Behind my knee sockets
The relaxed drowsy pull on shoulders
Like a lead brick in the back of my head
The unsupressed mournful sighs behind my eyes
The dry tears, sobs stuck
Windows of the soul, black, empty
My body is a cage
Ready to implode and give out
Roll me over and let it spill out of my pores
For I am the porous humanity of depression
Jan 28, 2011
Jan 28, 2011 at 6:40 PM UTC
i put my arms up above my head as my heart sank below my bed
and i asked God to take the pain away -
to help me up, to show me he was there at my worst.
multiple times, in multiple ways i asked, i begged,
and just like life he made me wait until weakness seized control,
and i let my hands drop hail from the sky, heavy and cold.
and i slowly fell over to the barren of my bed
and layed there with negativity eating my soul, and blackness filling my heart, i layed there
and the waterfall poured, and my heart raced, and you still, werent, there.
Dec 29, 2010
Dec 29, 2010 at 10:26 AM UTC
Where are you God
im not quite to sure anymore
you hear that God?
were looking for you
we’ve always been there
but you werent
so where were you
are we not good enough for you either
tell me
or **** me
Have i lost faith so quickly
if you have, i have also
its been two weeks of questioning
where are you God?
its been two years of questioning
where are you God?
Dec 29, 2010
Dec 29, 2010 at 10:26 AM UTC
Alone like the rest of the days, I lay in my bed and shut the world off and my mind on.
I reflect about the past night filled with negativity and horrid feelings, just waiting for them to slowly encroach into my thoughts once more.
The tethers of darkness tighten their grip around my arms, my chest warms from the rapid beats of my heart and slowly melts down into my mattress leaking hatred in every drop hardening once more when it hits my cold tear streaked sheets, my legs lay lifeless.
Dec 29, 2010
Dec 29, 2010 at 10:25 AM UTC
my heart with a gashing hole from a mythical screwdriver
rising
out of my problem filled mind, confused and mixed up brain
escaping
from my diminishing soul
Dec 29, 2010
Dec 29, 2010 at 10:22 AM UTC