my mind is rarely ever quiet
there's always a song repeating itself
a conversation replaying itself
an anxious thought reintroducing itself
but when it is quiet,
all i think about is you.
its like my mind knows that im trying to distract myself from the pain
and only comes to remind me when i have nowhere else to hide
even when i try to outrun the hurt of letting you go,
you catch up to me and invade my mind with our overwhelmingly bittersweet memories.
i drift back into the past and i reach out to you,
asking for another kiss
another dance
another "i love you"
im holding onto a version of you that im no longer familiar with
because with every passing day,
you become more and more of a stranger that ill always be in love with.
everything happened so quickly..
and now i have to remember you longer than ive known you.
Oct 17, 2021
Oct 17, 2021 at 2:47 AM UTC
i cant take you out of my brain, just when i thought i had forgotten all about us, all the memories came flooding down on me. doesnt matter if i try to block you out or find someone new, there will always be a piece of you in me.
Aug 23, 2020
Aug 23, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
lets get drunk with the intention of dancing, kissing, and laughing with eachother. then when everyone asks what happened, we'll blame it on the drinks and never tell the truth about how we really feel
May 31, 2020
May 31, 2020 at 11:32 PM UTC
i actually loved you, i fell in love with how fragile you were, how easy it was to access your love and care. i got to know you better, you became my go to, the person that i depended and i loved feeling how much you needed me back. you were like a lover i never had before, someone that matched my vibe even though we were nothing alike at all. i made us work out, ruining everything and everyone involved in this mess including myself, knowing that i only wanted you temporarily. i tried to save myself by drowning in a sea of lesbianism. you made everything seem like it was ok because you were the one to blame, i was never the problem. i lied, manipulated, and shattered you just as much as you did to me. we left eachother with so many questions and open wounds, i still have dreams where i reach out to you and we lay everything down on the table and be completely honest. but dreams aren't reality, maybe one day i'll understand that this was never love, just mutual ****** desires.
Apr 9, 2020
Apr 9, 2020 at 2:59 AM UTC
i'm tirelessly in love with someone i barely know,
how much more torturing can it get
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 1:23 AM UTC
my feelings are too complex to be expressed
& even when i make them simple
they're still complicated and overstressed
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 1:22 AM UTC
i dream about us every now and then
& picture how it could’ve been
if we worked out together, not just as friends
but that's a dream & all dreams end
i've always wanted you from the start
i could care less if you broke my heart
cause truly, wow, you’re a piece of art
but i’d rather have you whole then part
tell me how you really feel
if you think its small, then what's the big deal
i need you to be authentic & real
just give me your heart & i’ll take the wheel
i thought we’d be perfect, but that was a lie
you could never express what you felt inside
i'm still here, talking to you tonight
but pls tell me how you feel before these feelings shiver & die
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 1:04 PM UTC
you are a piece of art
just because we didn’t work out
doesn’t mean that there still isn’t something there
you are amazing
you are talented
you are beautiful
you are you
and that's all I need to be stuck on you
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 4:23 PM UTC
can we chill
I want to be able to come over and talk about our lives
can it not be awkward
what if I kiss you
can you not think much of it
if someone else flirts with me or you
should we be triggered or unbothered
what if I’m having a horrible day and I just want to cry and devour my feelings with food
will you please not think I’m dramatic or sensitive
how about when I want to rant or complain about something
will you not judge me
I’m fine with being just friends
are you?
-2:10am 3/12/18
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 3:17 PM UTC
I laugh now cause of how absolutely ridiculous I am
I used to say I can’t live without you
but I was able to before I met you and I'm still living without you now
it's crazy how we say such things when we think we’ve found the one
they say it hurts so much to lose someone
but I’ve gotten over that stage
I can live with or without you
you don’t phase me and I find that amazing
a work of art
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC