Why do you keep relapsing?
Well,
Its like yours mind give s you a hunderd reasons
To be happy.
And your depression says
Wait.
Here's a reason to be sad.
Every single thing thats wrong,
That you have done wrong
In your entire life.
All of the memories
And then that voice over rules
Everything.
Dec 12, 2015
Dec 12, 2015 at 9:12 AM UTC
Home alone.
You break down,
letting out everything,
crying as loud as you can.
Your family come home,
and here you go.
Fake smile,fake laugh,
pretend everything okay.
They do not suspect a thing.
They do not suspect their child is broken and falling apart.
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 7:04 PM UTC
Everyday it gets harder.
Everyday it is a nightmare
progressing on and on.
Everyday is another prayer
echoing from my bones,
asking God to please take me now.
Everyday I close up more and more.
It is getting more impossible to stay here.
Everyday I feel myself die more and more.
When I lay down each night,
I wonder how ill leave this hell..
I never felt so much pain.
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 1:07 PM UTC
When the urges are to high,
take some time to breath..
I know is hard to breath then,
but you will get through this..
This storm won't last forever,
take some time to look back at your life.
It may seem like it was horrible and not worth the memory's,
but your wrong..
God put you here for a reason.
So when you get those thoughts and urges.
Just take 15 minutes and,
breath, and try to relax.
Do something that will get your mind of those things.
God will never put something in your life,
that he knows you can't handle.
You can get through it with his help,
and your strength in him..
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 2:39 PM UTC
Don't you dare tell me I am beautiful.
Until you have seen my scars...
That are craved into my body,
and the blood that pours out of my soul..
Don't you dare tell me I am lovely,
until I completely shut you out of my life..
Because I swore to myself,
you are just like the others and you will get sick of me.....
Don't you dare tell me I am flawless,
until you have seen me break down in tears..
I will show you the darkness that's inside me that's consumes me,
and you will run away form me...
But if you,
have seen my scars,
my bitterness,
and darkness...
Then I might believe you....
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 9:41 AM UTC
She was only 13 and she wished for
happiness...
On her 14th birthday she wished to
feel alive...
Her 15th birthday she wished she was dead...
She is already dead inside so it doesn't matter...
When her 16th birthday came she wasn't there not longer....
she was DEAD.....
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 9:34 AM UTC
He is only 10 he should
be crying beacuse he
feel down,not beacuse
someone called him a ***
She's only 12,she
should be playing with
makeup,not razors..
He's only 14 he should be out with his freinds,
not tying ropes...
She's only 16, she
should be out on dates,
not staraving herself...
They were all 18, they
should have been
celebrating graduation,
not a furneral...
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 11:42 AM UTC
Do you ever get the feeling,
your are sitting in your room all alone.
Your thoughts are wandering...
Your crying,but you just feel so empty and sad...
Replaying momments from your life,
and wondering where the heck did it all go wrong...
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 1:35 PM UTC
The feeling of the blade running across your skin.
The blood dripping down your legs, and arms.
The numb feeling going all over your body.
Is that what you wanted in the first place.
Not to feel your pain.
Also not having those horrible thoughts in your mind.
After awhile those thoughts will come back with bigger urges...
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 2:15 PM UTC
I realized today that I have
stopped living life.
I am literally just trying to get
to the next day, just living in the
thought of tomorrow.
I am not living, I am waiting.
And the trouble is, I don't know what
I am exactly waiting for. I am kind of
scared for what it might be.
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 2:06 PM UTC