Would you respect my will to leave this mortal coil?
Could you understand your reflection is your foil?
Can you accept the demons as your own?
Accept you are alone,
And atone for your heart of stone?
To find the battle you've fought, hard and strong
Meant nothing in the long run?
You had your fun.
The sun is long gone,
And the one
Thing you had left,
You threw away.
Deal with another day.
There's no way.
You're not okay
Not fine.
Not mine.
So divine.
Nein.
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 2:13 AM UTC
Hey guys
Guess what!
I've been drinking since 8 PM yesterday evening
It's going on 4 AM.
Whiskey and watered down, or stale, cola.
And I still don't feel like socking some random
Bystander
In the face.
Right hook
For no reason at all.
In Latrobe
Pistolvania,
Because that's how you prove strength.
That's how you show your dominance.
I guess.
I beg to disagree.
Tunnel vision's setting in. No holding back now.
I don't give a **** who you are.
I don't give a **** what you're made of.
If you're ready to lay hands on
My father,
And my brother,
Know full and well that you just dug your own ******* grave.
I will pull you off of my brother.
I will make you submit.
And you will know "you done goofed"
As you and yours would put it so beautifully.
The man you once respected for holding his own
Is now the man who holds your fate.
Nov 27, 2014
Nov 27, 2014 at 3:59 AM UTC
If that's your mindset, I was wrong all this time
Another year wasted on a careless mind
And I feel fine, yessir, I do
The gallons of tears I wasted on the thought of
You.
Who's to say I'd run and hide
And who's to say I'd care
Who's to say I never tried
When it's
you
Who would never dare?
I spilled my heart out, took over a week
And not once did I reach for a bottle.
I just wanted to show you who I was
Before I had time to pin my throttle
In that short moment I grasped at faith
Believing life will go on
But God wasn't feeling that Good today
And dusk came without a dawn.
Once you have the best in life
There's only degrees of bland
Everything else is mediocre at best
Might as well die on my plot of land
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 6:39 AM UTC
I stay up all night downing my memories
Drowning my sorrows
Keeping the demons at bay
For one more day
It can always wait until tomorrow
It can wait 'til sunrise to face my enemies
I can plug in
I can overpower the thoughts
I can defeat what drags me to the end
It helps me defend
It kills what I've caught
And its fire wipes away my sin
Temporary
Imprecise
My aim is not true
And I cannot undo
Cannot stop this device
This is all necessary
Stalling
Falling
Calling
Crying
Denying
Dying.
Dead.
Hey
Maybe it's all in my head.
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 3:59 AM UTC
Purge your pride,
Purge your rights,
Purge your denial,
Purge your integrity,
Purge your stability,
Purge your innocence,
Purge your virginity,
Purge your anger,
Purge your happiness,
Purge your sorrow,
Purge your doubt,
Purge your past,
Purge your present,
Purge your future,
Purge what you know,
Purge what you don't know,
Purge your mind,
Purge your heart,
Purge your lungs,
Purge your blood,
Purge your beliefs,
Purge your taboos,
Purge your sickness,
Purge your health,
Purge your degrees,
Purge your ignorance,
Purge your racism,
Purge your tolerance,
Purge your love,
Purge your hate,
Purge your indecency,
Purge your modesty,
Purge life,
Purge death,
Purge lucidity,
Purge sobriety,
Purge intoxication,
Purge absolution,
Purge desolation,
Purge.
Purge until you can't purge anymore,
And become perfect in another life.
Sep 20, 2014
Sep 20, 2014 at 4:54 AM UTC
[M],
I miss you, man. First and foremost.
I'm not sure if it helps when I say you haven't missed much, but you know how this area is. Same old **** and a different day.
As I write this, I'm fresh off of a work week heading into a three day weekend, which, as I'm sure you're aware, is a blessing when you're in the [JOB].
Today was payday, and this weekend was dedicated to what I wanted to do after two months of straight work without any kind of rest.
Band practice on Saturday: Eight hours of nonstop musicianship among people that understand what music truly is.
On Sunday,[...]
I was going to borrow my dad's car and [...]
Unfortunately, either my boss or my boss' bank royally ****** up my paycheck. To keep it short, I have to wait until this Monday to get paid, effectively ruining everything I looked forward to.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, at this point, I'm as locked up as you are, brother.
I've been told countless times to smile, to make the best of things, to... whatever. It's for them above all else. They don't like drama, yet they fish for it.
I'm sitting in [BAR] because my father had the decency to lend me cash until next week. I knew where that money was going just as much as he did. I came here to drown my sorrows, they know I'm upset, why can't they just leave me be?
[MUTUAL FRIEND] misses you. I'm sure [KARAOKE DJs] do as well. I found out what happened through [FORMER COWORKER], and [MUTUAL FRIEND] elaborated. I'm glad [SISTER] posted a way to get a hold of you on your Facebook; without her, I wouldn't have known what to do.
I hope you're doing well, [M]. Write back if you can, I'd love to hear from you. In case something gets mixed up or whatever, here's my address. I'll check it every day. Otherwise, you know my number, and it never changes.
[ADDRESS, **** OFF CREEPERS]
Stay strong, stay safe, and above all, stay gold.
I love you, brother. I'll see you soon enough.
[...]
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 11:31 PM UTC
Don't give me that ****
Do not treat depression as a disagreement, or
A comparison.
Some children need water.
I need a brain.
What good is sustaining a body
When the mind is in a coma
The body cannot, will not, self sustain
Do not tell me there are people
In this world
Who would literally ****
To live my life.
Our lifestyles are not our problems.
Our problems are not our lifestyles.
Our problems
Individually
Rest within ourselves.
If the world starves, I am starving too
In a concept that only I will understand.
I know, I feel, I hate, I live,
And nobody can take that away from me.
I cannot tell you what's wrong
You cannot tell me what's right.
I CANNOT TELL YOU WHAT'S RIGHT.
YOU CANNOT TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG.
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 3:25 AM UTC
Even the earnest of kings have their downfall
Just as an unstoppable force meets their immovable wall
Try as they will to retain their crown
As a jester would force an insincere frown
Yeah, life ***** about as much as it blows
For every brightest sun, a black wind will follow
For every day late and a dollar short
It's never too late to play our part
I dabble back and forth
Whether I'm happy or sad
Never a dull moment in my head
To save me from the mad-
Lest I become a slave to this machine
It demands peace for oil and blood for gasoline
A petty tribute for a moment of peace
A simple price to pay for one enormous release
Aug 28, 2014
Aug 28, 2014 at 7:16 PM UTC