I have this little thing called faith
It's about as big as a mustard seed
When it feels like my life is about to abate
I turn to Him to fulfill my every need
I have this little thing called faith
When it feels like the walls are closing in
I know You suffered greatly and died for me
But I still punish myself for my past sins
I have this little thing called faith
When it feels like I have been forsaken
It's a matter of choice and not up to fate
To accept the offer that has been taken
I have this little thing called faith
In my mind and heart I have been afflicted
My soul feels fallen to the point of no return
But I know it is of the Spirit I am convicted
My soul it hurts so deep from the depths of depravity
I can't go on like this I am a living catastrophe
I will stand firm in the battle for Christ's sake
And I will hold on to this little thing called faith
Sep 28, 2019
Sep 28, 2019 at 12:59 PM UTC
Life is a fight when you try to do right.
Around every corner they try to steer you the wrong way.
There are so many new horizons and paths to go down.
When you're at the end of the rope you can always turn around.
Don't ever give up in what you believe.
You can always achieve what your mind can conceive.
The days have been long and I need to reprieve.
There is an emptiness I need to relieve.
Everything I encounter is tempting and beautiful,
But I will not give in to the fiery desires.
They will only bring sorrow and make me wallow in despair.
I know what the right thing to do is and I will stick to my guns.
Don't ask me why I make myself suffer I know my day will come.
Because in my heart I will never be lonely and I'll have the one.
Never be lonely because you're never alone.
All the friends, family, and faces from the place you call home.
Take me to the place where they call me their own.
Just be who you are and you'll always be your own.
Never be lonely for you can lose yourself.
There's always somebody to lend you help.
Don't give yourself away, your heart is within you.
Just listen to your heart and you'll always be true.
Never be lonely because fate takes a turn.
Always show respect and never let bridges burn.
Inside all of us we can be crude and vindictive.
Just look into your heart for the proper incentive.
Never be lonely because it can bring out the worst.
Even if you don't know it can leave you cursed,
But I have been lonely and I know how it feels.
I'm just going nowhere and spinning my wheels.
If you never be lonely you will find yourself.
You have to love who you are to love someone else.
Never be lonely because you'll be stuck in the game,
With no one to turn to and only yourself to blame.
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 5:21 PM UTC
Standing alone in the shadow of a doubt.
When there's no one to run to, or no way out.
Looking down on the water at my own reflection.
Hoping I can get rid of this mental infection.
This mental infection just turns into mist.
Peace in myself is my one remaining wish.
My mind is a storm and I can't find any cover.
I hope I make it out when the storm is over.
I know you still love me and would do anything.
To keep me in your life, with love on the wing.
But I can't turn back, because I felt the pain.
My heart would break again, driving me insane.
There's a special lady out there, who'll really care.
To keep my heart strong, this heart you can't tear.
I will never let you into my heart again.
But you'll always be in my heart, until the end.
I don't know why good love had to turn bad.
Leave me feeling depressed, leave me feeling sad.
But it was not my fault, so my heart won't falter.
There's a long road ahead, and I have to keep pushing farther.
Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 3:46 PM UTC
Each day,
I count the highway signs
as I pass by,
hoping to follow them all
and tattoo them on my skin
with the dust of my tires.
Each day,
I drive the same route to work
and then home,
wishing,
just once,
my heart would go off-road.
Each night,
I mournfully regale the moon
with tales
of journeys great men traveled,
trips brave women blazed,
and my own bland,
listless meanderings between
work
and then home.
Each night,
the Moon beckons me
to chase the horizon
with open arms,
calls vehemently
for the chained thing
beating in my breast
to fly headfirst
into the Unknown.
One night
I will listen.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 7:37 PM UTC
*She doesn’t always look the same
Sometimes she’s a silver sphere
Fooling you that she is bright
But she’s just a mistress of the night
Sometimes only half of her you can see
Following you wherever you’ll be
She hides while dancing in the sky
Half, still a full beauty up high
In time, she becomes thin, crescent
Like a smile, a blissful moment
She looks delicate, discriminating
Only a part of her, still breathtaking
And only those prison of the night
Will witness the euphoric stint
Of showing pieces of her then
The beauty of becoming whole again*
Jul 6, 2017
Jul 6, 2017 at 9:00 PM UTC
as the day comes to an end
and your mind starts to pretend,
remember this
all these dreams are not for real
nor the emotions that you feel,
but
one day your life will become
its own version of this one
although daydreams won't come true
you will have something brand new
your future is a fantasy
in and of itself
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 8:30 PM UTC
Out of the shadows I do seek to find
I pray to God to find peace of soul and mind
I'm trapped inside of this body for me to remind
That only the Lord can heal me true and divine
Sep 25, 2016
Sep 25, 2016 at 12:48 PM UTC
*Working during daylight
Studying late night
Away from home
Makes me feel alone
Black circles under my eyes
Doing my best not to cry
There are times I almost gave up
There are times I wished I could go back
But the wind always whispers something
"You've come too far, you're almost there"
A flicker of smile
My hope didn't die*
Sep 21, 2016
Sep 21, 2016 at 10:14 PM UTC
If you grow the flower
Of the holy spirit
You are a gardener
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 3:02 PM UTC
I wake up at the beginning of every day.
Thinking about the time I'm wasting away.
I hope that one day I find an open door.
I know that I was meant for so much more.
With all of life's expense I have to keep pace.
It leaves me stuck between a rock and hard place.
I'm not looking for the way things were before.
That's what I'm trying to get away from for so much more.
When I say "So Much More" I don't mean material things.
I'm talking about the purpose for me that God brings.
And I pray in His will he takes me to a different shore.
Because I know that I was meant for so much more.
The endless monotony makes me wanna cry my eyes out.
But if not that it makes me wanna pry my eyes out.
But there is only one light that knows what's in store.
And I will dig deeper to know there is so much more.
Everything the past ten years have seemed meaningless.
But if it has a purpose then it has to be gleaminess.
The soul-crushing pain is for the renewing of my core.
So I can be filled with joy to know there is so much more.
Aug 27, 2016
Aug 27, 2016 at 4:21 PM UTC