christina-wise
I believe in honest words and believe life is full of beautiful and tragic experiences as we all grow. I've seen many sorrows and highlights in my life thus far, and each story means to bring more meaning to my life. Even the hardest times are put onto my lap to keep building who I am. I will be truthful about the hardest times that weigh on my soul, and accentuate the times that made the muscles around my mouth grow a smile.
Night creeps along like a thief in the night,
Stealing every last penny from my saved-up dreams.
Self destructive tendencies that lurk deep within me.
I've been suppressing them so long and I couldn't hold them back any longer.
They come out kicking and screaming.
They have my inner child hiding beneath the dining room table, waiting out the night, waiting for the storm to roll over.
But it doesn't end there, it's just the beginning.
Now that it's unleashed who knows when I'll diminish
Into this abyss of my soul, eyes wide open, feeling every inch of bittersweet rage ******* inside me.
All I wanna do is rest my eyes and feel the peace of the dark night, but they won't let me.
Instead, they take a piece of me with them after their finished, and I'm left here more empty than the night before, on the floor, gasping to breathe the oxygen that I'm so blessed with to endure.
What do I feel right now?
What does this tired heart desire?
Have you ever longed to pour your heart out to someone, but instead you remain silent behind a smile?
I give you a hug, I shake your hand...
But behind these eyes there's that fear of self-loathing pain is ingniting, and as our fingers touch, I tell myself to run away, but we interlock and there's no way I will ever get far enough away from you to forget your face.
How could you do this to me?
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 4:56 AM UTC
Where has the time gone?
Wasn't it just yesterday that we were silly kids,
running around and cracking jokes at each other?
No. It was yesterday that you drew your last breath.
Alas, you were taken from this earth so young.
Death came like a thief in the night.
Your body lay lifeless alongside the road.
My dear old friend,
there is nothing I feel but sorrow when I think of it.
Sometimes life just isn't fair.
Farewell, and be with God.
Breathe eternal.
Jan 24, 2015
Jan 24, 2015 at 10:48 PM UTC
...save everyone," they said.
They were right,
I died trying.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 1:47 PM UTC
Spewed out were my wholesome words full of
meaning and frantic need.
Once released to the universe, they were empty.
And the purposeful conversation became insignificant,
receiving no reassurance.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 1:41 PM UTC
I gave you my all for years and you gladly stomped on my masterpiece.
You went from soulmate to stranger in the blink of an eye.
You gave me your most sincere gift this Christmas, wrapped up in pretty bows made of lies and deceit.
You wanted to make out as the good guy, but I'm no fool.
Truth always floats to the surface
and you sir went from ****** to **** in 2.0 seconds.
I saw through your facade and could see the guilt in your eyes,
You self-absorbed, selfish boy.
I gave you years and you give me cowardly copouts full of ********
You couldn't look into my eyes and tell me the truth like I deserved.
Where was your honor during this festive moment in time?
You are the bad guy.
You call yourself a man, but you live life like a spoiled, little boy.
Did you really think I wouldn't find out?
Did you really think I didn't know you like the back of my hand?
Loving you was like second nature, and now when I think of you, I throw up a little in my mouth.
I hope you find your manhood in the bitter warmth of her thighs.
Good riddance and good bye.
You ****** the life out of me for the last time.
Thanks for your Christmas present ****
Freedom from your wicked lies.
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 9:31 PM UTC
and while time
does heal all wounds,
time does not
heal the scars
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 6:04 PM UTC
He’s your 2am and 2pm,
He can make you breathless;
without him trying..
He became your world.
You were trying your best to stop,
but you realized it’s too late.
I’ve been there, and it killed me.
It was the best thing that has happened
to me.
Just let it; let the love control you
and feel the pain, feel it.
Let it flow into your veins
until you bleed. Because after that
it will surely teach you how to be better.
And how to love right..
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC
I can't bear the thought of leaving her
My heart that races when I see her
Stopped and still inside my chest
My life's blood
That I would so gladly bleed for her
Dead within my veins
Casting off that cold corpse like a blanket
And flying into the darkness
Leaving her so alone
A broken widow in this world
Her soul mate flown
Gone away without her
I can't bear the thought of leaving her
Just going away
Leaving her nothing
But my cold flesh to cry on
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 1:41 PM UTC
Tame me with your gentleness,
Let me feel your sweet caress,
Heal my wounded heart,
Save it from being torn apart;
This is what I only ask of you -
To me, please be true.
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 5:22 AM UTC
You fed me lies, while I swallowed every syllable.
You gave me your bittersweet words of false hope to chew on,
And I willingly devoured them at each sitting.
Now I lay here staring at the letters you once wrote me,
Seeing now that I was blinded.
With each progressing sentence,
You made a fool of me.
And now all I crave to do,
Is watch each word burn in raged flames.
Yet, I'm still hungry.
- (c.w.)
Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 9:38 PM UTC