I saw you yesterday
We went on a “date”
It had been a while since we’ve had one of those
But some feelings rose
Nostalgia hit me
We got a late lunch and watched Bohemian Rhapsody
Queen is my favorite band
But nothing else makes my heart skip a beat like when you reached for my hand
I had to keep reminding myself...we’re just friends
Our romantic past came to an end
We’ve started something new - a friendship
But God, do I love those lips
Why is it so hard to keep things as friends with someone you’ve had a romantic past with?
Why can’t things work out the way we want them to and be filled with bliss?
So many thoughts have ran through my mind
How I want him to be mine
The truth is, I’m in love with someone that doesn’t love me back
It hurts like a heart attack
I can’t give him up though
I wish I could know
He used to love me and somehow, it went away
I don’t know what changed
It’s still something that makes me wonder
But it’s something that I shouldn’t ponder
Perhaps, I’ll never know
With time, we’ll see where we go
But in the end,
I hope it’s you that holds my hand
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 12:45 PM UTC
It's been almost 2 weeks since the last time I saw you
When I broke our hearts in two...
Well more so mine
But it was time
4 years on and off
With a love so rough, yet so soft
You didn't know what you wanted from me
A friend, a lover, a girlfriend, an FWB?
We were all of those things
I always stuck around for you...waiting
I wanted you to make me yours and yours only
But you were always mistaking me
You took me for granted
And I was an idiot for thinking that it would end
All of the games and not knowing what we are
But you wouldn't take me serious and now look where we are
We are no longer
I had to end whatever this was and it's only getting harder
Right now, I feel a little lost without you
You were with me with everything I've ever been through
But we're better off apart
We won't break each others hearts
I'll build my empire
And you'll do whatever you desire
I know this isn't goodbye
But we'll find each other again at a different time
When we're happy and when our glasses are full, we'll continue
But as for right now...I'll talk to you when I talk to you
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 10:46 AM UTC