This is the first birthday that I didn’t cry. The first birthday I am happy.
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 4:09 PM UTC
disregard previous messages.
a bout of pity and pathetic
plagued a lonely heart.
eyes are closed to reality open to fantasy.
distance seemed to be the cure
the lonely heart only yearned more for yellow
infected again by glances and seconds of speech
disregard previous messages.
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 12:38 AM UTC
it’s creeping up again
hard to keep it at bay but it mocks me,
false hope of the future.
fantasies of happiness it implants, they feel so real.
It’s mascot I soon employ myself to be, rotting indefinitely.
Aug 22, 2024
Aug 22, 2024 at 6:43 AM UTC
to everyone who has left me, whether you were here for 8 days or 5 years, id like to thank you for the laughter, the hopes, the future, and the disappointment.
i'd like to thank you for letting me see that you were less than what i deserve, less than what i need, and saw in yourself that you were going to be no more than a burden to me.
you saw yourself as a leaf on my tree and wanted to be a branch on another.
you saw in my eyes, that i was sad, lonely, desperate for love, and felt it your duty to no longer play with my heart.
as confusing to wake up and see that person cease to exist; i understand you weren't meant to be in my life anyway.
but, thank you for your service.
Jul 16, 2021
Jul 16, 2021 at 10:18 PM UTC
I wish I gave more of a **** sometimes but my trauma won’t allow it.
Feb 18, 2021
Feb 18, 2021 at 1:36 AM UTC
you are so new to me,
A feeling that I feel is a dream.
you are so familiar to me,
A feeling that I wish will never go away.
you are so important to me,
A feeling that I want more of.
you are so beautiful to me,
A feeling I’ve never saw in myself.
you are so new to me,
A feeling that I know is truth.
Jan 10, 2021
Jan 10, 2021 at 11:57 PM UTC
don't be like me.
a weak person.
unable to swallow abuse, unable to say to a person who is ignoring me that it's okay.
unable to say no.
don't be like me, anxiety filled and emotional to the point of missing work due to stomachaches and headaches.
constantly being yelled at for harmless mistakes and belittled for shortcomings.
don't be like me, a weak sad person who wants to be stronger but can only cry and hide in her room.
don't be like me.
Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 2:45 AM UTC
highs and lows
of meeting new people
is exciting until
they never speak to you again.
Nov 9, 2019
Nov 9, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
i wonder whose heart i broke so bad in a past life to suffer their heartache today.
May 11, 2019
May 11, 2019 at 3:10 AM UTC