Im holding one between my teeth
There's nothing I can do but wonder
If I should
I know I cant
10 12 20
Even never straying
Vacancy in every laugh line
Metal Mistress calming quiet
i cant breathe
Mom i ****** up
Dad im sorry
Tip of my thumb taps three times
On each side of my silver sun
Burning hot in my pocket
I revolve around it and it takes my empty heart
Jan 1, 2016
Jan 1, 2016 at 5:03 AM UTC
I regret
That I have yet
To barrel down a bannister
Take charge of the floorboard
And command a room,
Silent and full or
Symphonic and fractured
My perceptions
The hungry trees
Of a hungry forest
I do not regret
Having entered,
So I cannot regret
Not having done so.
Some places I imagine
Feel like
Orpheus Looking Back
Feel like
The preference
Of Pleasant Death.
You ask me why
I will not go,
I say
Because,
I Will Not.
You ask me why
I am afraid,
I say
I am a flame
Entombed
Who still feels the wind.
You ask me
What is it most
You fear?
I answer,
The flowers
In my head
Not sick,
But dead.
Nov 25, 2015
Nov 25, 2015 at 10:08 PM UTC
1. I just couldn't stop myself from falling and suddenly realized, I didn't want to.
2. Thank you for making my time feel worth something.
3. This is the third time I've wrote this and it still doesn't explain much...I'm sorry.
4. I haven't slept for two weeks because of you and I hope you still think I'm cute with these bags under my eyes.
5. All the ***** couldn't drown my love for you and never once did it make me forget your name; only my own.
6. There are over one million thoughts going through my head everyday, and I still haven't mastered the art of putting them on paper but maybe one part of this will mean something.
7. It's hard for me to explain what's going through my head right now...but I've thinking about you all night.
8. I just had to say this before it was too late but hell, I'm barely on time for class each day.
9. I wanted to wait for the perfect time, but that wait would last forever.
10. I don't know how to be alone and I hoped someday that you'd fill in the empty space in my bed.
11. My hands are shaking and I don't know if I am scared, nervous or anxious; but I know this time I won't chicken out.
12. I just had to get this weight off my chest and god, I almost forgot what it was like to really breathe.
13. I am tired of being afraid.
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 7:17 PM UTC
He looked at her like she was the most beautiful thing in the world,
not like a piece of meat that is waiting to be devoured
more like he needed her like plants need sunlight
it almost seemed like she is oxygen and he needed her to be there and fill his lungs every time he took a breath
with every glance you could see the love in his eyes and the smile that played at his lips like he wanted to love her until the end of his life
and to be without her would be the end of his life
The way he looked at her said "I will never leave you"
like every moment with her could have been his last, and every moment without her was utter torture
She looked at him like he was the blood in her veins and every time she met his eyes it was the first time
like her love was unfathomable and without it she would not go on
She looked at him like she saw every moment they ever had together in the curve of his jawbone, every kiss they ever shared in the color of his lips, like all of the love in the world was resting on his brow
The prelude of their kiss, where their foreheads rested against each other and their noses touched seemed to be endless and peaceful as though nothing else existed
The moment they kissed looked like it lasted forever in their eyes, but felt so fleeting
like it kept them grounded and without it they would be 10 ft off the ground
"When I met Johnny, I was pure ****** He changed that. He was my first everything. My first real kiss. My first real boyfriend. My first fiancé. My first guy I had *** with. So he'll always be in my heart. Forever. Kind of funny that word." Winona Ryder
She sounded so nostalgic and soft, he meant the world to her
As though the world would be off centered without him
"I'd die for her. I love her so much. I don't know what I would do without her. She is going through a lot right now. I wish I could just kiss away the pain, make it go away, stop it, **** it! If she, you know, I don't know what I would do. I'd **** myself. I love that girl. I love her. I love her almost more than I love myself." Johnny Depp
He seemed so passionate, like without him he both couldn't and wouldn't want to go on
Like the world wouldn't stop, it would just cease to exist
"Believe me, this Winona Forever tattoo is not something I took lightly... Her eyes **** me."
