when you tell yourself you deserve what you're getting can u call it settling what if the happiness you truly deserve are the ones that doesn't knock in front of your doorstep and tell you to accept it maybe it is the one you need to find when you're about to give up on everything else then you thought of the reason why some things still matter to you maybe happiness is the echo of your cries at 3 am hoping to forget and start again the only thing that stops you from seeing the light is your eyes who doesnt want to shed a tear i saw myself in the mirror and thought of how many times people left me and the bitter taste of the coffee that stained my shirt i remember seeing everyone try to smile when the only thing that's good is the word nothing i hope someday someone would pay attention someone would dare to tell me im lost i am drowning when i am supposed to enjoy the sand in my feet i do not want to merely sit in front of the television just to tell people the scenario of the old films flashing in front of my eyes i dont want to tell myself im happy when the only thing i care about is how people intertwine their hands with a stranger
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 5:48 PM UTC
you said you'll never do
the thing that frightened me the most
but in the end
you did it anyway - you left me hanging
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 8:52 PM UTC
best friends can break your heart too and just as a lover might you are going to cry.
constricted chest, you are going to walk swiftly past her like she was never the one who sat in the car next to you as you cried into your knees.
you left a sweatshirt at her house and she borrowed your favorite book.
these are things you arent going to ask to have back because maybe she'll ask for you back.
you have matching names on tumblr and both of you are waiting for the other to change it to something else.
remember when you walked home with her and you picked flowers and laced them through each others hair,
remember how you two were always changing but always at the same time,
remember how she was the only one who knew how to handle your emotions.
she is gone now, and youre not exactly sure why.
maybe she needs space.
maybe you have been replaced.
maybe you became too much,
maybe she changed but this time you didnt,
maybe it was just time to let go.
either way your heart is broken and there is no one there to sit next to you in the car as you cry into your knees.
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 7:18 PM UTC
In a garden of bleeding roses
An unimaginable number of unforgotten bruises
With all the broken promises
What shall I believe in all these voices?
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 2:44 AM UTC
They'll give you rainbows
That hold every hue
They'll give you greys and blues
From every bruise they can show
They'll give you a part
Of their dreams
They'll hand you a heart
That's tearing at the seams
They'll ask if you heard
The notes in their song
They'll ask if it's wrong
To share a world instead of a word
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 9:50 PM UTC
I met you through circumstances
I've never imagined
To fall in love with you.
I first noticed your ****** eyes
Then your high husky voice
That I didn't forget.
It's not love at first sight
That I'm sure of
It's unexpected love.
You added me in Facebook
I chatted you and you replied
Gave your number and said goodbye.
At night we texted
At dawn we called
At sleep we smiled.
The love grew
Burning like a fire
So sudden it sparks.
I did everything
Just for you
I didn't regret.
To lay my trust and love
To make my dreams with you
That gives me reason to linger.
But in the end
Our love is
Unfortunate.
It arrives at the wrong time
It breaks friendship
It bends trusts.
To leave me
To not choose me
To think I'm not the right one.
Was it better for
Our love
Not to exist at all.
Than to feel feelings
Of despair, of misery
And of disappointment.
To end things up
So bitter was how I feel
So wasted were those times.
Cause it's not the feelings that hurt
Not the time that were misused
But the expectations that were not realized.
Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 9:32 PM UTC
i was wondering when you'd come
your small ****** eyes
your lean body
and your adorable smile
i thought of you day and night
and when i thought i saw a future for the both of us
i suddenly remember that we were
two worlds
apart
that you lived in a far away land
and for me to be your rapunzel
with my long black hair
seems impossible
are we confined to seeing each other during your lessons
at my uncle's?
i thought at first we may have something
a spark
a moment
a memory
a chapter
but i don't want to ruin something
because of young foolishness
maybe when we're older
and if we're meant to be
you and i
can meet together
smile
and travel
just be free
Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 9:31 PM UTC
Tell me not that time does heal,
it's all a fallacy;
it cannot heal the wound,
that You have left for me.
It cannot mend the heart,
that day that you did die;
all I have are questions,
they seem to end in WHY?
All I have are memories,
of a pain that never ends;
that tears the soul inside,
with the sorrow that it sends.
With weary thoughts of gloom,
that do not pass away;
the hurt resounds forever,
I feel it still...today.
Tell me not that time does heal,
you'd be lying if you did;
time, it has not gone away,
it's only now been hid.
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:36 PM UTC
Now I'm stuck forever
With these regrets
Hoping that
Maybe one day
We can bring back
The way we used to be
No matter how hard it is
And impossible it can be
I'll never stop
Trying and reaching out
Until I
Bring you back
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 9:11 PM UTC