bluelilies

there was nothing
 substantial in you 
you were quite there 
but never quite, too
 like shadows at day 
when someone passes by
 you solidify 
you were there 
and you weren’t 
at the same time.

there were times 
when i thought 
i could hold you 
when i thought
 i already had you
 but thoughts
 aren’t always real 
and what is real 
aren’t really 
thought of.

see-through

you asked for a lifesaver
but nobody came
now you’re drowning in a river
of someone else’s pain