hold it together This life feels like a punishment When does it stop This seemingly endless suffering Like a glass bottle Bobbing up and down In a river of pain Only a matter of time before it has it's fill And sinks She's almost full up Full of anger Full of resentment Full of disgust She wishes not for death, but to have never existed at all.

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Sep 28, 2020

Sep 28, 2020 at 9:35 AM UTC

cjcole

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Another dull ache In the everyday pain of life Sometimes shattered Sometimes only cracked But, never whole Never complete Trying to gather all the pieces Only for them to slip through Ghostly fingers, can't seem to hold it together This life feels like a punishment When does it stop This seemingly endless suffering Like a glass bottle Bobbing up and down In a river of pain Only a matter of time before it has it's fill And sinks She's almost full up Full of anger Full of resentment Full of disgust She wishes not for death, but to have never existed at all.

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Where did I go? Should I go with the flow? Did I lose myself? Is that me on the shelf? Can you lend me a hand? Or are you on your last stand? Does using your senses disappear? Or, maybe use your eyes or ears? Could it be my worst fear? Who have I become? What says my cerebrum? Can you answer that? Am I falling flat? What can we do? Feeling blue, are you, too? Is this as awkward for you as it is me? Don't you want to be free? Why so many questions? Why deny my affections? I mean, how many can there be? Don't you want to see? Don't you want to just go home? Or, do you wish to roam? Is there enough time before dark? Did you hear the dog bark? You hear it, too? Do you think it's just us few? Thank goodness, but what now? Do you smell something foul? Ugh, is that something sticky? Gross, better get out of here quickly!

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Feb 16, 2017

Feb 16, 2017 at 1:23 AM UTC

cjcole

Questions.

Where did I go? Should I go with the flow? Did I lose myself? Is that me on the shelf? Can you lend me a hand? Or are you on your last stand? Does using your senses disappear? Or, maybe use your eyes or ears? Could it be my worst fear? Who have I become? What says my cerebrum? Can you answer that? Am I falling flat? What can we do? Feeling blue, are you, too? Is this as awkward for you as it is me? Don't you want to be free? Why so many questions? Why deny my affections? I mean, how many can there be? Don't you want to see? Don't you want to just go home? Or, do you wish to roam? Is there enough time before dark? Did you hear the dog bark? You hear it, too? Do you think it's just us few? Thank goodness, but what now? Do you smell something foul? Ugh, is that something sticky? Gross, better get out of here quickly!

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I'm a Disappointment. I'm an Eventual ****** I'm an utter ******* I'm not Dead. Yet.

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Feb 16, 2017

Feb 16, 2017 at 12:46 AM UTC

cjcole

D.E.A.D.

I'm a Disappointment. I'm an Eventual ****** I'm an utter ******* I'm not Dead. Yet.

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When I'm feeling lame When things just aren't the same When I want to die Or just want to cry Close my eyes tight Try to make it through the night

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Apr 12, 2014

Apr 12, 2014 at 10:43 PM UTC

cjcole

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When I'm feeling lame When things just aren't the same When I want to die Or just want to cry Close my eyes tight Try to make it through the night

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Her world is crashing Down, down All around her She cries out Time to release All the pain All the fear Nowhere to go No one to care Tired of fighting She ceases struggle The battle's lost Lights dim Thoughts fade A faint smile rests upon her lips A rare pleasure... Overridden by hope lost And countless tears Now she may rest Yes, now you may rest Girl Peace at last Your wish come true Cry no more, don't speak Sleep, sleep...

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Apr 12, 2014

Apr 12, 2014 at 5:24 PM UTC

cjcole

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Her world is crashing Down, down All around her She cries out Time to release All the pain All the fear Nowhere to go No one to care Tired of fighting She ceases struggle The battle's lost Lights dim Thoughts fade A faint smile rests upon her lips A rare pleasure... Overridden by hope lost And countless tears Now she may rest Yes, now you may rest Girl Peace at last Your wish come true Cry no more, don't speak Sleep, sleep...

