the darkness knows how I feel
it welcomes everything and every thought
it doesn't shame me for the bad ones
the darkness simply accepts
it holds me into eternity
it surrounds all of me.
i don't talk about the darkness
people don't understand
the words are foreign to them
they try to shed light on the darkness
try to expose it as false
but how is it false when i feel it inside?
it shows itself in annoyance
through endless anger
building behind the scenes
it exists in the fleeting thoughts
making myself uneasy, disgusted
yet it was me who thought them.
the darkness makes me want to scream
it makes me itch beneath my skin
as if it is trying to claw out from inside
it sits in the back of my mind
toying with my humanity
pressing me to let it out.
but i can't, it stays, not yet to be unleashed
it would wreck havoc in the world
destroying me and itself in the process.
(m.y.)
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 6:49 PM UTC
Have you ever seen the magic in your eyes?
Have you caught a sideways glance of yourself
in a mirror in a moment of happiness?
I'm not sure if you've ever had the chance,
but darling I have.
I have seen the laughter escape from your lungs
like a burst of light from fireworks.
I have seen your eyes twinkle from admiration
like stars in a vast open sky.
I have seen your smile spread across your face
like the heat of a fire reaches your hands,
slow at first but whole and warm at full grin.
I wish you could see it,
I wish you could see your beauty
from the love that has blossomed within you.
(m.y.)
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 5:40 PM UTC
All these words
Float in my head
Tossing like the sea
While I lay in bed
Crashing upon words
Like "I wish I was dead"
Ones laced with him
"Absolutely gorgeous" he said
How do I lay so calm
When everything's a mess
It's so up and down
I smile and then frown
Tears down my face
As I say "Everything is okay"
It's not though, it's not
I've tried so hard
For forever I have fought
It has gone on for too long
I'm tired of pretending
That nothing is wrong
(m.p.)
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 2:44 AM UTC
He tried to impress me
The night he first met me
With his fleeting laugh
And his carefree smile
His eyes twinkling like stars
To say the least it worked
From then on I was hooked
As soon as day turned into night
He was the only one in sight
For I had impressed him too
Even though he never knew
The smile he loved to see
Would come from beautiful me
My singing voice he loved to hear
Is why he kept the music near
My gorgeous blue-green eyes
He's stare at through the night
We had impressed each other
Without even trying
We began to love each other
On one long night, full of sighing
(m.p)
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 2:15 AM UTC
I want to write
Something profound and real
But nothing comes out right
Besides how I feel
How I feel can be confusing
So writing about it makes me feel
Like I don't know what I'm doing
I feel like I'm walking blind
My life path completely unclear
I never know what I may find
I only know I want you here
(m.p.)
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 1:42 AM UTC
A body and soul
A heart and mind
Working together
To try and find
The perfect combination
For what they all want
Like the perfect vacation
In the best spot
It has to be right
Everything in place
And even though we fight
I still think of your face
(m.p.)
Oct 28, 2013
Oct 28, 2013 at 4:02 PM UTC
"come over tonight"
He says to me
Talking so innocently
Causing tingles to run
Through my body
Now I'm thinking about you
And what it is we might do
I begin to remember
Nights from before
When we'd have to shut
Your bedroom door
Your hands on me
With only moonlight to see
Passion spreading
Through every vein
Each time that you'd
Kiss me again
I'd slip deeper in
To your embrace
Remembering every look
Upon your face
(m.p.)
Oct 28, 2013
Oct 28, 2013 at 4:30 AM UTC
in
out
in
out
in
out
in
then do it over again
breathing fast as I lay
I can't stop breathing
f u c k t o d a y
my heart starts aching
beating fast and breaking
the world s p i n s around
as i *c
r
u
m
b
l
e* to the ground
everything starts shaking
these tears I am not faking
it all goes black and blind
yes darkness..
take me..
please be kind..
(m.p)
Sep 30, 2013
Sep 30, 2013 at 2:31 AM UTC
I long to be the clock
That you look at with longing
When you want class to be over
I long to be your paper
That you spill with trust
Every thought in your head
I long to be your water
That you drink with a need
For I want you to need me to live
I long to be your blanket
That wraps you up all snug
When your cold and could use a hug
I really just long for you
With such an insane strength
That I don't want to live without you.
(m.p)
Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 4:43 PM UTC
His eyes used to stare at me with wonder.
For I was a mystery to him.
His hands used to trace my skin with delicacy.
For I was as fragile as glass to him.
His arms used to wrap around, never letting go.
For I was a prize he never wanted to lose.
Then things changed.
His eyes knew me and stared with need.
For he knew what was underneath.
His hands got rough and stronger than normal.
For he knew what I could handle.
His arms let me go, no longer keeping me close.
For he knew I'd always be his, I'd never go.
(m.p)
Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 4:38 PM UTC