cg-abenis
Filipino
I'm a young Filipina who's engaged to paper and pen when it comes to expressing my emotions. I love writing ever since I was a child, and it always serves as my coping mechanism in times of troubles and stressful moments. However, this is the first time I write poetry 'cause what I usually compose are songs. And obviously, I;m not still very good at writing poetry ( I guess) and I'm looking forward to explore, to learn and to become one of the best poetesses in my generation.
My yesterdays were happiness
Today is pain
Tomorrow I still have heartaches
But next days or months will be the end of my days of rain
Oct 15, 2012
Oct 15, 2012 at 10:23 PM UTC
You smiled at me; so mind blowing
It always ran inside my head;
Each day and night when we're together,
You never failed me; you gave me that smile
again as I expected.
But your phone beeped once, then twice, then thrice
I saw you smiling but a bit different
My heart sank to the ground,
I **** was jealous.
Your smile was a bit different,
More meaningful and cuter,
You never gave that to me,
Yes, you never did.
You never did.
Later I found out, it was from your girlfriend.
Oct 5, 2012
Oct 5, 2012 at 3:11 PM UTC
My heart desired a heart that loves,
a heart that cares more than a lust,
It didn't care of a happy start,
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.
It takes and breaks someone else's dream
It binds the shadows,
It makes you scream,
My heart is wicked, dark and stingy,
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.
It steals, it breaks, it makes you cry
It destroys relationship,
It makes you die
Just to get what it desires
My heart's a filthy, selfish heart.
Oct 5, 2012
Oct 5, 2012 at 2:47 PM UTC
A heart that is fooled,
Is a heart that continues loving in the form of hate.
Oct 4, 2012
Oct 4, 2012 at 3:43 AM UTC
Hypnotized by thine eyes
Under your spell I was lured
Amazed by your tempting voice
And in your arms I felt secured;
You caught my heart with your bait,
You made me beg you to stay
And now that you totally caught your prey
Here I fall down on my knees,
Left behind and broken.
Oct 4, 2012
Oct 4, 2012 at 3:35 AM UTC
Since the day I left you my mind
drifts away each day
and I don't know, I don't understand
'cause my heart and my brain
never stop arguing.
and since the day that I left
your memories always haunt me,
making me remember everything that
we did in every step of our way.
I was too weak and I felt that I'm
no good for you,
I even think I don't deserve to tell you
I love you
'cause with what I did
everyday is a shattered glass
'cause everyday, I know I break your heart.
I wanted to come back to you
but I would be selfish if I do,
'cause I know your not the kind of man
I'm going to marry,
Definitely not you
'cause though I love you,
I don't think that we're meant for each other,
And this is the reason why I left you.
May 8, 2012
May 8, 2012 at 5:49 AM UTC
you've
found
the
right
person,
yet,
he
could
never
be
yours.
May 5, 2012
May 5, 2012 at 3:52 AM UTC
Each day I listen to the
songs in my playlist,
But all I could ever think of is you.
And everytime I eat in my favorite
restaurant, still I'm reminded of you.
Every corner of the street,
even inside my house and in my room,
still memories of you remain.
I've no escape.
Your memory haunts me.
And everyday is like a hell...
I now realized,
I can't really live without you!
Apr 26, 2012
Apr 26, 2012 at 8:41 PM UTC
I tried to stay and be happy with you
Give back the love and kindness you gave to me,
And give you the happiness you deserve,
But I'm sorry, my heart is now the one talking,
It says I have to let you go.
I don't hate you,
I even appreciate your efforts just to make me stay
And the more I didn't want to hurt you,
'cause you'd be half dead,
I know you will.
I witnessed how you surpassed the challenges,
Just to make others think that they're wrong with
what they think about you,
Everyday you proved to me how much
important I am to you,
But now, my heart says
I've got to let you go.
Apr 25, 2012
Apr 25, 2012 at 1:00 PM UTC
It just happened,
this admiration intensified,
feelings gets me dissatisfied,
'cause in my mind,
it's always you.
I throw a joke everytime I see you,
And tell you how much I like you
and would want to kiss you,
but since we're friends,
saying it seriously would be awkward.
But this feeling, it makes me choke
as days pass by,
'cause the feelings that need
to be voiced out
Almost filled my throat.
Yes, you're my boyfriend in facebook,
Yet, in reality, you're not.
We held hands, slept and ate together
for a month and a week
when we're in another city,
But you're not serious with it.
It all started in a joke,
But to me, it felt real
and would always remain
real in my heart.
You're like a medicine,
You got me addicted to you,
A medicine that I wouldn't wish to stop,
Though I know I already got overdosed.
But I'll taper myself down,
To not to suffer from withdrawal,
I might forget you then,
I still don't want it to happen.
Apr 11, 2012
Apr 11, 2012 at 5:03 PM UTC