*We always joked about,
How you were my Alex,
I was your Rosie.
We said everything about that movie,
Depicted you and me.
Not realising what I was doing,
I had your number on speed dial,
‘What do I even say if he picks up?’
It had been months,
I think even more than a year,
What was I thinking?
I had everything I wanted to say all planned out,
Your voice rose up from the other end,
The world stood still for a minute.
'Hello?' you said.
A wave of emotions washed over me,
I could not put a word to those feelings.
That sense of comfort,
and familiarity.
Something that I missed,
I had forgotten all about it.
We didn’t have much to say,
but that was okay.
It was a comfortable sort of silence,
Just us both,
existing at this very moment.
I miss you too, Alex.
I never got to say it*
Mar 24, 2016
Mar 24, 2016 at 1:12 PM UTC
I still remember the first time I ever met you,
I still remember where we were,
I still remember we were right beside each other,
I still remember the way you talked,
I still remember your first girlfriend and the way you used to be around her,
I still remember wishing it was me and not her.
I still remember our inside jokes, and how bad they were,
I still remember the first night we spoke on the phone,
I still remember telling myself to get it together,
I still remember how close we got, 3 years later.
I still remember your sense of humour, and your love to make everyone around you happy,
I still remember how quiet you can get whilst you were thinking,
I still remember the first time we hugged, and how awkward it was,
I still remember the time you came to the airport to say goodbye,
I still remember you telling me how you felt about me, a year later,
I still remember getting annoyed because our times didn’t work together,
I still remember that night that you asked me to be your girlfriend,
I still remember the goosebumps that I felt when I said yes,
I still remember the excitement I feel whenever I get a text,
I still remember the frustrations we felt as the seas put our love to the test,
I still remember the disbelief I felt as I finally flew back and I saw you again,
I still remember the first time you held my hand,
I still remember my fingers memorising your face,
I still remember how you made me feel,
I still remember the way you kissed my shoulders,
I still remember the way you loved me,
I still remember your friends telling me how I made you feel,
I still remember how they told me you were always missing me,
I still remember the way your eyes looked as they stared at me,
I still remember how that made me feel,
I still remember how I cried as I looked at your picture in the plane, the second time we said goodbye
I still remember how our love died, as time passed
I still remember the way our calls got shorter
I still remember how your reasons got longer
I still remember crying over you, no longer of joy, but of pain
I still remember asking the Lord, what is there left to gain
I still remember you giving up,
I still remember my heart breaking,
I still remember demanding you, is this all what you’ve got?
I still remember the last time we said goodbye.
I still remember the nights that made me cry,
I still remember writing it all down as my emotions died,
I still remember all of this a year later,
I still remember how in love our love made me feel.
I still remember how I wished those heartaches were never real.
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 5:22 AM UTC
Ive been trying to fix the silence
With so many guys,
Thinking that maybe I like this guy,
Over two texts "hi",
Those who don't even recall my face,
Or where is that mole,
On which side of my face.
Ive been trying to fix the silence,
Going out and trying to wander,
Reading books and avoiding the broken hearted,
Ive been trying to fix the silence,
Even going to church and believing in all wonders,
maybe those who have passed on alone,
Have died waiting on that special person.
and no one ever made past their barriers.
We're all just made to fall in love with that silence.
Jul 17, 2015
Jul 17, 2015 at 9:54 AM UTC
I feel like I'm searching for someone,
Who doesn't exist,
Or just the idea of love itself.
In everyone that I meet,
But deep down, I know,
It is not what I see.
It hasn't hit me yet.
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 9:17 AM UTC
*Another one walks away,
After promising so many things,
One of them was to stay.
Why am I surprised anyway.*
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC
*One day, you will meet a guy who will see the sunsets in your eyes.
Who will make you cry, but with joy,
Instead of misery, late at night.
Who will fight for you,
Instead of letting you guys fall apart.
Who will assure you that this isn't a repeat,
of your first broken heart.
You don't have to settle for anyone else,
Just to feel loved,
You are showered with it,
Even from above.
There is a whole world out there waiting for you.
A world that awaits for what your talent can do.
Don't let him hold you back.
No guy who is ever worth it will do that.
A guy who can walk away from you,
After letting you believe that they do love you,
Is never worth it.
Let him go, hunny.
Love will come looking for you.
Don't look for it.*
The wait will be worth it.
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 3:38 AM UTC
A few weeks ago,
My nine year old sister said to me,
"I don't like boys at all."
Great, I say.
Never ever let any of them mess up your day.
Just last night,
She told everyone in the family,
"Mom and Dad, a boy in my class likes me."
".....And I kinda like him too," she added quietly.
Young love,
It was just that easy.
A boy meets girl,
Everything will fall into place.
...just where it needs to be.
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 10:20 PM UTC
There was this boy, I met 3 years ago.
We went to the movies,
Johnny English, I still remember,
that was what we went to see.
Few months later, I received the news,
That I needed to leave.
Australia bound,
was what I was going to be.
I told him,
goodbyes was what I didn't need.
He made his mission to get everyone that I loved to come and see me.
Occasionally, we would get into contact,
Exchange a few hellos.
And a little bit of goodbyes.
He wrote me letters,
Okay, maybe just one.
But I never wondered why.
I watched him fall for a string of girls,
Who left him feeling high.
While I fell in love with someone else,
Whom I should have just bid goodbye.
Now that the time is right,
None of us are tied,
We keep missing each other,
All these countless of missed chances,
Separated by seas,
Up till today,
You're still my biggest what if.
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 1:30 PM UTC
4 months, 121 days, 2904 hours, 10454400 seconds later,
I still think of you.
When I'm on the train, and I look into the skies, I remember how I longed to be amongst them, because that meant I would be nearer to you.
Do you remember that night,
When it was just us two, running into the woods, late at night,
The way your lips took my breathe away,
My hands would tremble as they memorized your face,
This moment, I told myself,
made up for all the gray days.
I could still feel the way the whole world stood still for a minute,
As you kissed those 3 words onto my skin,
I swear I couldn't believe it.
4 months, 121 days, 2904 hours, 10454400 seconds later,
I still havent forgotten about it.
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 7:39 AM UTC
I could never forget it.
That night that we ended this.
This thing I called amazing.
Why did you leave me?
Up till today,
It never made sense to me.
We blame it on my parents,
On religion,
Things we couldn't grasp,
Issues that an end could never reach.
Was it really that?
Or were you just tired of me?
Now I see you moving on,
Speaking to girls,
The kinds I will never be.
I hope you're finally happy.
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 3:23 AM UTC