So many things I should have said,
but I trapped them in my mouth,
and thought them instead.
Mar 18, 2013
Mar 18, 2013 at 10:07 AM UTC
From a distance they would look like two figures,
or one,
surrendered to grief.
Wrapped up in one another to escape the rain.
Their tiny umbrella allowing heavy drops to fall,
Surreptitiously sliding down their back,
Their faces,
Their arms.
"My feet are soaked" he groaned,
She tilted her head back and laughed.
Their eyes met and a wicked grin replaced his pout.
They could not frown together.
They watched the rain, no longer fighting it off,
She paddled in her socks, feeling alive,
allowing the rain to slowly cello-tape,
their sodden, shivering bodies together.
They were peaceful.
A sound struggled through the rain.
As she gingerly pressed her head against his chest,
music pierced her ears,
Joy washed over her,
with force the rain could not compete with,
as she recognised the song, the band.
“Just like the movies.” She whispered.
clutching him closer,
"Just like the films”
The music escaped from your headphones,
but I like to say it came from your heart.
Aug 18, 2011
Aug 18, 2011 at 2:28 PM UTC
We stand, close enough to touch,
Our heads and hearts already entwined
In our inescapable knot of love.
Face to face,
Heart to heart
Just like it always has been.
Words tumble through my mind, trip on my tongue
Butting gently at my lips
I want to spit them out and let you see
All of my insides.
These knotted thoughts and unknown parts,
This tangled mess of confusion and fear
Belong to you alone,
To you alone my dear.
Cut me open with your love
Expose every vein and bone.
Find every secret, every feeling.
Please understand my scrambled mind,
In a way I never want to.
Please tease out the knots of pain
And make them something new and limitless.
Amongst this uncontrollable ocean of me, I treasure you.
Every touch, every kiss,
Our desperate and uncontrollable passion.
I pull together, to make a raft
To float above the frightening depths
I’m too afraid to swim.
You are my life boat
I need you to breath, I need you to be,
Don’t let me sink into the darkening depths of me.
My love, my light, I’ll follow you
Across these dark, intrepid seas
Because you alone,
You, alone my love,
Are the beautiful part of me.
May 3, 2011
May 3, 2011 at 1:46 PM UTC
When you’re drunk I think of you
The blanket over your senses
The numbness you feel from head to toe
As your feet bump and slide together
You watch them, fighting separately for progress
You get embarrassed when I mention
Your attempts at communication
Something along the lines of
“ H love yov so ro so much”
It’s the thought that counts I suppose
I pretend I don’t count the hours
Or the scenarios in my head
Of all the places you could have been
All the things you could have done
I am a carefree lover
“I’ll be careful! I promise!” You stress
That bland lie
Leaves your tongue with the sweetest intentions
And I love you for your attempts at reassurance
“I know dear, you always are.”
And we smile together, in our unintentional ignorance.
Jan 16, 2011
Jan 16, 2011 at 9:41 AM UTC
In this shroud of warmth
I hide
Clutching every part of me
Together
As insecurity swells and burns
The hem must surely go down
Some more
The neck must pull up
Further
I want to submerge
Sink into the scratchy tent
Completely
Drown amongst my
Limbs
As I writhe and stretch to provide sufficient space
For the monster inside my head
Dec 31, 2010
Dec 31, 2010 at 12:23 PM UTC
How can you enjoy love?
When he stole it from you
She sat where she had sat on the stair
Held her head in her hands
And felt the fists and the feet
Pushing himself inside
And taking her out
She could see him leering
In her unreflective eyes
She would no longer let him fester in her soul
Deep rooted
Wrapped around her veins and muscles
Interlocked within her every intimate move
A pat on the back
Would never penetrate deep enough
To wrap her scars in silk
And tease out the knots they had forged around her heart
So she wore the lipstick she had worn
Smudged poorly over her child lips
Bright red so all could see
Every kiss she had placed
Over every place he had been.
My polka dot Mama
Speckled with drops of love
Not blood
How can you enjoy life?
When he took every chance you had
Dec 8, 2010
Dec 8, 2010 at 7:02 AM UTC
All I can do is
Sit
And
Stare
At the shapes your mouth is forming.
The O’s and the A’s
knitted into words
Your lips tremble
But your words still find me
Hide and seek with my hands
Its too much
Its too wrong
Its not true
I’m not going to let it be.
Crying
Is an option
But you need me
Role reversal I watch you cry
Awkward pat across the seats
Why tell me here? Cars have no hiding places.
We stare blindly in the direction of the windscreen
I pretend it’s a television
Count the trees, count the sheep
Distraction from you
I want my bliss back
Nov 21, 2010
Nov 21, 2010 at 8:37 AM UTC
So simple and so sweet
My bouncy box of music
Clinking and clanking
Gently through my ear drums
Pressure pressure pressure
Sweetly appealing for release
No monsters here.
I hold nothing to fear.
A lull in my resolve
That simple handle,
Turning.
Butterfly Silence.
Excitement and fear bundle as one
This monster untamed,
Lurching and wailing
My fears, My nightmares.
Exposed.
With cold dead hands
I tease the creature back.
Whispering plans,
Hopes and dreams
Hushed away once more.
Butterfly silence.
My momentary relief.
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 1:06 PM UTC
SLAP!
The smirk
Slithers,
Slips,
Slides,
from your face.
Your eyes glaze over
Pride is your life boat.
I snap my hand back
Like you are burning.
You don’t deserve my skin.
One last time,
My eyes sweep your face
I am satisfied with my creation.
Your smirk
Slithers,
Slips,
Slides,
Onto my lips.
On the walk home
My chance arises!
You smirk.
And sulkily, I slink away.
Oct 21, 2010
Oct 21, 2010 at 11:41 AM UTC
Hate me
Your heart is in my grasp
Despise me
As I clench it in my fist
Refuse me
My beautiful toy thing
Leave me
Don’t love me the way you do
Ignore me
I don’t deserve your calls
Hurt me
The way I hurt you
Forget me
My fickle heart will flutter no more
Oct 13, 2010
Oct 13, 2010 at 1:23 PM UTC