Someone like me will love you so hard
that you'll turn into stone
Don't fall in love with someone like me. Someone like me will kiss you
in every beautiful place.
So that you never go back to them
without tasting us.
Like blood in your mouth.
May 9, 2023
May 9, 2023 at 9:04 PM UTC
Darkness has invaded me again
Clouding my soul
Darkness is manifesting in my body and mind
Emerging my worst fears
Desperately unable to find my way
Suddenly I find myself in a world of wonder
A world of make believe
A world where anything and everything is possible
Thousands of stories told &millions unheard of
Desperately avoiding my immense emptyness
The nightmares that torture me
The demons that dance over my shoulders
I want it all to vanish
Suddenly I find myself in another time, another place
With stolen glances
Mysterious love and epic hero fights
Another place in which I let myself feel
All the emotions and tragedies
Imagination has to offer
I let myself disappear even for a spit second
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 6:47 PM UTC
I feel like I been floating
Floating in life
Floating with every step I take
Floating into nothing
Just wasting space
My mind is floating
While my body functions
My thoughts are floating
Yet I can have a conversation
My body is present
Yet my soul is floating
How can I be one whole person?
Without pieces of me floating
I feel everything
Yet I feel nothing
I am emotionless
Yet my insides feel it all
I can breath
Yet I don't feel like I am
I can function
While I float away
Away from you
Away from everyone
Away from everything
Pull me back
Stop me
Stop me
Or
I will float away
All of me
Forever
Jun 12, 2018
Jun 12, 2018 at 1:42 AM UTC
There's a moment when you realize that this life ain't worth living.
There's that time when you just want to end it.
There's a place where you rather be.
There's that thought of no tomorrow.
Time to liberate.
A moment to feel free.
A place to feel safe.
A tomorrow to long for.
There's no tomorrow for me.
There's no place I fit.
There's no time.
There's no more moments.
My time is over.
My life has no tomorrow.
My moment is gone.
My place is not with the living.
Time consumed my heart.
A moment broke my heart.
A life of pain.
A place for my heart?
Do you have time for me ?
Can you share a moment ?
A full-time life of love?
A place to be, to feel safe?
Forgive me not for what I am going to do
Remember me for what I was
Don't cry for time is wasted
Make a place in your heart
Take the best moment and make it your last moment
My heart is empty
My mind clear
My life lifeless
My place lonely
Love me for who I am
Love me as for I DESERVE it
Love me because that's what you want to do
Love me love me love me
How do I show my face to the world
How can I stop being a mess
How can I live
How can I be happy
I don't remember the last time I laughed until I couldn't
I don't remember the last time I felt butterflies
I don't remember the last time I felt loved
I don't remember
I don't remember
Watch me
See me
Acknowledge me
See me
See how I slowly disappear
See how I slowly turn to dust
See how I slowly get lost
See how I slowly become one with the earth
I want to not know life
I want to know no pain
I want to know no tears
I wan to know no love
#lifelovedepressionpainanxietynotomorrowfeelfreebefree
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 8:13 PM UTC
Stop
Go away
How can I make you go away
I can't stop crying
I can't stop thinking
Stop
Brain stop thinking
Brain stop overthinking
Stop
Make the voices stop
Make the visions stop
Stop
Crying
Stop
Crying
So silver shiny
So sharp at edge
So tempting
So appealing
Let it hurt
Penetrate
Oh pain
Oh sweet pain
Red
Brightly red
It burns
Voices are gone
Pain kicks in
Release of it all
Dec 15, 2016
Dec 15, 2016 at 1:12 AM UTC
I am drowning in my thoughts
I feel empty
Help me !
Rapidly the waves are drowning me
My heartbeat racing
My body slowly giving up
Stop me!
I can no longer
Feel
Think
Move
I have given up
Stop me !
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 1:35 PM UTC
Year One: Girl met boy.
Year Two: New memories were made
Year Three: Time apart was need
Year Four: Girl's heart had been broken into million pieces
Year Five: Despite the broken heart she stood by boy's side.
