caitlyn-walters
my name is caitlyn im a sweet and loving girl, well tom boy. i was born in japan but i live in the u.s., im love talking to people, so if you ever want to talk im always checking. i was never told the right way to read and spell. i had move to a different state at that time, so im sorry if i cant spell. i try to make all my peoms on stuff i believe and know. oh and i love to larn new song in language im weird like that, i love to make new friends even though you have done me wrong i will give you another chance for every one needs a 2nd chance. my name is lotus lord because my best friend and boy friend gave me the name lotus and it has been some i cherish, the name lord come for a series of books that i love to read called lords of the underworld
i was worried and scared
so i left
but no matter how many steps i take forward
i'm always looking back
are love wasn't fake
it was as pure
maybe that's why i can't find it again
i miss you, i curl up in your clothes, i pretend your here
i still love you
i want you back, but will you take me back?
Mar 20, 2017
Mar 20, 2017 at 8:36 PM UTC
I wake up hopping today will be better then the last
But a hope is just a hope
Sep 8, 2016
Sep 8, 2016 at 8:11 AM UTC
love
its a two way street
or more like playing frogger
you give, you take
but most of the time you just feel like it was just you
you fall hard
and you get your heart broken
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 4:40 PM UTC
i say i'm over you
that now your just my best friend
i stay up in the night talking to you
i think about the good times we had
but when i find your dating someone
i cry because i'm hurting
i'm missing you more then ever
and then i see
i'm not over you
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 7:11 PM UTC
i am human
i make mistakes
i do thinks that maybe i shouldn't do
i protect my friends when you have pushed them down
i am there backup when they need help
i'm kind and sweet
but when you do me wrong
i cut you out of my life
i weird but fun
i'm a out going person
i wont judge you if i don't know you
so why judge me when you nothing about me
Apr 29, 2016
Apr 29, 2016 at 12:02 PM UTC
i hear a sound
i pull my blank over my head
i think to myself the monsters will get me
then mother walks in with a light
she shows me there's nothing there
its all in my head
7 years later
i sit in the back of the classroom
i pull my hoodie over my head
i sit in silents
kids through things at me
calls me names
push me around
and i think to myself
were's mother when i need her to scare away the monsters
Apr 29, 2016
Apr 29, 2016 at 11:47 AM UTC
i'm sorry i cant be who you want me to be
i'm sorry i cant please you
are paths have started to split
you go one way i go the other
the me you once know has grown older
i started to be come the person i wanted to be
we were once good friends
but now your getting mad and yelling at me
we are taking are different paths
live your life the way you want to
and slowly ill become ghost
Apr 29, 2016
Apr 29, 2016 at 11:00 AM UTC
you say I'm emo
just because I wear black a lot.
You say I am a queer
because I give my best friend a hug, and he just happens to be a guy.
You think I cut
just because I have scars on my wrist.
Truth is,
none of the stuff you say is true.
See, emo has become a fad.
Everyone wants to have attention.
But us "real emos" will tell you that its no fun.
I can't...we can't control when we are happy and sad,
glad and mad.
Its a ****** feeling.
I do not wear black because I worship Satan,
I wear black because it fits me
I do not wear my band shirts to be cool,
I wear them because they represent who I am.
I do not listen to rock music because I have problems,
I listen to it because the screaming helps my blood flow.
I don't expect you to know what it's like to truly be
emo
The only time you say that word,
the only time you say us
is when you make fun of us.
My hair is not long just to cover my face,
my hair is long because I like it that way.
You expect us to be like you,
but yet you rob us of our happienes.
Well,
who the **** are you to call me emo?
huh?
What do you truly know about depression.
Because your idea of depression is when you get grounded,
and my idea of depression is when I hold a blade to my neck.
You think depression is just tears,
but nope.
Its painful,
draining,
almost numbing.
This isn't even the start.
Do not call me emo,
because of what you think
because you will never know me
I won't let you get to know me
because I don't want that pain.
You are a ******
and one of the reasons why
I'm emo
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 3:24 PM UTC
the outcast group is the one no one wants to be in
but to be honest its the funnest group there is
you have people of all different personalities
so many people with many different lives
so many people with stories to be told
the outcast group
were the weirdest
were loud
were crazy
but were the one group that's not scared to be us
we are the outcast group
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 12:27 PM UTC
is it a feeling when you've know someone for so long?
is it the way i feel when im around my parenter?
is it something i say to someone when i want them to know i care?
is it a feeling the just come when it does?
if no one knows what love is then why do we have so many questions on it?
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 12:07 PM UTC