my mind is rarely ever quiet
there's always a song repeating itself
a conversation replaying itself
an anxious thought reintroducing itself
but when it is quiet,
all i think about is you.
its like my mind knows that im trying to distract myself from the pain
and only comes to remind me when i have nowhere else to hide
even when i try to outrun the hurt of letting you go,
you catch up to me and invade my mind with our overwhelmingly bittersweet memories.
i drift back into the past and i reach out to you,
asking for another kiss
another dance
another "i love you"
im holding onto a version of you that im no longer familiar with
because with every passing day,
you become more and more of a stranger that ill always be in love with.
everything happened so quickly..
and now i have to remember you longer than ive known you.
Oct 17, 2021
Oct 17, 2021 at 2:47 AM UTC
My entire life,
I have been waiting.
For years,
Almost two decades now
I have been waiting.
Waiting,
For the better parts.
Waiting,
For the “soon”.
Waiting,
For my life to begin.
Because,
I don’t feel like I have lived.
In the nearly twenty years
I have been alive
And breathing
I do not feel
In any of those years
That I have been alive.
I don’t feel like a single breath
That I have taken
Has been real.
I feel as if
All these years
I’ve been stuck
Behind a window
Watching as my life unfolds
Before me.
I feel that
I have had
Zero control.
That I am in the backseat
Letting someone else drive.
That someone else,
Is writing on the pages
Of MY life.
But no more.
I will break that window,
I will take that wheel,
And I will write
My own pages.
My life has begun,
And now -
I’m in control.
Apr 10, 2021
Apr 10, 2021 at 1:00 AM UTC
the moment a poet
falls in love with you
is the moment
you live
f o r e v e r
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 10:36 PM UTC
When we met for the first time
I never knew you will become so special.
I never knew days of life can be crafted so beautifully with love n smiles.
I never knew I can be so happy.
I never knew I can be so patient.
I never knew I can be so caring.
I never knew I could love unconditionally.
When we met,
I never knew I can be so blessed.
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 12:38 PM UTC
i cant take you out of my brain, just when i thought i had forgotten all about us, all the memories came flooding down on me. doesnt matter if i try to block you out or find someone new, there will always be a piece of you in me.
Aug 23, 2020
Aug 23, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
lets get drunk with the intention of dancing, kissing, and laughing with eachother. then when everyone asks what happened, we'll blame it on the drinks and never tell the truth about how we really feel
May 31, 2020
May 31, 2020 at 11:32 PM UTC
i actually loved you, i fell in love with how fragile you were, how easy it was to access your love and care. i got to know you better, you became my go to, the person that i depended and i loved feeling how much you needed me back. you were like a lover i never had before, someone that matched my vibe even though we were nothing alike at all. i made us work out, ruining everything and everyone involved in this mess including myself, knowing that i only wanted you temporarily. i tried to save myself by drowning in a sea of lesbianism. you made everything seem like it was ok because you were the one to blame, i was never the problem. i lied, manipulated, and shattered you just as much as you did to me. we left eachother with so many questions and open wounds, i still have dreams where i reach out to you and we lay everything down on the table and be completely honest. but dreams aren't reality, maybe one day i'll understand that this was never love, just mutual ****** desires.
Apr 9, 2020
Apr 9, 2020 at 2:59 AM UTC
not sure if you quite know
how much you mean to me
maybe you don't
and you're oblivious to
the hurricane you cause
in my brain
is that why we are
so far apart?
or maybe you do
perhaps you've seen
this hurricane
the strange brew of emotions
that only appear for you
and it scared you away
no matter the requital
(or lack thereof)
you're still the water
that fuels my wind
my love for you is this hurricane
and i've always loved the thrill
Oct 9, 2019
Oct 9, 2019 at 12:10 PM UTC
Below the starry sky,
Under the shade of the mango tree,
He said to her "I'm never giving up on you."
That's when they realised,
That they were meant to be.
Oct 9, 2019
Oct 9, 2019 at 12:10 PM UTC
i'm tirelessly in love with someone i barely know,
how much more torturing can it get
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 1:23 AM UTC