Fifteen
Is the first slap in the face and the last "I love you"
Is the reason for 3 years of therapy and 5 different psychiatrists
Is the bruised eyes and the cut up arms
Is what all my nightmares are about
Is why I spent the past 5 years planning ways to **** myself
Is the reason it takes two pills and a shot of ***** to leave my house
Is the "no one else is to blame but you"
Fifteen is the age I lost my innocence.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 11:43 PM UTC
you know there are other girls right?
ones with softer skin,
and bluer eyes,
girls without scars on their hips,
and girls without a damaged soul.
there are girls who could love you more
girls who could love you better.
girls who actually know how to love.
i dont even know how to love myself,
and you expect me to be able to love you.
why would you choose me
when there are better girls for you?
Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 9:36 PM UTC
It's nearing 1am
And like clockwork
I begin missing
The sound of your voice
The sparkle in your eyes
The way your hair
Just always fell into place
I miss the way you held me
I remember our last kiss
It was dark and we watched
The stars shinning and you
Leaned in and kissed me
Goodbye and walked away from us
It's 1am and 6 months later
The pain isn't any easier
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 12:45 AM UTC
you wrote me a love letter
in black and blue bruises
down my arms and across
my chest and on my heart.
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 11:00 PM UTC
its only been 6 days
and this place isnt quite home
without you here anymore
dad stays up all night crying
mom wakes up screaming
this place died when you did
i think im going to come see you
will you wait by the door?
Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
it's the pain in the gut of my stomach
like maybe i should say something
but i'm better off if i stay quiet.
it's the burning sensation in my throat
like i'm about to choke up and i need
to swallow before the tears come.
it's the way my hands lose grip
because i get so nervous around people
and i constantly need to wipe them.
it's the fear of going out with friends
because they're probably not laughing
at me but they probably are.
Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 9:29 PM UTC
it's been 6 months
and i still remember
the exact shade of blue
that your eyes shined.
its been 6 months
so tell me how do i remember
the sound of your voice
the night you said good bye
its been 6 months
and im still as sorry now
as i was back then
but it's way too late
Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 9:17 PM UTC
slam poetry as in the way
you slammed me to the ground
and wrestled with me
just to get off my pants
slam poetry as in the way
you slammed into me
and told me i would enjoy it more
if i stopped yelling for help
slam poetry as in the way
you ripped away my innocence
and left me there with nothing
but a new unconscious need for
male approval
Dec 1, 2013
Dec 1, 2013 at 3:52 PM UTC
i miss your morning texts
or the silly messages id get
in the middle of the day
i miss falling asleep texting you
and waking up to a text
saying *you lose,
you fell asleep first*
remember how we kept score?
i guess i really did lose.
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 9:54 PM UTC
i came to you with my problems
you told me to shut up
and im a little wolf crier
i was drenched in blood
all i needed was help
instead you called me
and yelled at me to grow up
you said i was just pretending
"some people have real problems"
so i cut a little deeper
my problems arent real
so i took another pill
i shouldnt be here
Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 3:36 PM UTC