I saw you today
In your truck
Windows tinted yet
I still knew that was you
You passed by and I could see you
Hat brimmed around your face
Stubbled beard how I always liked it
You looked okay, like nothing happen between us
You weren’t looking for me
like I’ve been looking for you
That’s when I decided
It’s time to let you go
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 6:34 PM UTC
One decision
That’s all it took to disassemble everything I had planned
3 months and my life will change
New faces and scenery
A new beginning
But I’m stuck in my old ways
Mar 17, 2019
Mar 17, 2019 at 6:20 PM UTC
I’m half the person I used to be
The other given to you
A shell of the person I was
Dreams washed out to sea
Waiting for the tide to wash back in
Mar 16, 2019
Mar 16, 2019 at 10:58 PM UTC
Alone
No where to turn
No where to go
I feel like I’m lost
With no hope in sight
I’ve lost half of me
Twice
there’s no getting that back
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 7:23 PM UTC
I remember every single thing
Our first date
Hazelnut ice coffee;Nutella donut
your favorite
You were smiling from ear to ear with that handsome grin
Second date
Sitting in your car
Under the bridge
Telling you my deepest secrets
Hand in hand
Introduced to your friends
Anxiety ridden but safe
That became the beginning of us
I’ve always felt at home
So I let down my walls
built a home inside of you
I let you guard that door
I was living in a dream
Then
Came the storm
Barreling down our house
The walls began to tumble
As depression conquered my mind
I tried to hide but you could see through
You began feeling sorry, guilty
Like you couldn’t walk out that door
when all you wanted to do was
Demolish this house, our house
So I opened the door for you
You stood there, contemplating
You walked right through
You locked the door
Threw out the key
Never to return again
This was the story of us.
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 11:58 PM UTC
words flood my page
Pour out like a tidal wave
Rediscovering
Heart
Mind
Soul
Relive that moment to capture
the details
the emotion
put it on display
for everyone to see
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 11:33 PM UTC
Take a pill
Smoke some ****
Expand the mind
Explore
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 10:03 PM UTC
I dug deep
It helped me write
Feel
Express
But now that’s all I’m thinking of
You
The hurt
Missing
Needing
Wishing
That things were different
I want to go back
To how it was when I felt happy
Safe
In love
On top of the world
Now all you make me feel is lonely
Sad
Not good enough
You were my best friend
The love of my life
My partner in crime
But couldn’t handle my depression
I became a burden
Too much to handle
I wish I never took those pills
I wish I never got so bad
Maybe we would of had a chance
Maybe there’s something wrong with me
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 2:22 PM UTC
Sadly I knew it was over
Before it actually ended
I dug a deep hole
And dragged you in with me
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 2:18 PM UTC