We only dated for two months
I think we moved too fast
You had finally convinced me
This was something that would last
I walked into it cautiously
Wary of the signs
You made it seem like you were certain
That you wanted to be mine
I broke down all the guards
That kept me from seeing you
I tore down some defenses
At the chance of something new
You weren’t what I expected
But I was willing to give it a try
Now all I feel is tricked by you
When you said that short goodbye.
I don’t know how we got here
This maze of deceit
I thought you were leading me
Somewhere really sweet
But you shot up your defenses
Just as I let mine down
You said never mind
You turned right around
Now I’m left to grieve someone
I never really knew
But lets just say that answered prayer
Turned me away from you
Nov 4, 2025
Nov 4, 2025 at 3:35 PM UTC
I cry
For fake characters in movies
I dream
Things that could never come true
I lie
To myself
I walk
To places only on the map of my mind
I jump
Into an invisible hole
And I miss
Things and people, when they're alive
Nov 28, 2024
Nov 28, 2024 at 6:03 PM UTC
Life feels like nothing
Colors are muted
I no longer see in solely black and white
I broke through that level of sorrow
But the saturation lately has been fading and in its place leaves a larger gaping hole than the wonder I once held in what life has to offer outside of black and white
I feel anger
But then it quickly dissipates
And left in its place is a plateau of apathy
I have no desire for connection like I used to
Not with humans
Animals
Nor earth and her plants
I feel the soft familiar tug at my feet every now and then
She is ever so kind to me
Always reminding me of the great mystery I originate from
And one day
Will be recycled back into
I believe life will get better
It must, right?
Nov 28, 2024
Nov 28, 2024 at 6:01 PM UTC
☾
Yesterday I cried to the moon
as she wiped my tears away
made my worries disappear
so I could sleep again.
☼
Today I smile at the sun
and it shines back on me,
what a wonderful world
to be alive;
to be me.
Apr 12, 2021
Apr 12, 2021 at 10:49 PM UTC
I've looked bad but felt good
I've looked good but felt bad
I've looked bad and felt bad
I've looked good and felt good
I've failed so many times I can't count
I've learned so much I can't find individual moments
I have gradually increased
But I am finding myself
I am finding the confidence to strut out of my dorms like I'm walking on the runway
I have found myself so sad my body has become immobile
I am growing stronger
Physically. Mentally. Spiritually.
I am finding God in the most random moments, but when I do it is glorious
I find myself alone too often
I find myself feeling alone too often
I find myself hiding too often
I'm ready to let my potential loose
And become the lion I am meant to be
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 1:20 PM UTC
Take me to Charlie’s Pasture
Where the grass is green and grows
Far beyond the concrete town
And the ocean stays so close
Take me to Charlie’s Pasture
Where the sun sets on the waves
Chopping and swaying with the wind
Beneath her golden rays
Take me to Charlie’s Pasture
Right around 6 o’clock
I can show you the old gazebo
And find you skipping rocks
I’m always searching for a place
where I can feel so free
And the spots I feel at my best
Are always by the sea
So drive me down that gravel road
If you really want to know
My heaven, my soul, my sweet escape
To Charlie’s Pasture, let us go
Aug 7, 2020
Aug 7, 2020 at 12:47 AM UTC
My hands begin to shake
as my thoughts run rampant
To all of the possibilities of what we could have been
Nobody had told me how much it would hurt
When my trip ended early
When all of the anticipation that came with knowing the destination
Was killed by distance
The waves would have flirted with our feet as we sunk our toes into the sand
Our pinkies intertwined and our smiles wide beneath the sun
I could almost taste that trip to Charleston
That I knew we would never really go on
Instead of the distance taking us there together
It grew between us
And that was the first time I fell apart
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 6:13 PM UTC
Have I moved on?
I never can tell
One second is bliss
the next one is hell
**** this I can’t write a poem that rhymes
I have homework to do
I am wasting my time
I don’t know if I will ever figure it out
if what we had was real, without a single doubt.
I bet if you saw me you’d turn in disgust
all I did was break your trust
I blame myself for everything wrong
Why can’t I figure it out
it’s been so ******* long
I wonder if you hate me. I wish I could know
and why does it hurt when I imagine you
letting me go
May 9, 2019
May 9, 2019 at 12:56 PM UTC