I believe they did **** him, that just the thought of her cut him like glass
that every moment he spent with her made him love her so much it hurts
I want a love like Johnny and Winona
a love so strong that it'll leave me thinking about every kiss, every accidental brush of their arm against mine, every second since their eyes met mine. I want a love like music, a love that makes me feel like with it the world will slow to one beat per measure.
A love that feels like the ocean, they are the shore, and I am the seashells that get swept up in it
A love that is completely undeniable on every account
A love like Johnny and Winona
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 3:31 AM UTC
I fall in love with places
the way that some people fall in love with human beings.
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC
I know you're up, it's 3am
and still you won't answer me.
otm.
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 1:55 AM UTC
I saw you
You looked as beautiful as usual
Draped in grey, it hugging your every curve
and covering your face
Only seeing your evergreen eyes when you kiss the tree line
and spread yourself on the ocean bed
Waiting for me to lie down and look at the moon on on a silver chain around your neck
I love you
I always will look at you like it was the first time
You had a heart that I once saw
and he poisoned you and you are slowly dying
I can see you getting worse you've lost the light in your eyes,
you're the vacancy sign that I identify by
I take solace in you
I used to at least, just like you I am getting worse
You are equally codependent
but you traded me for him
You let someone in
You let someone in
but you never told him our secrets did you?
That was why he never understood what we have
You were the bandage that clotted my bleed, but now you're the exit sign behind my picture frame
The only comfort I have is that he'll never love you as much as I do
But he cant hold you either
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
the grass is wet
so are between her thighs
but im more afraid of going down in wet grass
Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 2:30 PM UTC
The way i look at you
I look at you like the roaring fire that we sat together by whispering the tune of the prison we subject ourselves to because that was when i felt every bit of your rare smile projected onto my skin
I look at you like I look at the night sky that we looked up at that one night when you told me you might never come back because looking at you makes me feel a little bit nostalgic in the best way i can muster to interpret you
I look at you the way i look at the waves crashing on the rocks because you bring so much chaos to my fingers when i type out that response to a one word text at 11:57 on a monday night
I look at you like I'm looking at the wooden paneled lodge i survive on because i linger off of every syllable you don't say like i linger off of every moment i don't spend in that room with you on the moon
I look at you like I look at the view from the boat when arriving each morning because i dissect every word that slips from your tongue like I dissect every detail of that island etching it into my brain the way i scrawled every detail of you into my mind, your rough hands, your tanned back, your blue eyes, and the curve of your lips, your coffee order, your taped up converse, your sunglasses, just you
I look at you like you are where I want to be 24/7 because thats what you remind me of
otm.
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 12:23 AM UTC
Sometimes
I wonder what you’d say
Would you walk away
and let me follow in your wake
laughing about the feeling of your
rain that kisses the curves of your tan softened face the way I wish I could,
the very rain that seeps into the laugh lines of your eyes, the rain pools that cut outs of your smile
would you let me linger in the decadence of your sarcasm
would you let me sit next to you while you laugh
In that way you lazy way you do
when you
lay back against the wooden
bench
Or would you hold me close,
close enough to smell your aftershave
and let me see your broken nails
and torn calluses
close enough to feel your stubble on my cheek and feel your breath on my jaw
close enough to put my hands around your back and feel the scars that reside just out of my reach
Would you let me avoid telling
the truth to myself and shut me
up like a gull at night, so peaceful until it reaches the peak where night is no longer dark, and suddenly a cacophony of screeching worse than the alarms on the traditional alarm clock
or would you let me fall
onto an open-ended, double edged
question
sharper than a thumbtack and twice as rusty
Do I even have the courage to tell
you?
Or am I a molotav cocktail
and waiting until smashed to
crash and burn
Would you even let me open my
metal mouth and let my tongue
carve waves into your soul and tear you up
so you feel half as bad as i do
alone.
Would you let me read your
texts?
and ask me why she was upset?
or would you even come near me
I open my mouth to tell you
“Hey! I need to say something!”
“Yeah?”
“Gimmie a hand?”
You said okay.
that wasnt what I wanted to ask
but
You said okay
and smiled
like an empty glass of expired wine.
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:38 AM UTC
