i deserve the pain they cause me
i deserve to be harassed
i deserve to be hated
i deserve all of this
at least that what they tell me
Jan 18, 2014
Jan 18, 2014 at 10:18 PM UTC
they said it was a phase
that these feelings would fade
and i would be normal
one day they said
you'll settle down
and be happy
but loving a girl
its just a phase
i hope they are right
-c.a
Jan 15, 2014
Jan 15, 2014 at 9:58 PM UTC
love is like a poison
it courses through your veins
creates a daze that only a kiss can evaporate
the weakness in your knees makes you crumble
hoping they will catch you
as you fall in love with their smile
but when they leave
the poison reaches your heart
and it begins to slow
you seem to die inside
and eventually it leaves your system
you regain your strength
smile again
and laugh
the poison is gone
-c.a
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 12:46 PM UTC
i am a fish
swimming blindly through life
constantly drowning
but air is not an option
its cold
lonely
no voice to scream out
help is non existent
so i keep struggling
hoping one day
i will reach land
-c.a
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 10:19 AM UTC
the haze that covers my eyes
like a blindfold of nightmares
follows me through the day
keeping me from living
and inviting death
-c.a
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 10:03 AM UTC
my stomach is like the rope
knotted and filled with secrets
that i will take to the grave
my pain is too strong
and the strength of the rope is the only means of release
i cry as i slip it around my neck
thinking of those who i leave behind
it doesnt matter
the rope will make me forget
i stumble
fall
blackout
-c.a
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 9:55 AM UTC
the fact that you know so much about me
but could tear me down without a second thought
the fact that even though i trust you with my life
you might drop me if i fall
and my heart is already in shambles
but you are slowly
carefully
sewing it back together
because one day i will love
without fear
and my heart won't ache when i think about you
i wont be scared anymore
-c.a
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 9:50 AM UTC
i was supposed to grow up to be happy
what happened
-c.a
Jan 13, 2014
Jan 13, 2014 at 11:41 PM UTC
my nightmares come
in the shape of innocence lost
-c.a
Jan 13, 2014
Jan 13, 2014 at 11:40 PM UTC
these cotton sheets keep me warm at night
but the memory of you still sends shivers down my spine
-c.a
Jan 13, 2014
Jan 13, 2014 at 11:40 PM UTC