Safe inside, I see the landscaper
Planting life, while yours is fading
Lavender, my mother’s gift,
Near the tree he wanted
To dig up and unearth
Innocent sapling
Snug in the soil
Let it take
Root and
Live
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 4:56 PM UTC
I’m told there is no hope
and left this wretched affliction.
To carry you with dread and
Wait for your day of suffering,
To choose your final moment
And design your demise.
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 4:42 PM UTC
I awaken expecting the familiar dread
But instead I feel you wriggling in my belly
You guide me back to reality;
My heavy limbs resting on the sheets
The morning sun streaming in the window
No worry or fear; no decision to be made
Just the sun’s rays warming my body
And you gently moving,
Leaving this message of clarity and hope.
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 4:34 PM UTC
Everything is packed away
As though you never existed
But my body knows otherwise
My empty, aching arms
A heavy throbbing at my breast
And in the shower I cry sweet, white tears
That were made especially for you
A visceral and final connection
That dries up a week later
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 4:26 PM UTC
Hello little one, wriggling on the screen
Goodbye to your future, and our dreams
Hello sleepless nights, afflicted by our choice,
Goodbye to pregnancy as a time of joy
Hello to the beauty of my other two
Goodbye to worry over jammy fingers and muddy shoes
Hello to this still moment, this calm, this sublime
Goodbye to counting down the next landmark in time
Hello my silent baby curled up in my arms
Goodbye my little boy, you’re now safe from harm
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 3:51 PM UTC
Long arms droop protecting
Little dominoes with
Rows of names and windmills
And in amongst the toys
Where Autumn tears are strewn
A Magpie crunches through
Eyes up these precious jewels
But offers a mantra:
“One for sorrow, two for joy
Three for this girl and four
For you my baby boy.”
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 2:33 PM UTC
Is it a boy or a girl?
Fixated on the screen with
Expectant joy
Our bundle of dreams is met with
A deafening silence.
Bewilderment, and then
A dreadful reality of
Panic and muffled screams.
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 3:02 PM UTC