carissad2 - Hello Poetry

It was in the darkness, I found the way to light. A cigarette in my mouth, staring into the night. I called out in a deeper silence, but there was no one to hear. Embracing my only company, I held my demons near. They kissed my scars because they were the ones to blame. They called me by my lies, they called me by my name. They told me they would protect me from all my doubts and flaws. Turns out my darkest demons were not darkness at all. It was in the darkness I found the way to light. It was in the darkness I found that darkness is needed to fight.

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Oct 15, 2015

Oct 15, 2015 at 1:18 AM UTC

Embrace.

It was in the darkness, I found the way to light. A cigarette in my mouth, staring into the night. I called out in a deeper silence, but there was no one to hear. Embracing my only company, I held my demons near. They kissed my scars because they were the ones to blame. They called me by my lies, they called me by my name. They told me they would protect me from all my doubts and flaws. Turns out my darkest demons were not darkness at all. It was in the darkness I found the way to light. It was in the darkness I found that darkness is needed to fight.

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I've been smoking cigarettes. Hoping to fill the void. Completely numb. Completely obliterated. I've been crying. Tears like stones. Tears like acid. I've been breathing slowly. Inhales like sleep. Inhales like knives. I've been existing. Life like pain. Life like death.

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Sep 30, 2015

Sep 30, 2015 at 9:24 PM UTC

psych

I've been smoking cigarettes. Hoping to fill the void. Completely numb. Completely obliterated. I've been crying. Tears like stones. Tears like acid. I've been breathing slowly. Inhales like sleep. Inhales like knives. I've been existing. Life like pain. Life like death.

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Turns out all my fragile hope was broken from the start. All just a cruel pathway to a shattered heart. Again I wasn't good enough to feel the clutch of love. Again and again I find I'm never good enough. So end it now, everything. Let the pain and hate collide. End it now and forevermore, I am dead inside.

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Sep 25, 2015

Sep 25, 2015 at 1:01 AM UTC

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Turns out all my fragile hope was broken from the start. All just a cruel pathway to a shattered heart. Again I wasn't good enough to feel the clutch of love. Again and again I find I'm never good enough. So end it now, everything. Let the pain and hate collide. End it now and forevermore, I am dead inside.

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I'm standing in the cold. Too young, too old. Never enough, never never. Never enough to deserve forever. All the time I've spent trying I thought this was life but I feel like dying.

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Sep 15, 2015

Sep 15, 2015 at 3:34 PM UTC

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I'm standing in the cold. Too young, too old. Never enough, never never. Never enough to deserve forever. All the time I've spent trying I thought this was life but I feel like dying.

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And in the end, everything she expected swallowed her at once. All of her nightmares came to her in her sleep and held her down til she stopped breathing. At least she didn't have to wonder anymore.

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Sep 15, 2015

Sep 15, 2015 at 3:32 PM UTC

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And in the end, everything she expected swallowed her at once. All of her nightmares came to her in her sleep and held her down til she stopped breathing. At least she didn't have to wonder anymore.

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I never wanted to make you feel the way my heart was breaking. I never meant for you to see the constant, steady aching. I thought I was doing good at showing you my smile. But I guess you can see the falsities that I've been hiding for a while. Bless the sunshine in your soul, bless your wounded heart. You're anything but usual, you're a walking work of art. I'd hold you high up to the stars for all the world to see. And hope that they could appreciate you just as much as me.

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Sep 14, 2015

Sep 14, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC

A.

I never wanted to make you feel the way my heart was breaking. I never meant for you to see the constant, steady aching. I thought I was doing good at showing you my smile. But I guess you can see the falsities that I've been hiding for a while. Bless the sunshine in your soul, bless your wounded heart. You're anything but usual, you're a walking work of art. I'd hold you high up to the stars for all the world to see. And hope that they could appreciate you just as much as me.

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I'm sick with fear, regret, and hope. I can't focus, I can't fall, I can't fathom. He's too much but I know nothing. He knows nothing and we are nothing. I've no right to feel a thing for him. Jealousy. Devotion. Anger. Love. Because he is not mine and I Am Nothing He is indescribable. A gift to earth. A wrinkled nose and a beautiful laugh A scarred hand and a blistered past. He is a miracle. The most beautiful **** miracle.

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Sep 2, 2015

Sep 2, 2015 at 3:01 AM UTC

Porter.

I'm sick with fear, regret, and hope. I can't focus, I can't fall, I can't fathom. He's too much but I know nothing. He knows nothing and we are nothing. I've no right to feel a thing for him. Jealousy. Devotion. Anger. Love. Because he is not mine and I Am Nothing He is indescribable. A gift to earth. A wrinkled nose and a beautiful laugh A scarred hand and a blistered past. He is a miracle. The most beautiful **** miracle.

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I am fire, but he is the sun. I am afraid that he is the one. Burning so slowly, dying so fast. I am afraid that I won't last. Hold me tightly, love me strong. For I am afraid we won't have long. I am afraid, I am afraid. We are nothing because I am afraid.

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Sep 2, 2015

Sep 2, 2015 at 2:50 AM UTC

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I am fire, but he is the sun. I am afraid that he is the one. Burning so slowly, dying so fast. I am afraid that I won't last. Hold me tightly, love me strong. For I am afraid we won't have long. I am afraid, I am afraid. We are nothing because I am afraid.

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Take away those soft grey eyes, take away the pain. Take away the gentle curls, take away the rain. Take all I'm breathing for, take it all and run. Take all my possessions, take the loaded gun. Take away this hopeless life, take away my dreams. Take away the sinking ship, take away the screams. Take away the beauty, take away the hope. Take away the emptiness, take away the rope. Give me back my sanity, I really haven't slept. Give me peace, or a sharpened blade, I've got nothing left.

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Sep 2, 2015

Sep 2, 2015 at 2:25 AM UTC

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Take away those soft grey eyes, take away the pain. Take away the gentle curls, take away the rain. Take all I'm breathing for, take it all and run. Take all my possessions, take the loaded gun. Take away this hopeless life, take away my dreams. Take away the sinking ship, take away the screams. Take away the beauty, take away the hope. Take away the emptiness, take away the rope. Give me back my sanity, I really haven't slept. Give me peace, or a sharpened blade, I've got nothing left.

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I wanted it to be you so badly. I wanted it to be you. I wanted to touch your face Feel your skin Dry your tears. I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly it hurt. A slow ache that consumed me That drowned me That swallowed me whole. I saw your smile Made for her Shown to me. That smile that lit my world That caused the flame The flame that burned my soul Burned my soul so badly it will take eternity to heal. And even when I can stand to see the sun again, I will still want it to be you. Only you.

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Sep 2, 2015

Sep 2, 2015 at 2:17 AM UTC

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I wanted it to be you so badly. I wanted it to be you. I wanted to touch your face Feel your skin Dry your tears. I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly it hurt. A slow ache that consumed me That drowned me That swallowed me whole. I saw your smile Made for her Shown to me. That smile that lit my world That caused the flame The flame that burned my soul Burned my soul so badly it will take eternity to heal. And even when I can stand to see the sun again, I will still want it to be you. Only you.

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