A long story told short
Leaving out every detail
Every pain I ever felt
Every tear I ever shed
Stayed because I loved him
Stayed because I wanted him to be okay
Why did I stay?
A promised
I promised to not walk out
Not to walk out like everyone had once
As I continued to keep my promised
I cried blood, he shattered my heart
over and over and over again
Even at that, I continued to be there
Not giving up on him, not walking out
My heart could no longer bear such pain
My body begged for it all to stop
My mind could no longer think
Heart well my heart was being insensitive
Insensitive to my mind, body and soul
The pain unbearable
I did not hated him
I forgave him
Over and over and over again
I forgave him
I do not hate him
* How can I stay?*
A promise
Sep 28, 2016
Sep 28, 2016 at 3:52 PM UTC
A bomb I am
ticking slowly
patiently waiting for the timer to go off
When the time is up
I'll splatter loss
all over your walls
with angry colors
Making you wish
You never learned my name
Regretting the time
You opened your doorway to me
Ticking I am
Waiting patiently
And when the time is up
You will learn my true
Angry vibrant colors
And at peace you will be
Will you be?
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 12:26 AM UTC
People like me will love you so hard
That you turn into stone
Don't fall in love with people like me
People like me will kiss you in every beautiful place
So that you never can go back to them
Without tasting us
Like blood in your mouth
Don't come any closer,
People like me are
Bombs!
Don't fall in love with people like me
We will forget our names
if it means learning yours
The pain is a gift
you will get lost
in the desperation
in the longing for something
that is always reaching but
never able to hold
We will never learn how to be soft
Tame me down
and conquer people like me.
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 12:01 AM UTC
Poems aren't stories, but I'll tell you one anyway
This tale isn't a happy one, so be warned if you stay
I met a boy, it was about a year back
I thought he was funny, but it wasn't much more than that
I spent three months chasing a different boy, I thought he was quite the find
Little did I know that the first boy; I was always on his mind
And so came the time where I gave up on boy number two
For a while I kept to myself, I still didn't think about you
Then suddenly one day, I opened my eyes
And after that you stood out from all other guys
I made a brave move, and I dared you to play
You were up for the game, but I didn't know if you'd stay
It only took one move, our romance rolled into action
I'd sneak into your house, we craved that passion
It didn't take long for you to slip that big word
But the word "girlfriend" was the happiest thing I'd ever heard
Now listen here, this may sound silly
But you were my first, and I couldn't help but worry
Come the end August, I knew you'd have to leave
College isn't something we could take on with ease
But you wrote that letter, I believed every promise you said
I believed in them so much, I memorized them in my head
"Don't forget about me, I know I won't forget about you"
You thought I was lying, but I remember that line too
It wasn't easy, but I say we did pretty well
Little did I know we were headed for hell
College is a busy place, school takes up a lot of time
But for your girlfriend, a lot of that time was mine
I'd hear from you less, and you'd apologize when you could
So I'd just smile and forgive you like I knew that I should
I knew what I was getting into, I was prepared for the fights
He thought he was too, but not for the lonely nights
Ill bet you didn't see this next one coming, it's such a plot twist
He texted me one night, this boy that I missed
He texted me, the boy I didn't notice for a very long time
He texted me, the boy who I now labeled as mine
He texted me, the boy I dared to play a game
He texted me, the boy who said he'd always feel the same
He texted me, the boy who I'd sneak out to see
He texted me, the boy whom I loved, with that he'd agree
He texted me to tell me a relationship wasn't going to last
And suddenly, in four text messages you became a thing of the past
He texted me. No, he did not call
And because of that, my world began to fall
But wait it's not over, don't walk away
I've realized something, and it's something I'd like to say
I don't care who reads this, the audience should be unclear
Didn't you notice, I used the word 'you' in places you shouldn't hear
There's only one person who I care about reading this
And I want him to know something, my last opportunity was missed
I do not hate you, but I do hate this one part
It's the only thing I hate, it's straight from the heart
I hate that you couldn't stand up to me, I hate that you couldn't even call
But you know what else, I hate that I still don't hate you
I don't hate you at all
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 11:40 PM UTC