I know I shouldn't think about you
But i am.
Thoughts of kissing your face
And holding your hand
I'm at the spot
where we first met
And no I haven't
forgotten yet
How it feels
to hold you close and
What part of me
You like the most and
Your presence
Haunts my dreams and
It's never
As good as it seems yet
Something about you
Keeps me here.
Thinking of you and
Wanting you near.
You never said
A proper good bye
And all those feelings
Were not a lie but
I don't know
where we stand so I
Play it cool and
Just pretend that
You are not
On my mind and
I know I shouldn't
Think about you.
All the time but...
I am.
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC
I look just like
another girl,
My hair all done
A string of pearls.
But inside is
a heart of steel.
No misconceptions,
I know the deal.
I hung with boys
and we played rough.
My heart's been broken
it healed back tough.
I've been here before,
I'll walk these miles
With my lady like manners
and my sweet Texas Smile.
Sep 2, 2013
Sep 2, 2013 at 4:03 PM UTC
Find the beauty
in the pain
and watch it wash away.
Take the pain
makes you feel
helps you know what is real.
Forever changed
Not the same
Refuse to play the game.
One less thought
One less stop
One less day of shame.
Aug 18, 2013
Aug 18, 2013 at 7:26 PM UTC
I thought you wanted me
but I've done this before
Where I start to catch feelings
And they head for the door
So confused by my choices
So sick of this place
So tired of my heart pounding
When I see your face
Erase all the memories
Convinced they're all lies
Ignore that look I thought
I saw in your eyes
I will just keep going
But the hard truth is
It's hard to pretend
That you don't exist.
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 2:06 PM UTC
Finding love
is hard for me
Forever single
Is what I'll be
I start to fall
and get too close
They hit the breaks
Then hit some hoes
I leave them be
Then one day
"I made wrong choice"
Is what they say
Pushed away once
is all it takes
to relive
past mistakes
My standards high
Demand respect
I know my worth
And still yet
Loneliness comes
Late at night
and sometimes feelings
are hard to fight
True love IS
What I want
No need to lie
No need to front
Enjoy the chase
Not rush too fast
And maybe one day
It will last
Aug 12, 2013
Aug 12, 2013 at 6:54 PM UTC
I find myself
Here again
Down and broken
Looking within
Where did I stray
From this path?
How do I clean
This Aftermath?
How do I keep
From THIS again?
Where am I going?
What's the plan?
I'm tired of failing,
I CRAVE success.
I give it my all
I try my best!
Yet circumstances
Beyond control
Effect the way
Life's dice roll.
So I pick up the pieces
Dust off the dirt
And I keep on trucking
No matter the hurt.
Aug 10, 2013
Aug 10, 2013 at 2:07 PM UTC
The intensity of your eyes
Your sweet little lies
The girl I despise
The softness of your touch
The way we….
I want it so much
Feelings felt by the weak
Awkwardness when we speak
From Outgoing to meek
Can’t play with my heart
Emotions still play their part
I knew from the start
You were Trouble
Jun 17, 2013
Jun 17, 2013 at 11:47 AM UTC
Mama, I know just now
I made you really mad
And what I did today
Was something that was bad.
But mama, I also know
The way you hit's not right
And that is just the reason
I put up such a fight
Hitting me across the face
And kicking me in the back
Is considered child abuse
That is just a fact
But mama, I love you anyway
I just don't understand
Why I take second place
To any given man
You sleep naked in his bed
I'm in a strange place, all alone
When all I really want
Is to be in bed at home
I don't even know his name
Tomorrow is someone new
Though I'm very little, I know
It's not a motherly thing to do
And mama, those things you call me
Hurt my heart and soul
The damage you have caused
I bet you'll never know
But mama, I still love you
Even if you hurt me so
Cause mama I have Jesus
Who hugs me and won't let go
Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 11:33 PM UTC
She was a carefree soul
in an uptight world
Just trying to fit in.
Looking for love
in all the right places
that's how her story begins
Her mama didn't want her,
Her daddy didn't know her,
so she ran away
Looking for love
in all the wrong places
as she does to this day
Men her daddy's age
Drug are all the rage
Disco ***** Stripper Poles,
Needles and Sin
Married at 18
seemed like the right thing
drugs, an abortion, then a baby girl.
Why she had me
I'll never know
I didn't fit into her world
She found love
in the form of a son
for a time it was enough
A walk with God
She claimed she was on
But satan called her bluff.
Many men, any age
Drugs are still all the rage.
Barstools, Stripper poles
Needles and sin
She left us
at an early age,
Teenage girl and boys times 2
Searching for happiness
in all the wrong places
is watch she HAD to do.
Being a mother
To my little brothers
We got through life ok.
Hoping and dreaming
wishing and praying
Our mother would find her way.
All these men, every age,
Ice is now all the rage
Sleepless nights, alcoholic life,
Needles and Sin
On the streets
is where she lives
druggies are her friends.
Countless ways
to try to save her
But there is no end.
Is this the life
she dreamt of having
All that time ago?
A beautiful daughter, two talented sons
and grandkids she'll never know.
Any man, whatever age
Homelessness all the rage.
Self deception, mind corruption
Needles and sin.
Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC
What is love
A four letter word
is it a decision, a feeling
Or maybe a verb?
Can you feel it in your gut
or maybe circling in your head?
Can you find it in the store
Or find it in your bed?
Does it change with the weather
Or like a plant grow?
Does it flutter like butterflies
or will it never go?
Is it a grand affair
Like the Town Parade?
Or is a secret,
a silly game fools play?
Is it the scent of a flower
a most breath taking bloom?
Or a smell so rancid
it can clear the room
Love to me
is sweeter than air
A feeling no words
can even compare
covers you like a blanket
of the purest white snow
The love that I feel
will never want to go
But make life better
us against them
and should we fall
get up and do it again
Its the sweetest smelling flowers
gardens for miles
It's a colorful sunset
Whatever to make you smile
Its not found at the store
or in a bar, or your bed
It's a conscious decision
choices made in my head
Because feelings lie
and marriage is dead.
I could be like the world
But I'll do Proverbs 31:10 instead.
Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 11:31 PM UTC