christinam - Hello Poetry

My father is not the best man. He is a drunk, absent, loud, chaotic. But as I grow older, the more I understand. While he is those things, He is also misunderstood, broken, defeated, human I understand now because the heaviness I feel day after day, he also feels. And although we do not speak, I have never felt closer to him.

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Aug 22, 2025

Aug 22, 2025 at 10:38 PM UTC

christinam

Father

My father is not the best man. He is a drunk, absent, loud, chaotic. But as I grow older, the more I understand. While he is those things, He is also misunderstood, broken, defeated, human I understand now because the heaviness I feel day after day, he also feels. And although we do not speak, I have never felt closer to him.

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My father is not the best man. He is a drunk, absent, loud, chaotic. But as I grow older, the more I understand. While he is those things, He is also misunderstood, broken, defeated, human I understand now because the heaviness I feel day after day, he also feels. And although we do not speak, I have never felt closer to him.

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Aug 22, 2025

Aug 22, 2025 at 10:37 PM UTC

christinam

Father

My father is not the best man. He is a drunk, absent, loud, chaotic. But as I grow older, the more I understand. While he is those things, He is also misunderstood, broken, defeated, human I understand now because the heaviness I feel day after day, he also feels. And although we do not speak, I have never felt closer to him.

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Sometimes it feels like I'm not truly living. Like I am just biding my time until the day comes that will one day come for us all.

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Jan 27, 2025

Jan 27, 2025 at 12:45 AM UTC

christinam

Waiting period

Sometimes it feels like I'm not truly living. Like I am just biding my time until the day comes that will one day come for us all.

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Sometimes I catch myself feeling guilty for not wishing you a happy birthday. But then I remember all the years that I waited for you on my birthday. Too drunk, too high, too careless to remember. Somehow I still feel guilty. But I swallow it down and move on with my life.

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Jan 21, 2025

Jan 21, 2025 at 4:36 PM UTC

christinam

Look what you do to me

Sometimes I catch myself feeling guilty for not wishing you a happy birthday. But then I remember all the years that I waited for you on my birthday. Too drunk, too high, too careless to remember. Somehow I still feel guilty. But I swallow it down and move on with my life.

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I'm scared that I will love you forever …

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Jan 19, 2025

Jan 19, 2025 at 9:29 PM UTC

christinam

Long time no see

I'm scared that I will love you forever …

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Let's watch a movie Be sure to pick one that makes you feel alive as you watch it The kind that makes you feel like your life could be bigger than it is Afterwards, you find yourself wanting more, Inspired to live. And then let's hold on to that feeling as long as we can

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Feb 11, 2024

Feb 11, 2024 at 3:27 AM UTC

christinam

Life in a movie

Let's watch a movie Be sure to pick one that makes you feel alive as you watch it The kind that makes you feel like your life could be bigger than it is Afterwards, you find yourself wanting more, Inspired to live. And then let's hold on to that feeling as long as we can

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If I were in a room of all the people I have loved, My heart would choose you. But my head would choose another because I fear you no longer want me.

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Jul 24, 2023

Jul 24, 2023 at 9:51 PM UTC

christinam

All the people I have loved

If I were in a room of all the people I have loved, My heart would choose you. But my head would choose another because I fear you no longer want me.

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Wrong person, wrong time. Worst kind of heartache. I know deep down it will never work. But we can play pretend for 10 more minutes? 10 more days?

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Apr 26, 2023

Apr 26, 2023 at 4:00 PM UTC

christinam

Untitled

Wrong person, wrong time. Worst kind of heartache. I know deep down it will never work. But we can play pretend for 10 more minutes? 10 more days?

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I am a lot. I told you that when we first met. I put a caution sign on my back and yet you still claimed to want me. How do you feel now? Now that you know it's not always sunshine and rainbows. When I sleep for days on end and I can't even begin to tell you how I'm feeling. I cry to you for help and yet your overwhelmed. What did you expect? How can I give you what you deserve when I barely love myself. You say I'm not the victim but you don't live in my head. Who are you to tell me how I'm feeling.

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Apr 12, 2023

Apr 12, 2023 at 4:25 AM UTC

christinam

Slam poetry?

I am a lot. I told you that when we first met. I put a caution sign on my back and yet you still claimed to want me. How do you feel now? Now that you know it's not always sunshine and rainbows. When I sleep for days on end and I can't even begin to tell you how I'm feeling. I cry to you for help and yet your overwhelmed. What did you expect? How can I give you what you deserve when I barely love myself. You say I'm not the victim but you don't live in my head. Who are you to tell me how I'm feeling.

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I am so grateful for getting the opportunity to know you. Before you came along, I had convinced myself that I would never find someone who could be encouraging and kind and honest. "You seem to flip my insecurities inside out like a shirt I’ve been wearing wrong this entire time. My clothing have finally become something I’m proud of." So thank you for showing me that I deserve more than the bare minimum. See ya later friend...

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Aug 8, 2022

Aug 8, 2022 at 6:01 AM UTC

christinam

Right person, wrong time - my goodbye letter

I am so grateful for getting the opportunity to know you. Before you came along, I had convinced myself that I would never find someone who could be encouraging and kind and honest. "You seem to flip my insecurities inside out like a shirt I’ve been wearing wrong this entire time. My clothing have finally become something I’m proud of." So thank you for showing me that I deserve more than the bare minimum. See ya later friend...

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