*We always joked about,
How you were my Alex,
I was your Rosie.
We said everything about that movie,
Depicted you and me.
Not realising what I was doing,
I had your number on speed dial,
‘What do I even say if he picks up?’
It had been months,
I think even more than a year,
What was I thinking?
I had everything I wanted to say all planned out,
Your voice rose up from the other end,
The world stood still for a minute.
'Hello?' you said.
A wave of emotions washed over me,
I could not put a word to those feelings.
That sense of comfort,
and familiarity.
Something that I missed,
I had forgotten all about it.
We didn’t have much to say,
but that was okay.
It was a comfortable sort of silence,
Just us both,
existing at this very moment.
I miss you too, Alex.
I never got to say it*
Mar 24, 2016
Mar 24, 2016 at 1:12 PM UTC
kissing
you
was
a
dream
that
came
true
but
living
with
you
is
a
nightmare
which
will
never
come
true
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 6:25 AM UTC
I still remember the first time I ever met you,
I still remember where we were,
I still remember we were right beside each other,
I still remember the way you talked,
I still remember your first girlfriend and the way you used to be around her,
I still remember wishing it was me and not her.
I still remember our inside jokes, and how bad they were,
I still remember the first night we spoke on the phone,
I still remember telling myself to get it together,
I still remember how close we got, 3 years later.
I still remember your sense of humour, and your love to make everyone around you happy,
I still remember how quiet you can get whilst you were thinking,
I still remember the first time we hugged, and how awkward it was,
I still remember the time you came to the airport to say goodbye,
I still remember you telling me how you felt about me, a year later,
I still remember getting annoyed because our times didn’t work together,
I still remember that night that you asked me to be your girlfriend,
I still remember the goosebumps that I felt when I said yes,
I still remember the excitement I feel whenever I get a text,
I still remember the frustrations we felt as the seas put our love to the test,
I still remember the disbelief I felt as I finally flew back and I saw you again,
I still remember the first time you held my hand,
I still remember my fingers memorising your face,
I still remember how you made me feel,
I still remember the way you kissed my shoulders,
I still remember the way you loved me,
I still remember your friends telling me how I made you feel,
I still remember how they told me you were always missing me,
I still remember the way your eyes looked as they stared at me,
I still remember how that made me feel,
I still remember how I cried as I looked at your picture in the plane, the second time we said goodbye
I still remember how our love died, as time passed
I still remember the way our calls got shorter
I still remember how your reasons got longer
I still remember crying over you, no longer of joy, but of pain
I still remember asking the Lord, what is there left to gain
I still remember you giving up,
I still remember my heart breaking,
I still remember demanding you, is this all what you’ve got?
I still remember the last time we said goodbye.
I still remember the nights that made me cry,
I still remember writing it all down as my emotions died,
I still remember all of this a year later,
I still remember how in love our love made me feel.
I still remember how I wished those heartaches were never real.
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 5:22 AM UTC
Ive been trying to fix the silence
With so many guys,
Thinking that maybe I like this guy,
Over two texts "hi",
Those who don't even recall my face,
Or where is that mole,
On which side of my face.
Ive been trying to fix the silence,
Going out and trying to wander,
Reading books and avoiding the broken hearted,
Ive been trying to fix the silence,
Even going to church and believing in all wonders,
maybe those who have passed on alone,
Have died waiting on that special person.
and no one ever made past their barriers.
We're all just made to fall in love with that silence.
Jul 17, 2015
Jul 17, 2015 at 9:54 AM UTC
You had your chance
I gave you time
You gave me rhyme
I went away
You didn't ask me to stay
I found someone new
He is someone you knew
He's been my friend
Loved me till the end
Now I love him too
And I'm over you
Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 12:45 AM UTC
I feel like I'm searching for someone,
Who doesn't exist,
Or just the idea of love itself.
In everyone that I meet,
But deep down, I know,
It is not what I see.
It hasn't hit me yet.
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 9:17 AM UTC
And I had to walk away
I was just hoping at least he noticed I didn't run
Mar 7, 2015
Mar 7, 2015 at 7:12 PM UTC
my parents warned me about drugs on the street
and bad things,
but they forgot to tell me about
beautiful boys with blue eyes that cut deep,
and whose hands can take a soul,
oh god, how they forgot to tell me
how he’d make me feel
Mar 6, 2015
Mar 6, 2015 at 7:54 PM UTC
It scares me that you know
Exactly what I like
You see right though my i'm okay
And all the happy words I write
It scares me that you can
List things that make me laugh
Or the things that make me cry
And always break my heart
It scares me that you know
More about me than I do
And even more than I know
Everything about you
It scares me how much you care
When no one else does
When I am all by myself
With nobody else to love
It scares me how much I need you
To do the things you do
To stay always by my side
And to just be you
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 7:02 PM UTC