I've always been told I'm worthless. That I'll never amount to anything
I always thought maybe I'd change that.And grow up to who I wanted to be.
But then you can around and confirmed it. Told me everything they already had
And in my mind I guess I gave up. And planted my seed away as it being bad.
I let you treat me like the **** I was. Broken and crumpled upon your floor
I held in the tears and the cries all night. But now it's time for no more.
I'm not the child I used to be, I'm a woman who is strong and true
No more will you beat and **** me. I am steel through and through.
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 11:03 PM UTC
You make me smile, and make me laugh
No matter my day, its worth the path
A chance to talk to you, every day
makes living my life, pretty okay
There's only one problem, it's pretty bad
You're not mine to love,not mine to have
I'm already taken and you're so far away
But I pray that you'll be mine. Someday.
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 10:51 PM UTC
I'm lost yet I'm here, screaming without sound
Blind to this world, yet I see it all around
Why can you not hear me, as I scream out your name
Yet you go about your life, like it's all the same.
Stop, look at me, please, don't look down
Please can you listen, I need to be found
Help me I'm lost, My words make no sound
I plead for your eyes, but never are they found.
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 10:40 PM UTC
Somehow I'm lost in your words and your phrases
Words that haven't lost meaning even through the ages
I love you is simple and can mean quite a lot
But it's such a used phrases it's a long shot
But with you when you say it I can't help but know
That the age or the usage doesn't quite show
The words come alive and play through your eyes
And I know when you say it there are no lies
So tell me again how you love me just so
Because I always want you to let me know.
Apr 11, 2017
Apr 11, 2017 at 12:40 AM UTC
This darkness is over bearing I'm clawing just to stay true
The air is so lacking I struggle to gasp my way through.
You promised you're faith, you'd find me somehow
Where did you go I'm reaching for you now
Yet all that I grasp are thorns in these weeds
Ripping through me as you watch me bleed
I'm falling now into this dark, the world unknown
Falling into the darkness, where the weeds are sowen .
Mar 17, 2017
Mar 17, 2017 at 1:24 AM UTC
It's a strange feeling, with the wind in your hair
The drop of your stomach as you gasp for air
Is this going to be it, the end of all days?
But you can't really think, your mind is a haze
You watch the blurs of colors as they pass
Watch your impending doom It never hurt less
You don't think of the past, or anything at all
You just take it all in, the beauty of the fall.
Mar 7, 2017
Mar 7, 2017 at 8:59 PM UTC
Hatred is what I feel
Not for you, or for him, but for me
I hate what I've done
I hate who I am. I hate who I might turn out to be.
Mar 7, 2017
Mar 7, 2017 at 1:04 AM UTC
The noise oh the noise there's something in my ears
Or maybe it's in my eyes hiding behind these tears
Your words rip through me like a blade to fresh skin
And nothing I do can stop them they just keep setting in.
The noise oh the noise, there it finally stopped
I just had to drink enough. And there's not a pop
I cannot stand now, but who needs to go when you're finally free
There's Nothing left to listen to, nothing left but sleep
This floor will be enough I suppose, not much else around
But I just can't seem to get comfortable upon this hardened ground.
I hear your footsteps still far away but close enough to fear.
My heart skips a few I need to be sober for when you're near
It's too late as you turn the **** and open up the door
To find me whithered and broken, lying on the floor
You should be calm and pick me up, carry me off to bed
But you never have been calm my dear, instead your ears turn red
The noise oh the noise it's all the ringing in my ears
The blood and pain of course bringing back the tears
I can stop it with a scream but I won't give you that pleasure
I just hold it all in as you pound me to your leisure
I can go about my day and lie about the bruises
Fearing going home to you with your boozes
Your words are fearful enough bringing me to my knees
And your fists finish me off, completing the defeat
I'm not sure how much I can take day after day
There comes a point in life when it's all you can take
So I run now as far as I can 2,000 miles away
And leave you with no words nothing left to say
The noise oh the noise the constant ringing of this phone
Your simple texts and messages. Where the hell have you gone
I'm done, I'm out, another beep on the line
I'm sorry, I love you, but this is good bye.
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 2:18 AM UTC
Listen and walk. I try to hold up the conversation.
1.2.3
The cracks in the sidewalk distract me. You frown. I swear I was listening.
It's dinner the food the dishes all Laid out. It looks delicious.
1.2.3.
I have to clean them. You frown. No I'm sure you did it right last time.
The movies on date night. The popcorn in our hands
3.6.9.
No we can't sit here. You frown. It's good. Just one more back please
Numbers you used to think were cute and okay still
1.2.3.
How many months it took for you to get tired of who I am
But you ask me to leave and I can't seem to see why.
1.2.3.
Reasons I can think to stay. But I can stand to sit here and watch you cry
Years have passed and I still am stuck on you. Your laugh and your smile
1.2.3.
So many reasons to love you and it doesn't stop for a while.
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 1:45 AM UTC
crying out to you now I hear no reply
As Im listening to your silent goodbye
Your eyes are pleading for me to let go
Yet somehow my heart it still says no
How could you want me to ever leave
When all I want is your heart on your sleeve
please say something. Anything I beg.
but you just let me go with a turn of your head
I'm nothing to you and you want me to know
That whatever this was it was not but a show
So I'm turning now with these tears in my eyes
As I wait all I hear is your silent goodbye
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 3, 2017 at 10:11 AM UTC