it's funny
how i build these walls around my heart:
strong, resistant, resilient;
they protect it from the sharp edges of slipped words from your tongue,
they shield my heart from the harshness of spitfire.
and yet
they. always. break
even after how many times i rebuild these tall walls,
even after adding multitudes of obsidian,
it always breaks under your words
and i'm growing tired
the once overflowing energy in my veins are slowly diminishing,
the nerves building this wall around my heart are slowly losing their light
and there will come a day
where i don't have the energy to rebuild these defenses,
where my heart will lay beating but vulnerable
and there will be a day where your words hit just the right spot,
and then there i will be,
slowly bleeding out, color draining from me as i find it harder and harder to get up
but today will not be that day,
i will continue to build these defenses,
only letting those worthy to enter,
my heart will still beat and it will beat strong
today, your words will simply bounce off these obsidian walls and fall to their demise
Sep 17, 2020
Sep 17, 2020 at 9:22 AM UTC
i want to be the moon,
the shining light
on your darkest nights
i want to be the moon
and yet i envy her
for she is noticed
without even a whisper
i want to be the moon
the one you look at every night
before you sleep tight
i want to be the moon
for you give her
your undivided attention
i just want to be the moon,
the one that comforts you,
is there for you,
the one that tells you it’s all gonna be okay
but the moon disappears in the day,
hides and lets another take her place,
and maybe
i don’t have to
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 8:21 AM UTC
folie à duex
means madness for two
and in a way, that’s what we are
two fools who share the same madness
folie à duex
i think i was the one who went mad first
the one who fell, the one who fell fast and hard
or maybe it was you, you were the one who pushed me
folie à duex
we were climbing a hill
i was there behind you, then you pushed me
yep, you were the one who went mad first
folie à deux
i fell
but you still caught me
even if you were the one who pushed me
maybe i’m wrong
folie à deux
whoever went mad first doesn’t matter
we are both fools
two fools
sharing the same madness
Jan 14, 2020
Jan 14, 2020 at 9:15 AM UTC
The night was young as you danced along
Color on color, drink on drink
skin on skin
The club’s crowded room faded,
all my eyes saw were yours,
brown and alluring
I took a shot of liquid courage and sped my way
/
Everyone gathered in my room as you stayed in yours
Garment on garment, brush on brush
ring on ring
The people on the pews faded,
all my eyes saw were yours,
brown and teary
I gulped my shot of liquid courage and strolled my way
/
The room as empty as you laid down
Tissue on tissue, tear on tear
flower on flower
Nothing faded but still,
all my eyes saw were yours,
brown and closed
I took my last shot of liquid courage and walked my way
Jan 14, 2020
Jan 14, 2020 at 3:08 AM UTC
We met each other
under the moonlight,
in the city of love and wonder,
we met in Paris
In your hands held a camera,
lens pointed to the sky
finger near the shutter,
as strangers passed by
I held my own
leading the viewfinder to my eye
as the Eiffel Tower was shown,
one click later and you were by my side
We met each other
under the moonlight,
in the city wherein I call you my lover,
we met in Paris
Jan 10, 2020
Jan 10, 2020 at 1:17 PM UTC
love is dangerous
it is painful, cruel
but that’s because love is strong
it is powerful, robust
love can make you cry
make you feel the the most pain you’ve ever felt
but love can make you happy
make you smile as big as the universe
but is that enough to make you hold onto love?
or is the pain just too much to bear?
Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 4:37 AM UTC
paint me the colors of the rainbow
cover all my dullness,
all my grayness
make me a mask of colors
make it happy
no sight of sadness should be there
make my clothes gleam and glow
to shine away all my flaws
as it is expected that my body will be perfect
make my shoes shine bright red
like those of dorothy's
to hide the red blisters they are causing
paint me the colors of the rainbow,
make me shine bright
to mask all the pain
Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018 at 12:05 PM UTC
it hurts
everything hurts
my head,
my heart
my eyes are blood shot,
every night was spent
crying over you,
yet you didn't notice
how could you do that?
leave me like a pile of dirt,
not notice me trying so hard
to get your **** attention
maybe i should just
give up,
find someone new,
someone better
but how can i?
when i'm around you,
my heart beats faster
and butterflies appear
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 9:55 PM UTC
(17) just you and me,
sitting in the middle of the park
laughing, talking;
star gazing
(21) just you and me,
sitting across each other
milkshake in the middle,
its taste is simply amazing
(24) just you and me,
with fancy suits and fancy dresses
me, kneeling down on one knee;
your smile is breathtaking
(26) just you and me,
you walking down the aisle
me waiting for you at the other side;
our love is everlasting
(29) just you and me,
you with your big belly
and me with our daughter;
she was dancing
(57) just you and me,
our son in his house,
our grandchild in your arms;
to you, she is glancing
(80) just me,
you are resting,
i will soon too,
we are advancing
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 12:20 PM UTC
i bury flowers,
colorful ones
and dull ones,
they all represent something.
i bury one,
for the words
left unsaid
by my mouth.
i bury another,
as a tear rolls down,
for the actions
that i regret.
i bury the last one,
as an ode to a memory
that served me well
in my worst times.
i bury flowers,
the last flower will be buried
when i'm six feet
under the ground.
Apr 9, 2018
Apr 9, 2018 at 8:52 AM UTC