I've been "strong" lately
no contact
for a painful amount of time
excruciating, wonderful memories make their returns every night
each moment alone I'm sick to my stomach
love's acids burning my tissues
strengthening my regrets
i need more than your presence in my unconscious world
stories that awaken me with hope and leave me disappointed
love me back
spend one night in my dreams and you'll fall in love again
at night the truth eats away at happiness
my confident school girl act doesn't cut it with the darkness
i clasp my sheets for stability
but hell knows my place when the sun goes down
May 26, 2013
May 26, 2013 at 11:00 PM UTC
When you're walking through my head all night
(See what I did there)
My body becomies paralized
Undead
I embraced your selfish kisses
& kept you from the ocean
White deamon, are you still holding onto me?
Our minds hold the same memories
Know the same lyrics
We get tangled equally like bread-ties
I'm still twisted
& we both know that isn't fair
May 13, 2013
May 13, 2013 at 3:51 PM UTC
You smiled when you saw me
I had to see you, kid
Broke in
I had to see you
Maybe you had to see me, too
That hug
Oh, that hug
Right before you pushed me off
& accepted my kiss
Then...
It's a blur
My smoker's cough awakened me
May 4, 2013
May 4, 2013 at 6:08 PM UTC
If you love something, set it free
Well, then I ******* hate you
I want to hold you close to me
Smell the musk you skin secretes
I got it backwords?
I thought you said forever
You're more familiar than the back of my hand
& I know when you'll turn
May 2, 2013
May 2, 2013 at 10:43 PM UTC
Let them stand tall for now
One day they're gonna fall
Count to 10
You'll feel alright
Move on, let's do our thing
**** them for not getting down to our music
They're not worth getting angry over
Let this spark keep us going
Let it happen
Time goes by whether we hate it or not
Let it happen
May the serpants hiss at our misguided ways
You thought you'd be happy by now
Well you're not
The cold reality is that **** doesn't change
But it will happen
Our vices control our nature
Spread the solitude
But anyways
***** homophobes & ******* patriots
Apr 28, 2013
Apr 28, 2013 at 11:07 PM UTC
This sulking ********
It's gotta go behind me
I can't dwell on freshman year loves
Don't give me your pity kids
Time to smile and rot your teeth
I'm so god **** sweet
I had to count to 6 months
Ahh, you men & your ****** hair
Stealing hearts
Apr 26, 2013
Apr 26, 2013 at 11:17 PM UTC
When I say I want things back to normal
I mean I want my safe haven to be in your arms
The left side of your bed I proudly claimed
My memories of you crowd my mind
But hearing your name aloud makes me sick
There's no arguing with you
This isn't ours anymore
Your decision was made
Lets face it, you weren't planning on including me in your future
Some things are out of your hands
I'll stay my distance
But the demons of your past won't be so kind
I thought by now I would be happy
What's keeping me going if you're not mine by the end of the day?
Not much
The cold reality drives my emotionless person on autopilot
I keep going
I don't love you any less than before
I don't hurt any less than when your decision was made
The blood still pulses at the same pulse
How does such a dull, deceased, hopeless situation mature and change?
Does the dead ever grow?
Apr 21, 2013
Apr 21, 2013 at 11:35 PM UTC
But you're totally worth it
You're worth life
You're living for a reason
Maybe you're not the funniest or the skinniest
But I know for sure that you're ******* awesome
So don't cut yourself
Don't **** yourself
I know how it feels
I've been in the hospitals
Don't surrender; don't give up
It gets easier
Thanks for being amazing
Please continue to bless this world with your presence
Apr 18, 2013
Apr 18, 2013 at 11:00 AM UTC
Before this boy came I didn't sing
Now I can't stop
I can't stop smiling over his flaws
Passion over consequence
They all say be careful
It won't last
Don't get attached
But baby that ship has sailed
The tug of his stubble has taken me further from the surface
Gasping for air in between kisses
It was the most pleasurable struggle
Keep me fighting
Make me a warrior
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 9:44 PM UTC
it's always on me
waiting for my neck to snap
my blood to poison
all the cells to die
the white lighter is always in my pocket
to light my fix
fuel my flame
am i worthy enough to be the next contestant on the 27 list?
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 10:42 PM UTC