I will not change for you.
I understand, I understand, I understand.
You have never once asked me to.
But what you don't understand is that what you want would require me to change.
It would require me to stifle parts of my soul, of who I am to make it work.
I can't silence these pieces of me any longer.
I'm sorry, but I can't make that sacrifice.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 11:13 AM UTC
the shards of my shattered blood line
piercing into my lungs
tearing it open
letting me bleed my sadness out.
i bleed slowly;
i bleed,
i bleed.
your vibrant persona is too much for me to handle,
it feels choking at times.
but nonetheless i am attracted
like a moth to a flame.
i know it is dangerous,
i know it will only end in my execution,
but i go in anyway
orchestrating my own death.
i plummet into your aura,
i take it in.
and a small part of me believes
that you even had the smallest inch of care for me.
but you don't.
it's someone else it always is.
it's always the 'it's not you it's me' crap;
or the 'i don't feel the same' torture.
nonetheless it breaks me,
and i break in silence.
the saddest part is i thought i had a chance with you.
joker.
what a joke.
it can't happen,
it will never happen.
and that is all there is for me.
there is no yes or inbetween.
it is always no,
a resounding no.
but it's not your fault.
i know i am an ogre,
a monster with two minuscule eyes,
with my pores oozing acid,
and my mouth spewing fire.
my fiery temper restricts all suitors,
i know i cannot be tamed.
maybe that is why.
i am boundless and limitless and that may be intimidating.
but
but i am human,
and every human has that one boundary and
that one
limitation.
that was meant to be you,
meant to be you for me.
but you have someone else,
someone prettier and better.
so be happy, because that's all i want;
but for now,
i bleed slowly;
i bleed,
i bleed.
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 12:03 PM UTC
I love you
Even if it's your blade running me through
I will always care
Even if you throw me to despair
I will always protect you
Even if you wish me not to
Only once could I ever make you cry
But I hope I'm wrong because it will be when I die
I don't want you to shed a tear for me
I want you happy, and forever free
For you I take one last breath
And as my soul is laid to rest
I will always be with you even after death
I'll wipe your tears, your cheeks caressed
I love you, my beauty
Now smile one last time for me
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 12:02 PM UTC
Your kiss tells me to wait,
to never let go,
To hold on to us
to never lose hope.
I feel it in my soul and
know in my heart,
You're my true love from
*from the beginning of time,
its been written in the stars*
May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 7:27 PM UTC
My life I have lived has been
dark
Constantly arguing with myself
whether I am the only one
Who feels as if they are
infinitesimal
Or maybe everyone feels this way
Then I come to the conclusion
No, not everyone feels this way
they can’t
It is a special situation
You have to be a special person
to be in a special situation
Then again, I’m not so special
The world is oblivious to me
I need to find a way
A way out
Then I found a light
A happier life
But I know no matter
How far I go
The darkness will always be
Calling my name
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 3:55 PM UTC
when two hearts come together your world is full of bliss
your heart begins to pound a feeling you cant miss
you will feel excited and full of happiness
very much in love as you both caress
you will feel a glow and so full of pride
you will feel the love as it grows inside
such a lovely feeling as you begin to kiss
that will last for ever and fill your life with bliss
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 5:34 PM UTC
Hello.
Again.
How long has it been?
since you took over my skin?
since you became my sin?
This sickness from within,
I'm sure you want my ending to begin.
Poison in my world,
a perfect place in hell,
inside a golden cell,
a story remains untold.
You want a special farewell
or something for my love to compel?
a destiny for your lies to quell
or a fate only God can foretell?
Do I have news for you..
I still remember how this path began.
A last broken vow, a final failed plan.
Invisibility your surprising shield
as you just concealed and disappeared.
Venom in your words,
a blight hidden inside,
corruption in your cards,
trust always denied.
Goodbye.
Again.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 10:27 PM UTC
I hate your voice so gentle,
And how your eyes look at me.
It's just so awkward,
Seeing you face to face,
Listening to your sweet lyrical voice.
I hate how you smile,
With your most awesome lips.
Now I'm just saying this,
For you to understand,
What I really felt with you.
I'm just really nervous seeing you,
Or it's just my heart, beating so fast,
A sign of being in love with you.
I may not be sending to one person,
But trust me, right now, it's you.
I was inspired by you to create this,
For the special one I ever dreamed of.
My love may come too soon,
Or later than I expected,
But how I wish he's you.
I will start by saying this,
3 words and 8 letters,
I love you.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 10:26 PM UTC
You never know
How truly lonely you are
Until nothing's going right
And you have no one to turn to
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 6:29 PM UTC
the fear of hurting
engulfs the weakest
seeks those
that...can't cope
seem beyond hope
yearn for attention
just one positive note
is desired
a warm hand
to cradle a tear stained face
that looks into honest eyes
will stop the pain
briefly
but just enough to coax a smile.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 6:21 PM UTC