something i've been urgently needing for years.
i know you told me you wouldn't talk me if i did this.
through the millions of thoughts racing through my head, you were the only thought i could focus on.
i want to apologize but i know i'll never be forgiven.
so i hold all this up so i don't let you down.
i keep it in so you don't go out.
Dec 29, 2016
Dec 29, 2016 at 4:15 AM UTC
i see you went to new york,
the place with a million lights.
my favorite place in the world,
you were once my favorite girl.
i wonder if you thought of me,
while driving up there during christmas time.
i told you i wished to see the lights.
i wonder if you took the time.
and you got into university,
a tough one at that.
your passion for learning goes to show.
i'm proud of you, you know.
i wish i was like that.
i wish i was smart.
i wish i was strong.
and i know you struggle with perfectionism.
but you look at you now.
i hope you find your favorite place in the world.
you were once my favorite girl.
Dec 26, 2016
Dec 26, 2016 at 3:38 PM UTC
As for her,
She might has forgotten
where the home is in the world
For she's always everywhere—
in every countries she crossed
on every streets she wandered
at every motels she spent the night
above the sand and ocean breeze
below the tallest buildings and crowded bridges..
But you,
You make her feel like
the closest thing to feeling that again
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 3:54 AM UTC
you've held my hand, you hold my heart,
but we are strangers now,
i suppose we have been from the start.
we haven't talked in what seems like years,
your love will always brings me to tears,
falling together just to fall apart,
i suppose we have been from the start.
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:44 AM UTC
ever since you left,
the world has been dimmed down.
the grass isn't as green,
the sun isn't as bright.
it's hard to find a light source
when the light of your life
has gone out.
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:30 AM UTC
i would move the strongest buildings,
or give you mountains from afar,
i'd give you everything you want,
or even catch you every star.
i would count every single grain of sand,
or grant you every piece of land,
or if you wanted me
to simply just walk away from it all,
i would,
if it meant you would stay
for just one more day.
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:29 AM UTC
we ran.
at exceedingly high speeds,
away from our troubles,
far from our plans,
hand in hand,
we ran.
towards the sunset.
received a call
from the light remaining,
it gladly welcomed us home.
so we ran.
up all the stairs,
mucked rails
beneath our hands,
opened every door,
and so we ran.
we reached the top,
sprint to the edge.
looked to the sky,
and the sun was turned off.
and the stars said hello,
as our eyes
swallowed them whole.
this beautiful sight,
that visits every night,
our favorite show,
that'll guide our walk home.
Oct 22, 2016
Oct 22, 2016 at 10:38 PM UTC
I was on my way to the town over.
Warm sunshine flooded in through every window,
palm trees were lined up in their correct order,
and the bluest California sky imaginable was right above me.
At every stop,
I heard the cars pass by me.
They remind me of you leaving.
I can still recall each individual crack my heart had that day.
How much it broke,
and at exactly what times.
I can still recall the song playing on the radio,
I listen to it all the time.
It brings me back to our last day.
When I still had you,
even though I lost you.
I hope my heart can forgive me for the cruel despair I've caused.
No other feeling can compare to how it felt when you left.
Nothing has been right ever since.
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 9:38 PM UTC
it's a long, strange road
that links present me and past me together.
if i had to describe autumn in one word,
it would be painful.
lovely, yet painful memories that i miss the most are the same ones i push farthest away from me.
so i always tell myself i wont get thrown off by autumn this year,
but i always end up basking in all
its nostalgic glory.
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 3:37 PM UTC
it was the last moments in time before you ignored me for a week straight.
the last moments in time before anxious hours arose of me waiting for your call to light up my phone,
just so i could ignore it.
the last moments in time before i finally decided to give up trying to fix something that was completely and unapologetically broken.
and the very last moments in time
we were ever truly happy.
i will remember these moments forever.
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 3:31 PM UTC