I dive into a galaxy
of magnetic chaos
and float along
radioactive, purple, clouded skies
absorbed into the atmosphere
I begin to come alive
I spiral atop a mountain of stars
let my fingers roll along the currents and ripple out
oceanic outer-space
i no longer have a doubt
My mind expands into a stormy sea
as worlds collide and turn to dust
a million years have come to pass
yet I haven't learned to trust...
zero gravity, or my proximity;
to what is real.
Staring straight ahead now,
face to face with...
this infinite turning wheel
I reach out and touch the fallen ash
of ever-changing times
a wounded winged angel
can finally start to fly
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 12:52 PM UTC
I know we had something special
But those days are gone
I know we lost it all
Yet we must carry on
One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be
Why do I always fall back
You knock me down over and over again
I think Im sick
I think im sick on loving you
If I could just turn around
And walk away now
That’s what I would do
One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be
If I walked away
Would you even care at all?
If I was alone and restless
Would you help break the fall?
No?
One time for the good fight
One time for one more night
And I still dream of you
And I still dream….
Again we’ll be
I’m such a fool
And your too cruel
I'm such a fool
For loving you
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 7:49 PM UTC
Swing sets and park benches
A kiss on the lips
At 6 years of age, does it get better than this?
You soared away
Disappeared for a while
But when you returned
I remembered your smile
The years flew by
And you didn’t change
At 21 years old
You came back the same.
Genuine and true
Giving and kind
A kiss on the mouth
And again you were mine
But I had to go
I was chasing big dreams
You understood,
We approached different things
And as I left
I swore we’d always be friends
The look in your eyes swore
We’d meet again
So I spread my wings
And had started to fly
But as I left
The angels fell from the sky
As they took you away, to a brighter place
I became lost, until I met with Grace
And as you rose to the heavens
Time here traveled sure
Although giving up seemed easy
It’s life we endure
And if I am certain of one thing now,
It’s this I learned from you:
(quote)“It’s not the year in our life, but the life in our years, that makes all the difference”
So until my time comes
I will chase these dreams
You will lift me up, so I can fly
Despite my broken wings.
And when the day comes
And it’s my time to depart
I’ll be with you again forever,
As you remain in my heart.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 7:11 PM UTC
Can you come over tonight and fill this void?
I’ve been waiting for so long to dance.
You taught me how to play the game
though I never stood a chance.
For now I’ll just **** the nights away
Looking for nothing but the bottom of a bottle.
With only myself to blame
I lay naked and cold for all to see.
Tongue tied again
My vocal chords have swelled
This empty canvas is colored black
My heart now beats to the stabbing pain in my back.
(A subtle reminder of how we left things)
but for now ill **** the nights away
(with him)
looking for noone and nothing
I walk around with a hollowed grin
Pretending I can still feel something
It’s not the same
No its not the same
But im tired of standing up just to fall down again
Sick of the so-called game we play
I surf the night on the harshest of winds
So for now Ill **** the nights away
Cause there is no turning back
I just want what was rightfully mine from the start
Surrender the other half of this beating heart.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 7:09 PM UTC
It’s hard to see past the uncertain grey skies that hover outside my window
I push forward, in search for the truths we all desire
Can love be born again?
Bittersweet are the sparkling shadowed clouds
A glimmer of sunlight trying to protrude a darkened forecast
I find hope in dancing among the tears of heaven
As if they’re fallen angels
A half smile stretches across my face
At the mere thought of what comes after the rain
An illumination of our universe, like the sun is a diamond
Where a rainbow can be born to carry my dreams to a better place
Where beauty can last
And our deepest desires come true
To be loved, and to love
A solid ground for hope to thrive on
A chance to live eternally in Paradise
And Ive thought once too many times about the end
I guess I just get lost sometimes inside my head
Surround myself with a world of make believe
But today it seems that I can finally breathe
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 7:07 PM UTC
Clear into the distance
The sun is going down
the gears shift as I make my way
driving out of town
the open lands
where the waves crash in
its time to depart
the open roads
ill call my home
hold true inside my heart
my dreams as big as the salty blue
and since you left I...
will start anew
my hopes locked away in a jar on the shelf
in an old wooden church I will find myself
and when the sun goes down
I will not wait
cause yesterdays gone
and I wont be late
In a rive on the opposite end of town
a bottle with three words pours out
but not what you'd dream
not so cliche
in old withered in "baby, please stay"
as the sun goes down I wait for dawn
the stars my fate, yesterday gone
the open land as vast as my heart
and the waves crash down
during our depart
life moves in circles
and we cant escape
my heart the weapon
your soul my aim
cause when there's nothing to lose
there's all to gain
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 7:06 PM UTC
Goodbyes never come easy
But yours was far too unexpected
I opened up and ran away
Left you lost and unprotected
I thought someday we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in heaven our future grows
I never dreamed of the day I’d have to say my goodbyes
While dressed up in sorrow as my only disguise
I always thought the future was on my side
But my false hopes are my weakest guide
I thought someday we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in the heavens our future grows
Lost in misery
A loss for words
I only wish there was a way
To ease this hurt
Family and friends will gather near
And in light of darkness
We’ll release our fears
Pray for the future and things to come
And never forget what can’t be undone.
I thought we’d meet again
In my heart we will always be friends
I’ll dry these tears and plant a rose
While in the heavens our future grows
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 6:59 PM UTC
and it was only yesterday. a moment that past. and now i cant forget it. and I guess we'll see. what tomorrow brings. these things come when you least expect it.
so for now we'll ride out the waves of reason. until that time comes again for dreaming. we'll shift into our natural motion. let our souls take over the subtle notion.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 6:57 PM UTC
As the sun met the moon tonight
they hung on opposite ends of the earth.
But you were nowhere to be found
despite the feelings inside that still lurk.
I looked deeply in the mirror,
as I tried to find myself.
Got lost in chameleon eyes,
with emotions on the shelf.
When darkness had set in the moon was full;
my soul was merely empty.
And as the stars danced across evening skies,
hope was nowhere with me.
The rain clouds finally passed, but the tears they fell again
How can you come and go, then call yourself my friend?
I can no longer take the distance
When we remain so close
Who knew that it could hurt this much?
To be dancing with your ghost
So I run from home, to a foreign land
Where I’ll meet with the earth
To sink my toes in the sand.
I’ll dare to find hope again
Forget what I had known
Find castles beside seashores
To build a new home
And maybe some day, I will return
With a fist full of gold and a lesson I’ve learned
Although pockets of treasure
Can’t amount to this love
The haunting of ghost
were not sent from above.
So while I’m away
Upon my request
If nothing more
dream nothing less.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 6:56 PM UTC
Dear Boy I yet not know,
I am eager to earn your heart.
I look into your eyes
And I see your fears.
But hidden deep inside,
somewhere in the back corner of your heart,
you plead to escape the prison you have built yourself.
As I stair into your soul, the walls you are embodied by
show me how timid you are.
Scared that I may tear down, something that took so long to build.
But I revel not in angst, rather geniality.
They say fear is the heart of hate.
I see only hope for all things to come.
With you, me, and the questionable world that surrounds all of us in different ways,
there is a light at the end of this road we travel.
And though I fear your fears,
this hope is enough for me.
Because I know that with hope, all is possible.
And that anything that can be torn down, may be built back up.
Hope is the light I see hidden past your eyes.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 6:53 PM UTC