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What would this world be If everyone had a mind like me

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Apr 12, 2014

Apr 12, 2014 at 5:21 PM UTC

cjcole

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What would this world be If everyone had a mind like me

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Shadows cover me What you get isn't what you see Deny your guilt You make me sick How do I deal Begging for truth Hide behind your shame How dare you cause me so much pain It's your deceit that's killing me Don't you see Your TRUTH will set me free

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Apr 12, 2014

Apr 12, 2014 at 5:20 PM UTC

cjcole

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Shadows cover me What you get isn't what you see Deny your guilt You make me sick How do I deal Begging for truth Hide behind your shame How dare you cause me so much pain It's your deceit that's killing me Don't you see Your TRUTH will set me free

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I feel like dying today A feeling that never goes away Why do I have to live like this Wishing I never did exist

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Mar 29, 2014

Mar 29, 2014 at 11:46 PM UTC

cjcole

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I feel like dying today A feeling that never goes away Why do I have to live like this Wishing I never did exist

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You asked me to fly with you To the moon and back I took your hand and away we went Laughter between us, in this galaxy of hate Don't let me keep you I'll return soon But not until I've had some fun That feeling in me So carefree I want to stay forever In this dreamy condition But it's time to come down Back where I belong The agony of return Memories, thoughts, and actions They bind me like chains Oh these chains! They wrap around me Digging into my skin The ache The burning This society... is poison. The venom goes right through me I am sick weak, and dull I can't find my body now I've decided to leave again To the moon I go This time I'm going alone Oh how I wish I could... Yeah, I'm going to have my fun And when I'm done they'll tell you, She's gone for good.

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Mar 27, 2014

Mar 27, 2014 at 5:27 PM UTC

cjcole

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You asked me to fly with you To the moon and back I took your hand and away we went Laughter between us, in this galaxy of hate Don't let me keep you I'll return soon But not until I've had some fun That feeling in me So carefree I want to stay forever In this dreamy condition But it's time to come down Back where I belong The agony of return Memories, thoughts, and actions They bind me like chains Oh these chains! They wrap around me Digging into my skin The ache The burning This society... is poison. The venom goes right through me I am sick weak, and dull I can't find my body now I've decided to leave again To the moon I go This time I'm going alone Oh how I wish I could... Yeah, I'm going to have my fun And when I'm done they'll tell you, She's gone for good.

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Scattered All around The pieces lay Leaving me broken My mind is confined Braids of bitter suffering Entwine Entwine Carving relentlessly deeper A catch in my throat Suddenly I'm drowning This sea of sorrow has no mercy Caught in it's wrath Alone I weep Myself I have forsaken Who but I can procure the peace that eludes me For me such emotions are delicate and fleeting I wish to embrace my inherent delight Like a lost treasure it remains unfound, yet greatly desired It must be there, somewhere Buried far beneath Hope has not failed this quest Radiant with light Just waiting to be found The pursuit to shine though the lurid gloom Familiar with the burden I will remain sanguine Perhaps one day I will come to find it I will gladly yield to it Where it was lost, the despair will take it's place To be forever cast into profound nothingness Only, it will not shine, as my delight does For, it is the darkness in which my delight was consumed

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Mar 27, 2014

Mar 27, 2014 at 3:56 PM UTC

cjcole

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Scattered All around The pieces lay Leaving me broken My mind is confined Braids of bitter suffering Entwine Entwine Carving relentlessly deeper A catch in my throat Suddenly I'm drowning This sea of sorrow has no mercy Caught in it's wrath Alone I weep Myself I have forsaken Who but I can procure the peace that eludes me For me such emotions are delicate and fleeting I wish to embrace my inherent delight Like a lost treasure it remains unfound, yet greatly desired It must be there, somewhere Buried far beneath Hope has not failed this quest Radiant with light Just waiting to be found The pursuit to shine though the lurid gloom Familiar with the burden I will remain sanguine Perhaps one day I will come to find it I will gladly yield to it Where it was lost, the despair will take it's place To be forever cast into profound nothingness Only, it will not shine, as my delight does For, it is the darkness in which my delight was consumed

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